#ive also given myself a fucking earache from grinding my teeth so much today

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the sudden exhaustion of being told i don't have plans has hit...like a truck

#idk maybe its bc ive been up since 4am #or the weather or bc my teeth & mouth hurt again #idk #maybe in still having a flare from the cfs im positive i have #idkidk #im just tired & wish i could write full fics again #maybe i'll see if i can just not go anywhere for a few days #maybe that'll fix me. maybe #or #is it depression. has that mean bitch come back after fucking off for 6 months? #who knows. i sure hope not because now is not the time for her #ive been doing so well---though to be fair. i am actively watching my dog fade away #so that could also be a factor #ive also given myself a fucking earache from grinding my teeth so much today #idk. i keep trying to think up comfort scenarios & they all go from normal to awful #do my friends hate me or do i just need to go to sleep? who knows. idk what's happening currently #its very annoying & im sorry i keep being so fucking whiny & sad on main #im just over exhausted + my dog + my country wants me dead + everything else #kit releases his feelings