#its just me losing my mind as olivia is mentioned in an email or smth and contemplating the potential deep implications of i

[arolesbianism]

Every day I shake and cry as I stare longingly at years old posts and threads abt oni lore knowing very well that even if the original poster still gives a shit abt oni lore they probably don't give as much of a shit as I do

#rat rambles #oni posting #^ not said in a 'Im the only Real oni fan' way but in a 'Im insane' way #I know damn well Im the only guy who has a several hour lecture about olivia characterization based on barely anything locked and loaded #its just me losing my mind as olivia is mentioned in an email or smth and contemplating the potential deep implications of i #all while the mention in question is just that shell be at a party or smth (that is an actual example of exactly this experience btw) #look tbf it is a fascinating mention as it shoes that despite complications in olivia and jackies relationship olivia is still heavily #involved in company matters including stuff regarding company image and events #well ok saying heavily is probably a bit of a stretch but yknow involved nonetheless #it shoes some strange degree of trust on jackie's part even though she obviously doesn't actually trust or respect her much otherwise #thats a bit harsh but its not wrong jackie very much doesnt respect olivia like at all even if she might not think that she doesnt #and well jackie seemingly doesnt trust olivia to be given privy to certain information #tbf its because she knows damn well its stuff olivia would be against so its not like shes making an incorrect judgement there per say #but I do think on some level olivia is the closest thing to a person jackie sees as an equal #not nearly close enough evidently but olivia is despite everything an important person to jackie #jackie just also sucks and is too caught up in her own ambition to truly see how poorly she treats olivia #she wants olivia to be there and gives her a lot of resources and power along with additional responsibilities so on some level she does #see olivia as at the bare minimum more valuable to her goals than most ppl but along with the evident personal factors it becomes rly messy #it showcases one of the core flaws of jackie as a very emotionally driven person who wants to see and present herself as objective #and you see this is the bullshit I was talking abt I pulled all of that straight out of my ass and the tiniest bit from One email