#its gonna hurt like a motherfucker. and then the next day im getting my wisdom teeth removed

[widevibratobitch]

4 am. been writing and studying maps of spain and 16th century europe and trying to make sense of whatever bullshit schiller came up with and also trying to somehow connect the play canon and opera canon for the last 4 hours. i REFUSE to reread those 3000 stupid nonsensical clumps of letters that are now sitting in my google doc. it makes no sense. i cant read i cant write im gonna go climb a tree and stay there.

#so carlos was supposed to get on a ship in cadiz. schiller could choose literally any other port city in spain and he chose the one #that is literally THE furthest away from madrid. sure. why not. #oh also researching how fast one can ride on a horse is hell. #i might just throw it all away. throw all that useless knowledge into a dumpster and set it on fire #because it is literally of no importance to that fic in the first place #its just background. just exposition. it DOESNT matter. #anyway i have all the dialogue written already. had it for like. half a year already. #but writing around that is the nine circle of hell. #anyway. carlos cries a lot in this one lol #oh also #im getting my don carlo tattoo in two days. or tomorrow actually cuz its already tuesday now #its gonna hurt like a motherfucker. and then the next day im getting my wisdom teeth removed #this week is a festival of pain #anyway i could go to sleep now. BUT. #theres no guarantee that ill wake up early enough and i have to be in wroclaw by 2 pm so i gotta catch the train early enough #so yeah. guess SOMEONE will stay up all night writing fanfiction and feeling like shit and hopefully make it in time for class #in a city 200km away