#its 7am i font even know why im worrying anout it yet we arent going until like 10-11pm tonight

[xxcherrycherixx]

Starting to think its planning to go out that makes me feel sick and not i somehow always end up sick on the days that i want to go out

Hmm

Its the knowing of the upcoming disappointment i will face when it doesn’t go as i hoped it would.

#i just want to go dance to nice music and have fun with cool people #were going to a gay club so thats normally at least better than a regular club #part of me wanted to go to this female and nonbinary only club but i cant with the group im going with #maybe after this i will feel confident enough travelling to go there by myself #idk #its still gonna cost a lot tonight tho #which sucks #probably £15 for travel £5-£10 to get in probs a fuckton in drinks depending if they do rounds #im not a person who needs to drink at a club. like i kinda dont like drinking at clubs because of the risks- but my group gets wasted #like on the floor making a fool out of themself wasted. #idk its the london crowd and the last party i went to with the queer london crowd was nice. a lot of fun and very cool looking people #just hoping it doesnt turn out shit and i just sit around feeling depressed and bored while everyone else has fun #its 7am i font even know why im worrying anout it yet we arent going until like 10-11pm tonight