#it's been a bit since ive posted erisol but the erisol ive been drawing is self indulgent

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#its 2 am for me rn ughnnnnnnn #i was thinking of them #the text placement is a little botched srry abt that #eridan ampora #sollux captor #erisol #it's been a bit since ive posted erisol but the erisol ive been drawing is self indulgent #crappy looking #or both #but i love these two characters so much #I cant help but spit random hcs on them cuz we dont get TOO much of them in the main comic #so might as well #I just like their dynamic in general on a non shipping level #its so interesting cuz they are two sad soping wet people that are out for eachother in cold blood yet were forced to share a body with #eachother and not freak out and explode themselfs but choose to remain in a state of suffering #almost like their kinda familiar with that suffering but this time it's with the person they loathe the most (in a platonic sense) #It's reminiscent of self sabotaging #they like the feeling #they are with the person they hate more than they hate themself #but also more than they love themself #it helps them feel better abt themself #like “wow this guy is a fucking loser glad im not him” and also “he's just like me” #it creates an endless cycle of self hatred a coping mechanism but certainly not a healthy one #a codependency that prevents them from being lonely #or worse #alone with their own thoughts #although they are aspects of the other person that corrects the flaws of the other person #they are a shitty self portrait with a perfect frame #a deformed renaissance statue #im too tired to make other metaphors but you get it