#it was a lot and i couldnt remember it lol

[ryssbelle]

I forgot the set up so all yall get is the punchline

#my art #dreamworks trolls #trolls 3 #trolls #trolls band together #brozone #trolls john dory #trolls floyd #the set up had something to do with floyds earring #and john was like 'why the earring everyone already knows' #and then it led to this #it was a lot and i couldnt remember it lol #i remembered this section tho cuz i wrote it down #idk why this is the only one i wrote down #im a little silly #but hey thats why im so funny

[sea-buns]

Forgive me if I'm a bit nervous about Gorgug this season. It's just that the last Zac Oyama pc was Colin Provolone, who was arguably one of his greatest D20 performances, if not the greatest.

Zac always does great with every pc he plays, but Colin was something else. He came out swinging with actions and words that were teeming with unspoken emotional baggage. The way Colin's presence affected the other pcs; there was this level of depth that I don't think I've seen in any of his other characters. It was understated and quiet in that signature "just a guy" way that he tends to be, while still captivating everyone instantly with just how raw it was.

Not to say we haven't seen emotional depth in Gorgug. It's just that, compared to the other Bad Kids, Gorgug's journey and progression as a character has been very... impersonal? Like, yes, he found his birth parents, and he found friends who appreciate him, and he faced his insecurities about his intelligence, and he navigated relationship troubles, and his trial through the claustrophobic bug-tunnels was a horrifically-uncanny parallel to how he's spent his entire life trying to make himself as small as possible.

But how much of that has actually changed him from the Gorgug we started with? I would agree that he's definitely happier with his life, given all the loving and supportive people that have been added to it when it used to be just him and his parents. And he's certainly grown into himself and become more self-assured in his abilities, even if he's still, and always will be, our anxious little guy. And there's nothing wrong with that. I've always liked how Gorgug was a representation of all the little things. The subtle acts and kindnesses that don't seem like much to most, but to some are everything.

We don't need another Bad Kid living in fear that their mouth could be shit-in at any moment. We've already got one-too-many.

All that being said, I just feel like Gorgug's personal story beats are much easier to sweep under the rug than everyone else's. He has the same soft and understated quality that Colin held, but they lack that extra oomph that pushed Colin over the edge from being just another guy in a series of dudes, to a character that the vast majority of us could not get out of our heads. He took someone who was anxious and softspoken, who ultimately never wanted to be violent— someone who is remarkably similar to Gorgug in many ways— and maintained that demeanor and core in Colin's character while still hitting us in the feels with character development at max velocity at every turn.

I think Zac gets better and better at this with every season that goes by. With each new character, there is always something that leaves me stunned in awe. And it's been, what, three? Four years since we last saw Gorgug?

I'm just,,, I'm cautiously optimistic but also going into a bit of a worry about what violence this man may inflict upon us

#i got SO carried away LMAO #i dont think ive ever written any posts about gorgug specifically #i made a lot about colin. and some about pib. and some more about zacs performances in general. #but never anything gorgug-focused. i just wasnt on tumblr at those other times that hed been on my mind like this #you can tell i still couldnt resist talking about colin lol #he was just so fucking good. a fantastic character all around. i cant imagine a better example to get my point across than him #when i do posts like this its all very much just me taking a vague idea and working with whatever comes out in the moment #so when i tell you i very much did not plan to get lost in the counterargument and had to stop for a second to remember what my point was #my point still stands but so does everything else #you dont realize it. how similar gorgug and colin really are. or how metaphorical the bug tunnel was. #or how gorgug IS the epitome of little details. small acts. quiet rights and wrongs. the faint causes and the even subtler effects. #u dont truly realize it until youre writing it yourself in a free flow fugue state and it all comes to a halt cuz youve blown your own mind #anyway i love gorgug and i love zac pcs and i hope this post makes sense cuz finding the right words was fucking hard hah #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #gorgug thistlespring #the ravening war #trw #colin provolone #zac oyama

[hereforthe911buds]

the best and most excruciating ending for season 7 would be going full circle with Eddie unconscious in the hospital due to a very close call, with all the trauma of nearly losing Eddie in the season 4 shooting resurfacing for Buck. maybe there would be a scene where Buck isn't allowed to go visit Eddie while in ICU since he isn't legally family, really nailing into him that's what he wants to be for Eddie, even more than already being tied to Christopher. because Eddie is his person.

once out of the worst of it, Buck is alone with Eddie in a hospital room, Eddie still not conscious but improving. Buck is sitting by the bed holding his hand, while no longer on the edge of death, Buck is still really upset.

finally Buck releases, "I can't keep doing this. not just seeing you like this but not being able to be there every step of the way, because-"

he chokes on his word and pauses.

"there is something I want to tell to you. something that I've probably wanted to say for a while now, and I promise to tell you again when you wake up. but I need to say it once while I know you're breathing because I'll hate myself forever if I don't."

Buck stands up and leans over Eddie. he goes in close, lips hovering over Eddie's forehead, "I'm in love with you Edmundo Diaz" in the softest, most vulnerable volume possible before pressing a soft kiss on his temple, "and even if you don't love me back in the same way, I needed to say it."

there's no response. Buck knew there wouldn't be but he wanted one so bad, somewhat hoping for a fairytale moment. he pulls away but keeps talking to like they were having a conversation, "I need to go to the cafeteria for a drink, I'll be right back."

as his hand is slipping away, suddenly there is a squeeze back.

Buck nearly jumps out of his skin, on top of wondering if Eddie heard him just now. he is still too exhausted to open his eyes, but then Eddie sighs, "I love you too Evan Buckley". Buck is pale, looking terrified, and then the lightest smile.

and then BAM the scene cuts and the credits begin.

imagine the chaos of confirmation at the very last moment. the fan reaction. the interviews. everything, but also that being all we get story wise for some period of time. would be the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. I doubt it will go that way but it would really signify "we are picking up where the story should have gone in season 4" which i think would be beautiful.

#buddie #this one is a lot shorter than my other rambles lol #drabble #fan fiction #ramblings #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 abc #911 #laws may have changed regarding that visitation in intensive car thing. i can't remember. like you cant be banned in general anymore #but i remember growing up an reason for gay marriage was that some people couldnt visit in ICU or something

[shriekeasy]

PHOTO DUMP OF MY INVADER ZIM COLLECTION!!

#all my merch!! minus my invader zim face masks #couldnt remember where they were #tbh there might be a few unshown items i have a lot to grab lol #🍓👾;; invader zim #🍓👾;; my photos #invader zim merch #invader zim fan #invader zim enter the florpus #merch collection #y2k #scene kid #special interest #ok to rb!

[undefeatablesin]

Congratulations on getting close to 200!

I haven't been following for super long, but I really like seeing your art and hunter and just generally your brainrot. It's really cool. Hope you're having a good one!

Aaaa thank you so much!! I'm just glad you decided to follow and hang around at all and that you're enjoying my work and watching my constant spiral deeper into my incurable brainrot 😂 You're not that late to the party though, I haven't been in the fandom too long-I only completed my first playthrough of BB in Feb of this year, but I have been churning out stuff for it ever since. Seriously, the world of Bloodborne has me in a chokehold the likes of which I've never known but I'm glad about it!! It's a constant well of inspiration and this is probably the most engaging, sweet and welcoming fandom I've ever been a part of ❤️

I am having a really awesome time here, and I am so appreciative for all of you lovely people who make it so. I'm grateful to be growing as an artist alongside so many cool and inspiring people and that individuals like yourself are so kind and supportive of the stuff I do here. Pls stay tuned for ever deeper levels of bloodrot👍

#sinbox #(WONDROUS INBOX MESSAGES...) #(thank u sm for taking the time to visit i rly appreciate!!!) #(i am having a gr8 one i hope u are too friend) #(i remember lmao...buying bloodborne in like july of 2022 and being too intimidated to play it) #(bc i couldnt even get past the basic enemies in central yharnam and i didnt come back until feb this year) #(AND LOOK AT ME NOW LOOOL ON NG+5 AND A NEW SAVE FILE FOR RUZA SPECIFICALLY) #(and part of the best fandom i have personally ever found HOW THE TURN TABLES HUH) #(i love bb so much........i always have so much to say. its just gotten even worse since ruza was born LOL) #(I am permarotted so lmao THERE WILL BE LOTS MORE TO COME!!!) #(thanks again!!! i love chatting with y'all!!)

[sebastianshaw]

Conversation has now shifted to our nephew and how cool he is now as a teen

Me: I’m so glad I didn’t murder him earlier in life

Sister: Between you and dad it really is a miracle

#out of shirt #IM PERISHING #SHES RIGHT THO #DAD FREAKIN COULDNT STAND HIM AS A KID LOL #also oh my god my sister is now saying hey remember when it came out he didn’t know dad was his grandpa #UH WHAT NO I DID NOT KNOW #APPAREBTLY HE SAID THIS A FEW YEARS AGO #I mean biologically he’s not he’s my brothers son and my brother is from my moms first marriage but his bio grand dad is not in the picture #but no he knows mom is his grandma he calls her grandma he just called dad by his name #BUT I NEVER REALIZED HE THOUGHT HE WAS JUST SOME DUDE #This is hilarious and also makes a lot of sense actually

[evandorepart2]

ok anyway im leaving in. the day after tomorrow at like 2am so im just saying its tomorrow cause im literally just gonna stay up till then theres no point in sleeping. BUT two things. one i need to finish packing. my clothes are dry so i just have to bring them upstairs and pack. sort of stressed out bc like. i like my outfit i dont want to change it but everyones telling me its too hot for a leather jacket like i know!!!! but its my jacket :(

anyway i just have to do that so ill do it now and then…on top of that i wanted to get the draft for my ghost story done but i havent been working on it at all >_< ive just been reading comics the past couple days. so tomorrow. for sure. i will definitely work in getting the draft done totally.

but ugh im kind of nervous i havent seen these people in so long and im not great socially. also i dont go on trips in general so like. i hope i have energy for a full month yknow. i have a tendency of isolating myself when im stressed out but i dont have any space to do that…not that i should but whatever you know

#LIKE. im just eugh like im Bad at small talk. im better at dispensing information and leaving it that #or listening. ive been practicing listening a lot more so i dont overtalk and everyone gets a turn #OH RIGHT!!!! i hope. cause i have 4 cousins. two are toddler age #one is a little younger than me so like 13 but hes a boy idk how he is cause he might be annoying no offense <3 #and then an older girl whos around my brothers age so a few years older. and we never rlly talked cause it was always my brorher and her #last i saw them i was like. god idk it couldnt have been too young cause i got black out drunk before i stayed with them #so. 11? 12? definitely younger than 13 i know for a fact #im bad with times tho #anyway its been a while and im a lot older now. so i hope shes there so we can talk and be friends idk #apparently my brother isnt close to her anymore? he called her a bitch last time we talked abt her so. hope i do see her #and my aunt! i always liked her a lot and my brothers prob gonna be busy with our uncle. ill be stuck with the younger kids but thats ok i #dont mind since im used to handling my sister. apparently theyve wanted to meet me for a long time so i am super excited #i dont think anyones gonna expect what i look like tho lol i dont think anyone could have guess me being punk #not even me like i distinctly remember in elementary my friend. we were talking about mcr and emo / punk stuff and he was like. you coukd #never be like that. ummmmm well guess what dickhead!!!! jokes were actyally still close lol #ANYWAY i am fucking excited and nervous and have to find a normal way to bring up 18th century fashion or perhaps history of contemporary #folk

[dirt-str1der]

Two of the most popular kazumaji fics are roommate ones i just realised. It seems to be a good situation to put them in for their relationship to flourish , so the majima stan twitter / kiryu afraid of getting doxxed (he can be on the run from cops) post can come true

#Yakuza liveblog #in one kiryu and majima get sent off To Kill someone. actually what the fuck was up with their living arrangements #and to be clear majima was sent to scare a guy into submission and kiryu was sent to find out what the fuck is going on. and kiryu was #staying in one of kazamas little holdouts and majima was like yeah im becoming your roommate because i dont wanna live in a hotel and we can #work together on this case <3 and have lots of sex or whatever #and in the other fic majima and kiryu actually leave together rather than meet at their destination #and majima was going to fall asleep on the train and he took out a second eyepatch to put on like a sleeping mask it was so funny guys #in that one they lived together because kiryu needed to get out of the city because the cops are out to get him and majimas like (perks up) #me and you vacation NOWW . and though kiryus job is to relax on holiday while majima has like work to do (im remembering these two had lots #of sex too) (this is also the fic where kiryu injured his leg so he couldnt parkour over a giant wooden door and his solution was to #OBLITERATE IT with his FISTS like holy Shit !!) and kiryu Still manages to get entangled within the plot and he gets kidnapped because hes #too stupid to survive but too hardy to die. and then after fixing everything they have a few down days of vacay and live in the penthouse #suit they destroyed because majima was trying to murder someone and kiryu is like NO !!! that boy has a MOTHER and killing people is wrong. #thats why they were racing to get to the guy lol and they just conceeded defeat when kiryu exploded a door because he was too scary

[bmpmp3]

started another new cover and genbu has been making. brand new and unusual sounds on some of his "re"'s. at first i thought it was just noise from me bumping up his tension and breathiness (i like to lean into a robotic sound with him :) ) but i turned him back to normal and he keeps on clicking........... he surprises me every day <3

EDIT: i have deciphered the issue: his default "o" phoneme does Not play nice with his default "r" phoneme, but you specifically need to go into note properties and change the o, not the r, in order to fix it. alt1 o and alt2 o both work fine! if anyone else ever finds themself with a clicking genbu LOL

#a soft click on the first reijuu and then a LOUD like echoing click on the kore ga HKJDJDS #but it didnt happen with the other reijuu.... i have a theory somethings up with him and o-sounds before re maybe #but also i opened a blank file and just starting making him say -o +re sounds and i couldnt reproduce it #maybe its something with the ust? i usually clear out any parameters but maybe i missed one somwhere #or of course something in the new synthv update may have busted him a little further LOL i remember that happened a long time ago #with some of the standard and lite banks? time for some troubleshooting <3 i expect nothing less of him #OH also UST is by ﾉﾁｬ (nocha?) on niconico -> sm36181282 #(song is kilmer by nilfruits. groovy song that needs a lot of CWs before recommending it to anyone) #still working on fixing up the ust to work with genbu (original ust was made for a utau with a bajillion extra suffixes) #(like breaths and rolls and fries and all that. which is fine but genbu doesn't have those LOL) #but soon i'll see what i can do about the. um. clicks. i'll see if alternate phonemes or something will chill em out GHKJDJFDS

[tracfone]

hearing you only think in pictures is wild to me. I only think in words, I have literally no idea how to even conceptualise not having words in my brain 24/7 how do you like. have complex thoughts /gen

like if you were gonna idk, try and work out a pros and cons list for something, how do you go through the process of debating over which one goes where internally?

It probably sounds odd when I explain it but I'll try my best haha

Most of my thoughts are in pictures, movies, sound, etc but I think a lot of it is because I'm daydreaming......a good chunk of the time im awake. Often if I start feeling something suddenly, I'll imagine a character/some warped cartoon version of "myself" acting out the emotion I'm feeling--this can also result in me like, not processing or reacting to the emotion externally much if at all lol. It'll feel like it already happened, or it's "processed". I've reacted to it in my head so I've already acted out how I feel about it and if I don't have to tell anyone else how I'm feeling I don't really need to think about how it feels with letters, it's just kind of for me? I guess. I have a hard time explaining

In your example when I'm making a pros and cons list, it will be one of the few times I do think in words, but purely because I'm preparing to externalize it (like writing this reply!!). It's not even that words are entirely absent from my inner experience/thoughts, they're just not my own unless I am planning to type/write them out somewhere physically

#cant remember if i thought a little more in words before i was fully medicated. maybe #so many distressing thoughts all at once i couldnt just stop thinking about #again hope this makes any sense. trying to describe my thoughts/feelings is a lot like transcribing #transcribing an image or video that doesn't stay perfectly opaque in your head lol

[gibbearish]

anyways we dont talk enough abt the fact the primary reason most christians support israel despite the uhh History between those two faiths is bc they believe jewish ppl returning fully to israel +specifically jerusalem is the thing that starts the rapture and seven horns and whatnot. like they specifically want them back so the end of days can start they don't actually give a shit abt israel or jewish people (or palestinians but that parts already obvious) or how many people die getting to that point because well if they get back then we're all gonna die anyways and be with jesus forever so its fine:)!!

#which funnily enough i couldnt find anything abt in my readthrough of revelations? #like maybe i just missed it but i couldnt find anything in there saying that was actually a prerequisite #just a bunch of news articles and surveys saying christians think thats what it is #like i was double checking bc that being the motivation had been something i knew forever so #wanted to check if it was actually right before talking out of my ass based on half remembered sermons but #no guess i remember the sermons abt the end times just fine lol #idk i guess what im saying is if anyones like. looking for a reason why this country is consistently ignoring the whole genocide thing #maybe just maybe this might have something to do with it #obv none of them will directly say 'if genocide is what it takes to start the endtimes then im fine with that bc i want that to happen' #but. thats what it is a lot of the time

[boygirlctommy]

ok i really need to rewatch these games bcus i dont understand what half of these notes are referencing but me and my brother decided the order was 4-> 5-> 2-> 1-> 3-> 6

#my post #we did not in fact figure out when most things happened tho #why did we day fnaf4 took place in 1984 #we also said it was the first freddy fazbears pizza location (surrounded by many many question marks) #and just. shoved the mci into there???? #we put william telling mike to fix elizabeth just after 4. and then had afton get springtrapped immediately afterwards lol loser #uhhhhhh fuck we didnt figure out when elizabeth died though. just a vague arrow pointing towards the past #although if we put SL as right after 4 then that wouldve happened before 4 #decided charlie emily died sometime between summer and november 1987. based on what? couldnt tell you there is no context on this paper #this is based on like really long discussions/arguments we had last year ok i dont remember what we said #oh theres lots of contradictions in here as well #yeah this is still confusing as hell. thinking back i dont think we even really agreed on the tl which is why theres 2 different ones here #but we dont need to talk about that #mmmm my main issue with putting 5 after 4 is that in that cutscene we see the aftermath of 3 #which would mean it takes place after 3 #so. it *could* also be 4-2-1-3-5-6 #goddammit this still doesnt help me figure out how to draw michael #mmmm ok well michael is confused that hes not dead meaning he doesnt know how remnant works. ok. he wants to find his dad. ok. #so that one theory of mike like helping william and collecting remnant for him makes no sense. bcus he doesnt KNOW why hes still alive and #surely hed understand if he knew what remnant was. ugh but IF 5 is after 3 and hes not helping william WHY does he go to 2 and 1?? why is #he fucking with the animatronics? what are his fucking MOTIVATIONS in any of this?? well he could go to 2 and 1 if hes looking for william. #i mean doesnt someone use one of the suits in fnaf 2? and the extra rooms get boarded uohmygod no FUCK william couldnt have been springtrap #ped just after 4 if he used one of the suits in 2. goddamn it ok so hes springtrapped during 2 and they board him up in one o the rooms. #i am simply talking myself in circles i do not understand anything any more than i did like an hour ago

[cupuasu]

been thinking maybe i should buy resident evil after all its ma favorite zombie game (and its on sale!) but weirdly enough i have never actually played it properly. i just watched my brother play them for hours and hours until he finished the game. literally like watching a game stream but IRL

#plus im a coward that has full body shakes when startled/jumpscared and my hands get too sweaty and also shake a lot when im nervous #and i do not want to drop my controls or damage the switch in any way #i vaguely remember the times where my brother allowed me to play and i'd go real far away from the tv and turn into a ball bc i was scared #couldnt even tell the controls vibration from mine lol #love the game tho #it was remastered and surely the 2000s graphics are not as scary as i remember #plus leon hot. ada hot. #yeah i think im gonna buy it....

[pjackk]

Yep another miesrable "F my life" moment just hapened to me i basicaly walked 10 miles up the mountain to get to behind to the gas station to see my plug to buy me my with my favorite delta 8 pipe rocks and grab another 6er of tall boy steelies and i forgot i had my lit pre roll from brunch at the Country Grocerys buffet and i tripped on a congom on they away out and fell directly into a puddle of oil which normaly is fine when i fall and hurt myself ebcause nobody gives a fuck about me but the pants got stained wich is not unusual for me either but this time with motor guel or some shit but my pre roll was smoldering still and it set my ptants on fire so i dive in to the muddy ditch to put wet mut on my body to estinguish the fire and it and it shook the fuck up out of my steelos and the bursted all over me and it put out the fire but now i dont have any booze at all and my delta 7 "Fuck n chill" rocks burned tf up and i dont got nothgin left and my pants were all fucked up so i had to go home thru the woods wihtout them and it was so dark out and my peice of shit phone died even thouhg it was at 27% and i couldnt see shit and i was lost for along time so i decide to go to sleep in the woods to find my way back in day time + the animals sounds were high key scary as fuck so i cover myself in leafs and dirt and sticks and mud and other shit to hide from them and i woke up in the adfternoon still tired as fuck cuz i dont sleep good without some shit to put me asleep like my medicidne prescribed from Dr Maltlikker if U catch my drift lol or Dr thc Gummy lol if u get what im saying and these stupid little cunts with 22 rifles were plinking at me and tlaking about how they wanted to shoot my big ugly rusty head right in the head or to shoot a hole in my nippels so i got up and trioed to get them to stop i begged but htey just kept lauhging at me and shooting at me and it realy hurt my feelings so i pick one up and threw it into the sky then they all ran away screaming which is a classic "Dont fuck with honest joe,because he might try to hurt you or kill you if u piss him of moment" but the miracle of the story if that i went to walk 20 feet to findm y way out and i found my busted as shit old as fuck camry with a litle gas left ive been looking for it for a few days cuz i did a lil cruising when i was blackout and did lots of crazy shit i didnt remember at all but it was all on my story and 100 ppl were snaping and whatsapping me telling me to kill myself when i checked my huwawai thats how u know u had a crazy fcking night when u get that shit!!😂😂 but it had a litle gas left and it wasnt super busted so i was able do get back on I81 and soem stupid fcking crazy ass north carolina motha fuckas are driving insanly as fuck as usual and they keep almost hiting me while im just trying to read my fukcking phone to get rid of all these stupid messages and shit i still dont know how to use the app and its hard to type shit with my hands but eventualy i got back to my fuck buddys houe im crashing there even though he hates me now but i have nowehre left since ive been down on my luck and im realy not able to pay the bills no more with my online black jack/DarkRp trial moderator gigs and basicaly he owes me cuaz i got him 1 pack of menthols back when he was 19 and Sleepy Joe Brnadon banned them since "Freedom to do real shit" was aparently removed from the costitution when he was elected😂 but anywas now im sitting here bored as fuck with nothign at all do do cuz i got nothing to get fucked up wthi and i spent the rest of my meony on shit thats burned and blasted im realy worried i wont be able to sleep tongith since i cant get fucked up and thats when the demons starts to flow in my head i might do something realy bad to myself like pluck out my screws or some shit if u care abotu my which u probably dont my cashuapp is $pjack9 im desprate for another bottle to numb my p[ain away

Pic of my ride when i found it thankuly it still had gas😋

[weed-cat]

Great news everyone i woke up this morning feeling not nauseous for the first time since my suicide attempt a couple days ago

#SERIOUSLY that sucked fam #honestly i don't even really remember being in the hospital i just remember throwing up a lot and thinking i was going to die lol #oh also my motor skills were struggling real bad for like 12 hours at least i couldnt talk until the next day #overdoses aren't fun kids

[reignbowarbiter]

i played the unrivaled meteor ranger so much that i genuinely started to love it

#cheese *blush* #I USE TO HATW IT SO MUCH CUS I THOUGHT IT WAS TOO SILLY #WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME #i remember i couldnt get pass the level cus i didnt have any cards of any of them and i didnt wanna level up 3 star cards #but i ended up leveling 1 4 star kanata card and now i use it so much LOL #i also love him a lot hes a very inch resting character