#it is so heavy sometimes and i just want to share rhe weight even a litrle bit

[goredinner]

Seems like I'm always fighting some kind of battle that I can't honestly tell anyone about

#i cant even ask for help #like ever #i get that i have to go thru it on my own but do i really have to #every time #it is so heavy sometimes and i just want to share rhe weight even a litrle bit #but i just cry alone everyday til it goes way and fucking rant like an idiot on tumblr lol #i dont actually know how i can be so good pretending when it hurts this much #what even is the point #of pretending #i should just start sobbing in front of everyone and throw a giant tantrum and bother everybody im unhappy with #like #if im this unhappy and hurt all alone why dont i make it everyone elses problem #out of spite i just want to fucking be an actual problem #take it out on everybody else instead of on myself #im so tired of caring about everybody else in the way that i cant ask for help and bother anyone #where do i put all this sadness tho it suffocating lol #wish i wasnt such a burden on myself and others #wish i was easier