#it honestly feels like i have a goddamn poltergeist stealing my shit and making me go insane

[choking-on-roses]

It doesn't matter how long I live with ADHD or how many coping mechanisms I have...I *am* going to lose very important things and I *am* going to feel like a dumb little baby whenever that happens and get so frustrated I could cry. Why does my own brain hate me so bad? Do you understand how fucking terrifying it is to just FORGET important things in your life? It's scary and belittling and takes away your own sense of agency and competency every single time...

#adhd #personal #i lost my hanko #which is like. ARGH #i NEED it in order to sell my car #i cannot find it anywhere. it's in NONE of the places where i keep important things #so where did it go?? #i ordered a new one online for 3000 yen and i still have to take it to city hall to get it registered #which like. i have fucking work!! it's closed by the time i finish work! #so it'll take me forever to get it replaced and just. i have sooooo many things i have to take care of on my days off i don't have time!!! #like what if. i just could fucking find important things when i need them #it honestly feels like i have a goddamn poltergeist stealing my shit and making me go insane #my own brain is fucking haunted bro #anyway. i am VERY anxious about this. everything i try to do has 100 extra steps