#it feels very much the summary of mei trying to save kiana all this time

[elegyofthemoon]

i feel like i need to go back and reread the earlier manga even though they were retconned within the timeline but i feel so bad for mei in chapter 15 :(

i think it was in st.freya high/escape from nagazora (which i know are ggz or honkai gakuen 2 manga but it was on the reading list so i read it anyways asdlkfah), but i think a lot about how she was so afraid of her powers as a herrscher, and how it was kiana that had saved her back then.

there's "will of the herrscher" where she finds out that kiana's the herrscher of the void, and in parallel with escape from nagazora, mei tries to save kiana, and calling out to kiana, she does manage to get kiana's consciousness back but loses it so quickly and soon enough loses kiana in the process

then finally over in arc city, when she thought she would be able to reunite with kiana and bring kiana back home -- even despite everything, even despite how much kiana feels like she doesn't deserve to go home -- she still isn't able to save kiana the way kiana had saved her several times now, and how powerless she must feel against durandal taking kiana away from her.

she just wants kiana back :( please reunite them...

#avil plays hi3 #i am hhhhh #i love you hi3 you have such good character development but also i am In Pain #raiden mei #tbh ! i havent thought much about mei #IN A LONG WHILE ACTUALLY im pretty sure the last coherent thought i had about her was back in ch 8 with the animation and the parallel ive #mentioned #but its so good.... i love it #side thing i cant listen to durandal in cn because when she talks my brain goes 'vENTI ?!?!?!?! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺VENTIIIII' #durandals cool though i like her as well (i like her wife but thats a different thing) #idc if this is coherent tbh i was just putting pieces together #i love kiamei T _ T they are good and they make me happy (i am in absolute Pain over them) #idk i think theres something very artistic about mei trying so hard to chase after the speeding light that is durandal #it feels very much the summary of mei trying to save kiana all this time #always always out of reach