#interestingly its the ending that evokes this the most strongly. you know what it deserves to live rent free in my head.

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Utena gives me the weirdest feeling of deja vu. I love it, but it shouldn’t do that. Not like this.

#💚.txt #txt #like. this isn’t ‘oh i just watched this like 6 months ago and have been hyperfixating ever since #this isnt ‘i have been friends with bon for 7 years’. #this is.. ‘??????????????’ #its like. softly brushing my hand over some long since healed scar on the penultimate layer of my psyche and feel a faint roughness. #the slightest imprint of something that was once there #idk. maybe im just insane. maybe its the drugs. ive felt this way for. a while but who knows? #its weird and it kind of freaks me out but it also makes the whole series that much more interesting #interestingly its the ending that evokes this the most strongly. you know what it deserves to live rent free in my head. #good for you utena episodes 38-39. you earned it