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nabbit-unmasked · 3 months

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Current strongest kin: Vox

Current most preferred name: Sage or any kin name

Stimboard/moodboard requests closed :<

Carrd:

Intro Post!

Hi! I'm Sage/Stolace, but you can also call me by any kin name. I'm also fine with any nicknames you can come up with, as long as they're spinoffs of my other names!

• I'm an Alterhuman, and that's what this blog will be mainly focused on, with a special focus on placekin topics.

• My pronouns are he/it/lo/🇨🇫

• I am Autistic and attribute this as the source of my alterhumanity.

• I'm a minor (16+ in age)

• I am a therian, placekin, fictionkin, conceptkin, and an alterhuman in general. Overall, I have 10+ confirmed kintypes which I'll list down below.

• I am genderfluid, and my sexuality is achillean. I identify as trans and mlm. I am also objectum, especially for The Gambia and dakota discs.

• Taken by Val (he is my boyfriend /srs)

• I personally identify as a punk, degenerate, freak, and social reject. I reclaim these terms proudly.

• I am the functioner of an Imagian plurality. Collectively, we use they/them pronouns. We are mixed-origin and pro-endo.

Plural sideblog: @imagimation-plurality

[ Kinlist, Identities, Tags, and BYF under the cut. ]

♡ -> Kinlist <- ♡

• Theriotypes (Confirmed):

♡ Lipizzan

♡ Fisher

♡ Ruminantia (Cladotherian)

♡ New Guinea Singing Dog / Canine

♡ Big Cat (Lion / Cougar)

• Placekin:

♡ Central African Republic (C.A.R. / CAR)

• Conceptkin:

♡ Home Safety Hotline (HSH)

*[as in the company, not the physical game]

• Fictionkins:

♡ Stolace* (Helluva Boss)

♡ Vox (Hazbin Hotel)

♡ Adam (Hazbin Hotel)

♡ Moisty (TWISTED DOCTOR Universe / Doll Eye)

♡ Nabbit (Mario Franchise)

♡ 1st Prize (BBIEAL)

*[ I spell my name as "Stolace", not "Stolas". ]

• Synpath/Fictionhearted:

♡ Blitzø (Helluva Boss)

♡ Valentino (Hazbin Hotel)

• Other Identities:

♡ Myotis/Little Brown Bat w/ Leafnose

♡ Ardeidae plurityped

♡ Bedbug copinglink

Special Tags:

#get me out of here: Dysphoria about being human, wanting to me an animal, and rejecting humanity. (not exclusively my tag)

#I am the CAR kin / #CARstuff🇨🇫: Posts about my placekin experience as the Central African Republic.

#placekin questions: Answering questions about Placekin and my experience with being placekin.

#🇨🇫❤🇬🇲: Posts about me and my objectum crush/squish, The Gambia.

#sango posting: Posts in my national language--- Sango! (Note: I am not a native speaker.)

#aWannabe: Posts about my favorite music artist, aWannabe.

Before You Follow (BYF) :

• I am a minor (16+)

• I don't mind if 18+ blogs interact in a SFW manner, as long as your blog isn't entirely/mostly NSFW

• I like Hazbin Hotel and 4-5 of my headmates are sourced there (some ppl have this on their DNI???)

• I'm dating Valentino from Hazbin Hotel. /srs

• I am against gatekeeping and exclusion.

• I welcome and support every kind of system, plurality, and multiplicity, including endos. I am part of a mixed-origin imagian plurality myself.

• I welcome factkin and factives. I am not one myself.

• I learn towards anti-proship, but I have no DNI.

• I do not post or repost anything political on this blog unless it is in reference to placekin.

• I have no DNI. I cannot stop you from making that first interaction with me. If I strongly disagree with your views or you make me uncomfortable, I will just block you.

• NOTE: I associate stuffies and plushies with regression, childhood, happiness, and comfort. So, for this reason, I am uncomfortable with blogs focused on sexual attraction to plushies/stuffies interacting with my page. I will block you for my own comfort and safety. I have nothing against you for just existing, but I'd prefer not to see those kinds of posts and blogs. (SFW and Non-sexual plushums/plush objectum blogs are totally fine! :3 )

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sus-panicattac · 11 months

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Welcome to Hell You Sons of Benches

Sup, they/he/she, agender, bisexual fem preference

I'm not officially diagnosed but on the process to be with: ADHD, depression ~ I will talk a lot about relating to / having symptoms of ADHD especially, so if that is uncomfy then no worries im diagnosed with: anxiety, ocd (lowkey im not feelin the symptoms of either compared to when i was a really little child but i digress)

VTUBERS -> 2434:🤟/👟☯️/👻🎼/🎭🕒/💫💜/👻📌/🐠/👼⭐ | indie: 🌊🪼(kai) | KPOP -> skz: 🐶 | twice: 🐶 | txt: 🐻 i also like idolish7 + sk8 the infinity + genshin impact + south park + death note + 2000s scene culture + psycho-pass + bungou stray dogs + clowns + league of legends + danganronpa but my interests are ever changing

Someday when I am brave enough + the internet doesn't feel like a spawn of hell for content creators I hope to post my art and writing. I always kind of wished to be a content creator as a wee youngin so yk- I will keep yall updated on that

My exact age is none of your business but I won't interact too much w/ 18+ or NSFW content (on this account anyway lmaoo) if you see i liked nsfw then no, no you didnt (its for my nsfw blog lmao)

I actually started to browse tumblr w/o an account years ago on specific tags and was always saving posts like "someday when i have a tumblr ill be able to interact w/ them!!!", then like exactly a year ago tumblr started stopping me like "yo you need an account for access clearance" and then i stopped using it UNTIL NOW

Join me on my adventure to rediscover every single blog I looked at as a degenerate prepubescent to postpubescent!!!! This means that my reblogs will sometimes be very random, from years ago, and/or from communities I am no longer in.

I slap reblogs on around the day that i think i found the post, so just check in my archive and you can see my life struggles in like reverse chronological order! :D

Queue posts will post at 6 am, 12 pm, and 6 pm CST/CDT for now yes american please point and laugh

Always remember, don't kill the part of you that's cringe, kill the part of you that cringes!

Uhhhhh DNI if you disagree w/ me a lot ig bc then why would you interact w/ me that sounds like extra stress for you

Twitter: you found me through the vtuber twitter didnt you Discord: dm me somewhere if we're moots Pinterest!!!: https://www.pinterest.com/suspanicattac/ Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/31gv2xb67qcn46sobmmyyrhabipu Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@sus-panicattac/featured

if you find me on this through other places not listed above this blog probably does not feature any part of me that is remotely like where you found me

#what the fuck do i tag this with #newbie to tumblr #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #ppanicposts #self introduction #ppanicrblgs #ppanicasks #ppanicylist #pubescentppanic #why have a carrd when you can have a pinned tumblr post #ppanichaswords #ppanichastags

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panharmonium · 4 years

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persistence [ficlet]

summary: Merlin was giving Will the Eyes. The “open your mouth the wrong way and I’ll stuff a dirty sock in there” eyes. (aka: Daegal tries his hand at carpentry again, and Will tries to be polite about it.)

context for newcomers: last week @once-and-future-gay wrote a post imagining what it would have been like if Will and Daegal had both lived and gotten to interact with one another, and I loved it so much that I wrote a fic for it.

The other day she sent me the following messages, and - well, you can probably guess what happened next.

i just had this idea of daegal refusing to give up w the carpenting, and trying to make a little will statue made out of wood

it is....... abysmal

but will just sort hides a grimace because he appreciates the hard work that went into it and thanks him for it

it sits on his bedside table but if anyone asks no it doesn't

Merlin was giving Will the Eyes. The “open your mouth the wrong way and I’ll stuff a dirty sock in there” eyes.

Will had never been much intimidated by that look, but he did still refrain from vocalizing any of the immediate thoughts that popped into his head, piercing Merlin with an irritable who do you think i am look over the top of Daegal’s head instead.

To Daegal, Will offered a valiant, somewhat strained smile. “You’ve made something!” he remarked, forcing as much enthusiasm into this statement as he could muster, deciding it was safest to stick to simple observations for now, in order to avoid being forced to ask a very confused question or, worse, give a demonstrably false compliment.

“Yeah, I have,” Daegal replied, looking nervous, as he set his offering down on one of Gaius’s tables. “Merlin said - well, I’m to be practicing persistence this week, he told me. So I decided to have another go at the carpenter’s bench.”

“Oh, did you now?” Will, suddenly comprehending, caught Merlin’s eye, silently communicating a dire promise of revenge-to-come. “Merlin said that, did he?”

“Yeah,” Daegal replied. Behind him, where Daegal could not see, Merlin waggled his eyebrows at Will. “And he said maybe I ought to make something for you, since you were teaching me and I never did say thank you. Thank you, by the way,” he added.

Will struggled to tear his eyes away from Daegal’s mangled creation, the wooden surface of which looked as if it had been carved with someone’s teeth, instead of proper tools. “You’re welcome,” he managed, with some difficulty. Sorry I didn’t teach you better, he thought to himself, but he did not say so out loud, because that was definitely the sort of thing that would earn him a sock in the mouth. “Er - it’s really...” He rubbed the back of his neck. “...Good on you for trying again,” he settled on finally. “That shows a fair bit of...what was it?”

“Persistence,” Merlin said, looking unbearably smug.

“Persistence, yeah.” Will clapped Daegal awkwardly on the shoulder. “Well done.”

“I know it doesn’t look very good, still,” Daegal admitted, fingering his sleeve.

Will couldn’t very well disagree, not without losing absolutely all credibility, but - “Doesn’t need to look good if it’s sturdy,” he opted for instead, which was true, and perhaps especially so in this case - Daegal’s lumpy sculpture was so chunky and riddled with nails it looked as if it might have the potential to kill, were Will to bash it over an assailant’s head. “It’s solid work,” he decided, which was technically true, at least in the most literal sense. “Thank you.”

The smile that bloomed across Daegal’s face in response to this was far more satisfying a reward for Will than the poorly-constructed figurine itself, even if Merlin would have to hold him at swordpoint to make him admit it.

“All right, you,” Merlin said, packing a medicine bag into Daegal’s arms and chivvying him out of the physician’s chambers. “You can’t monopolize the kingdom’s craftsmen all day; they’ve got work to do. Off with your deliveries.”

Daegal managed to get in one last wave at Will before being scooted out the door. Only after Will heard the sound of his footsteps disappearing down the tower steps did he turn back to Merlin, his eyes widening. “You bastard,” he said with feeling. “That near to killed me.”

Merlin was already laughing. “It’s not so bad.”

Will picked up the sculpture and brandished it at Merlin’s face, nearly dropping it to the floor when he realized it weighed roughly as much as a millstone. “You’ve seen it, haven’t you? You’ve got a close enough look?”

Merlin grinned and pushed Will’s arm out of the way. “I’ve seen it.”

“Lugh almighty,” Will muttered, staring at the cobbled-together clump of wood. “What is it supposed to be, even?”

“You mean to say you don’t recognize the model?”

Will squinted at the area of the sculpture that ought to correspond to the place where a person’s face should go, though the charcoal-drawn features left rather a lot to the imagination. “No.”

“Sure and certain, are you?”

“Pretty sure.”

Merlin tapped Will under the chin. “Have a look in the mirror, William.”

Will’s horrified gaze snapped back to the figure in his hand. “That is not me!” he protested. “It’s not even smiling!”

“I know,” Merlin said. “That’s how I know it’s a good likeness.”

Will cuffed Merlin across the back of the head; Merlin, unperturbed, wandered back over to the remedy he’d been mixing, picking up his mortar and pestle and returning to his herb-grinding.

“He worked on that for ages, you know,” Merlin remarked, sprinkling a spoonful of tiny seeds into his bowl.

Will turned the sculpture over in his hands, hoping in vain that it might look better from behind. The piece was still woefully crooked, and the bits that were apparently meant to be arms had been attached to the body at wildly different heights, giving the impression that Wooden Will was either suffering from an unfortunate disorder of the spinal column or performing a very dramatic, one-sided shrug.

“He likes you,” Merlin commented.

There was a hint of something slightly more serious to Merlin’s voice that time, an earnestness that prompted Will to avert his eyes. He turned away and set the little figurine back down on the table, steadying its precarious wobbling until it could stand upright. “So? I like him, too. He’s a likable little thing.”

“A likeable thing, yeah. Not a very trusting one, though.”

“Bright of him, that.”

“He’s leery about people.”

Will busied himself with adjusting the figurine again, even though it was already balancing perfectly well on its own. “Can’t say I blame him.”

“I don’t blame him, either,” Merlin said, his pestle thunking rhythmically against its bowl. “But that’s a hard way to live, I think.”

Will stared at the figurine's comically unsmiling face. “You'd know, I suppose,” he murmured.

“I wasn’t talking about me.”

Will knew perfectly well what Merlin had meant, but he would rather swallow an entire beaker of Gaius's violently green canker remedy than have this conversation.

“He's got quite fond of you, you know,” Merlin offered, when Will did not say anything else.

“Good on him, Merlin. I'm glad.”

“He trusts you,” Merlin persisted, in a quieter voice. “He doesn't trust anybody.”

Will glanced surreptitiously at the window, wondering if he could avoid any more of this painful sincerity by jumping out of it. Surely such a dramatic stunt would be enough to warrant a change of subject, even if Merlin could be more tenacious than Daegal, when he had a compliment to bestow, and especially when he knew Will would rather crawl out of his own skin than hear it.

Will shrugged, his eyes fixed on the open casement. Thunk, thunk, went Merlin's pestle in its bowl.

“What do you want me to say, Merlin?” Will said finally, profoundly uncomfortable. “I'm a trustworthy fellow, aren’t I?”

The clinking of Merlin’s pestle stopped, and Will instinctively glanced over, only to find himself trapped by a frightfully fond gaze. “That,” Merlin said softly, “is understating it, I think.”

Will was the first to look away, returning his fierce attention to the window. Five steps to the casement, seven stories to the bottom.

Merlin picked up his mortar and pestle again, returning to his work, the two stone tools knocking against one another as he ground up the handful of seeds. Thunk, thunk.

“Come sit with me for a bit,” Merlin said, after a moment, his tone light, like they hadn’t just been having a serious conversation, like Merlin hadn’t just been trying to say something horribly important, like he didn’t mind if Will pretended not to hear or never answered him back or declined to meet Merlin’s eyes for the rest of the day. Will relaxed immediately, abandoning his contemplation of the window without a second thought, the same way he always did whenever Merlin asked him to come back, his resolve to run for it overpowered by an embarrassing wave of gratitude, one that unbalanced his guarded heart, leaving it as treacherously wobbly as the legs of Daegal's sculpture. This, right here, was one of the things that Will liked best about Merlin, if it were even possible to enumerate such a list - that Merlin always knew, somehow, when Will was getting ready to go jumping out of windows, and that he always agreed to put a lid on things, in those moments, even though his kettle of affection was perpetually boiling over.

Merlin did not believe in such a thing as too much love, Will knew. But Merlin did understand that for some of them, at least, there was such a thing as too much at once.

Will joined him at the table, settling onto a worn oaken bench and resting his chin on his folded arms, watching Merlin’s pestle scrape along the sides of its corresponding bowl. A summer breeze wafted in through the open casements, rustling bunches of dried herbs that dangled from the ceiling and ruffling a stack of parchment on the windowsill. Outside, the bustle of the castle grounds was a distant medley of labor in progress - hunting hounds barking in the kennels, and the jingle of tack, and the distant rap rap of a hammer.

Will had his own work waiting for him out there, too. But it could wait a little longer.

“One thing,” he murmured, staring down the table at Daegal’s creation, a faint frown creasing his brow. “Not that it matters - I’m keeping it, whether or no...but I’ve just got to ask. Did he paint it, or is that - ”

“Blood,” Merlin sighed, continuing to grind away. “It’s blood.”

Will shook his head. Of course it was.

#bbc merlin gen #willappreciation2020 #MOAR??????? WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT #@once-and-future-gay keeps sending me on wild writing tangents #it's so rare for me to be interested in AU scenarios #but 'will and merlin are daegal's surrogate dads' apparently hits the sweet spot for me XD #fic #the once and future slowburn #verse: offcut joinery #no kings no masters #the physician's apprentice

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docholligay · 6 years

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Thanks for kind words behind the cut

sphinxfeathers replied to your post

“I’m a little nervy about the con/my life right now, so if anyone had...”

Your stories always make my day. Having been a fanfic reader and writer for many years, I’ve seen a lot of people come and go in the fandom and your writing is by far the most amazing and emotional. I hope someday that you write a book and I will be able to enjoy it.

Thank you so much, this is so kind

verbforverb replied to your post

“I’m a little nervy about the con/my life right now, so if anyone had...”

Your fiction always makes me smile. Your non-fiction always makes me think. Your eye for detail in both is incredible, and I find the way you describe the craft of writing incredibly interesting and useful as well. And writing aside, you're kind of an amazing role model and also hilarious, A+ would yell at about eurovision again.

Thank you so much and I swear if the UK ever wins eurovision (AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA) I’m going to be there and we’ll figure out a way to go.

@themiscyra1983 said:

Your canons have supplanted actual Sailor Moon and Overwatch canons for me, and did so BEFORE J.K. Rowling finally drove me into full on ‘death of the author is a valid practice we should all as fans adopt like crazy’ mode, so that’s the regard I hold you in, and I’m sorry I can’t come to Toronto but I’m sure you’ll be awesome.

Thank you so much! I love so much, because I am vain, when people tell me I *am* Overwatch to them, and this is the first time I’ve ever heard it about sailor moon and I am THRIVING.

@skylineofspace said:

I find your honesty and integrity incredibly admirable, and your advice and example has helped me a lot to be better and more satisfied in my own life. Have fun at the con, and be there very slightly nicer Michiru we all need.

ahaha, THANK YOU. THis was so sweet.

rhiorhino

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“I’m a little nervy about the con/my life right now, so if anyone had...”

Idk if like this is weird or cheesy or w/e but I really look up to you a lot, as like a writer and a person, and I've gotten a lot more confident pushing myself to talk about wlw and stuff just from saying "my friend doc and her wife jill" "my buddy, her wife is a vet and-" y'know, stuff like that. It's really helped me push myself to be more open, through you kind of? I really appreciate your frankness and willing to be open about hard truths and what's *needed* Not just what's *wanted* I’m like a super anxious and “shaky pink thing” in general but just being in chat with you and jet and everyone, y'all were immediately welcoming and funny and I really enjoyed myself tonight. It was super fun!!

No,this isn’t cheesy, this is LOVELY, thank you so much! And you were a delight!

@notesfromtheidiotbox

I enjoy your writing and bought Overwatch partially because of them. I adore your fried chicken recipe. And I enjoy that you take no shit from anyone including yourself. You intimidate me, but I still like seeing your thoughts on things even if I haven’t heard or, or even have any interest in them. You are truly unique. The hard-drinkin’, straight-shootin’, fast-writin’, femme-as-hell-but-tough-as-nails, Lesbian Queen O’ the West. -The one, the only Doc Holligay! Yeehaw

THANK YOU SO MUCH also that part made me laugh so hard ahah.

@sittingoverheredreaming Your writing had honestly made me such a picky reader, you’re one of the only authors anywhere that has a style I’m super into (I love how artful you are and how much your phrasing and word choices make me think) AND content that I’m starving for. There’s so few works that make me feel the way your fics do. I’ve had maybe a handful of novels and short stories ever even come close. You’re amazing, as a writer and as a person.

I feel so weird about whether I’m a good writer or not, and this is so wonderful and affirming andlovely. Especially since I know you studied writing too!

madegeeky

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“I’m a little nervy about the con/my life right now, so if anyone had...”

You're one of the most talented writers and brilliant public speakers I've ever had the honor of interacting with. Listening to you speak about something your passionate about is mesmerizing in a way I've never experienced before. I could listen to you talk about the things you love for hours.

Thank you so much this was so kind!!

I am also, and will forever be, angry that you made me love Tracer and her Winston so completely and utterly. Because that’s just how good your writing is: you dragged me kicking and screaming into a fandom I don’t even play the game for. And I’m so happy you did because I love Tracer and Winston and this world you built. But I’m also still angry. ;)

AHAHAH YES YESSSSSSSS THIS IS MY LARGER GOAL IN LIFE (and her Winston, god do you know how to kill me)

Your writing is so beautiful and so glorious. I’ve said it before and I’m sure I’ll say it again, but you have a way with images that’s breathtaking. Your fics are so amazing and intricate and beautiful that I don’t read them when I’m sick because I’m scared I’ll miss something and I don’t want to miss anything. I currently have a while backlog and I’m so very excited for when I can finally catch up.

Thank you so much and thank YOU for always leaving such amazing comments.

You’re one of the bravest people I know. Sometimes, when I know I need to do something but it seem too big and too scary, knowing that you’d do it even if you felt the same way helps me get it done. I admire your gumption tremendously.

WELLNOW I HAVE TO BE BRAVE AND DO THIS DON’T I

@taperwolf I like your writing: fiction, nonfiction, and scribbleage. You’re consistently interesting, entertaining when you want to be. I think of you when I think of good people.

Thank yoU!!

@paksenarrion-reader you taught me a lot, and pushed me to seek out more knowledge. Thank you for that.

Thank you!!

@shavedjudomonkey You’re a person I look up to. I don’t always share your opinions, but you’ve helped show me that that’s okay, and if I’m going to believe the things I do, I need to be willing to step up and defend them.You’ve also encouraged me as a writer. Thank you.

No, cause if you agree with me then you’re stll not doing your research and thinking about stuff! I totally WANT you to come to your own conclusions and disagree sometimes!! Thank you!

@Mizunosakura You’re an amazing writer, whether it be non-fiction, fanfiction, or commentary, they’re all amazing to read and really engaging. You’re honestly a super interesting person and I always love all your posts even if I suck incredibly when it comes to commenting.

Thank you so much!

@keyofjetwolf Whoever bid on those Metallica cassette tapes hasn’t paid yet, and I’m pretty sure now they aren’t going to, which means I made less than ten bucks on about thirteen hours of feverish hard work. That comes out to about 77 cents an hour, but doesn’t factor in the fifty cassette tape shipping boxes that I bought in an act of both obscene optimism and critical overestimating. In conclusion, I spent half a day peddling my garbage to no one and paid for the privilege, THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT

Everyone was very sweet but you took the prize for something that made me laugh no less than every single one of the three times I read it.

#sphinxfeathers #verbforverb #rhiorhino #madegeeky #tumblr replies is being REAL garbage so apologize for the weird formatting #thank you all so so so muh

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omegastation · 6 years

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Still on hiatus, but I need to clear the air because many things have been said to me (publicly, privately) and I want to give my perspective on this.

Ever since I've created this blog, I've always done the same thing, year after year:

-Focus on discussions and meta posts. I actually wanted one place where I could read Mass Effect discussions on Tumblr, and I couldn't find it, so I created my "thoughts" tag and started collecting posts, even those I did not agree with but thought were interesting to the fandom at large. -Check the tag and react to the posts, ESPECIALLY the text posts because, as I said, I'm a discussion/meta post blog first. I'm in it for the lore and character talk.

I did this when I had 100 followers, and I'm doing this now that I have a bit more followers. So if you feel like I react to a lot of posts, well that's the point of this blog.

Still: if you are concerned about me reacting to your post because you don't want the attention it would bring you, I urge you to unfollow and block. If you don't want to block, you are welcome to tell me privately "please don't reblog my posts." And I won't. That's a promise. Because there are concerns lately. To be absolutely clear: I don't have goals regarding people in this fandom, I am not interested in starting fights, and I am not in it to scare people or make them anxious.

And now, I'm not talking to people I know (friends, followers I interact with) or people who have always been sweet and kind. Don't take what I will say next for yourself, because it has nothing to do with you. At all. I promise. Please don't come to me apologizing (because I know some of you will believe it’s linked to you, it’s not). You have nothing to be sorry for. I'm serious. This is not about you. I'm also not talking to people who disagree with me but are respectful no matter what, because I like them and it's a joy talking to them. I'm talking to other people.

And to them:

I really need you to realize I don't want to "control" fandom or followers. I wish you would stop telling me this. You're basically expecting me to have a blog but not be myself in it and share my opinions. I see plenty of people making even more aggressive posts sharing their opinion and no one accuses them of what I'm accused of all the time. It's like you're thinking "big blog → manipulative person trying to control everyone" and that's UNFAIR. People are also fine with me and my following if I can give them notes, but the second I express my opinion it automatically means I'm looking for drama. I assure you I'm not. Even my "Shepard is not a saint" post was not me looking for drama. Sure, I started with "let's kill the idea that—" but at the end of the day, I was just talking about my favorite character being vulnerable, something that should be allowed. How is that so bad? Why does it deserve the kind of vitriol I got? I don't understand. And anyone could disagree with this without accusing me of being controlling and driving fans away. Because that's a serious accusation. Do you even know me at all? And do you honestly believe I can even "control" people? Where does that come from? I know there is such a thing as a "mob mentality" but followers are their own people who don't need me to tell them what to do. Truth is, people often forget there is a human being here behind this blog. Sometimes people talk to me like I'm literal trash in reply to my posts or in anon messages and apparently it's all okay. Deb can deal with it anyway, she has a "big blog" as you say, so it's all fine? No. It's not. Why can't you disagree with me without spreading things that are entirely false about me? I'm saying this because this is not the first time that this happened and it's so disheartening.

And for those who are entirely convinced I take fandom too seriously: I have to tell you something, I take my irl life 100% more seriously than fandom. I care about it a lot more than fandom. (trigger warnings here, though nothing graphic) Why? Many reasons. I'm busy fighting depression. I'm seeing a therapist every two weeks to deal with it and so far it's a very long and painful road. I'm also fighting an abusive workplace with bosses who have made all my colleagues quit from burnout. I need to find a new job asap, but it's really difficult. I've been with my boyfriend for ten years, and caring for him every day because he's mentally and physically ill with suicidal tendencies. It takes me a LOT of energy on top of my own problems. It's especially draining when I come home after a stressful day at work. Some days I can't relax at all. And yeah, it's my choice, I fully accept my situation, but that doesn't mean it's easy. It's suffocating. The good news: I'm the godmother of the sweetest baby in the world and I want to be there for her. I want her to grow up always knowing me. I want to spend as much time as I can with my family (parents, brother, grandmother) because I think life is precious, and I know I won't always have them with me. I have friends I like to see. And of course, I've had a gastric sleeve surgery months ago and that means a lot of changes in my life, things I need to take care of like stomach pains, new wardrobe, new diet... And I feel ridiculous saying this, but hey, I have hobbies. I'm trying to write a book. I also read books all the time. I watch tv. I play games... The problem is, every little thing I do has to be done fully, because I don't know how to do things differently. That's true for fandom as well. But that doesn't mean fandom is everything to me. What it means is that, even if I'm intense af, I use fandom to have fun because I'm just like you, trying to escape irl from time to time. I haven't talked about all this before, but I'm talking about it now, not because I want to overshare or make people pity me (god no, I don't need it!), but because I'm tired of people thinking it's okay to be aggressive or nasty to me because they believe I won’t care. Because they think I can take it or I only have this blog to worry about in my life. No, I actually use this blog to have fun and escape from the things I worry about. I'm here to have a good time, just like you. That's truly all I want! Please, please understand that.

And finally, I don't know where the whole "big blog trying to crush other blogs" comes from, but here are my true interests when it comes to other blogs: -Lore, lore, lore, lore, lore; -Make sure people who make good posts (be it a text post, fanart, fic) are noticed and get more notes when I reblog them; -Make little projects that can be useful for people, so they find the resources they might need; -Find people who I can be friends with in this fandom. That's really it.

I have a lot of flaws, but I try hard to be a good person. Decency and self-awareness are important to me, so if I do mess up, I try to understand how and why so I don't do it again. I've apologized here many, many times. I hate hurting or offending people.

So you're not talking to some evil person here, okay?

I'm done. Sorry for the long post.

I'm still at stationlittle for now. I hope the hiatus will do me some good.

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otomegamaholic · 7 years

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KBTBB Jealousy Lingerie ~Ichinomiya Eisuke~

Jealousy Lingerie ~A Thoughtless Love Affair Night For Him~ Ichinomiya Eisuke

Without being able to spend some couple time with Eisuke due to his busy schedule, the lonely you yearned to see Eisuke... or so you had thought, as you wake up on an unfamiliar bed!

“It was just for a week, and you couldn’t even stay at home... you still call yourself my woman?”

You received a present from a jealous Eisuke.♡ Moreover, the highly popular ‘His POV for Playing With Something Dangerous’ has been restored! To read or not to read... it’s all up to you.♡

Review:

This was one interesting piece of work. I can't comment much about the change in Eisuke that we see in this side story because I have only played up till Chapter 1 including His POV. What I can definitely say is that Eisuke is definitely in too deep towards the MC.

Imagine the woman whom you are to be wedded to pushes you away from your advances while clearly exuding the aura of 'I am hiding things from ya' when you finally get to see her after many days of zero communication. And now throw Eisuke into the picture. Yep, that's it.

Although Eisuke was suspicious and dying to know the truth, he didn't corner the MC and force her to spill it out. He didn't do anything that we all know he could, but he didn't. Instead, he chose to be some FBI agent and get to the truth himself after laying the trap. Right after the truth was revealed, he was so cute about how to ensure the MC doesn't make the same mistake ever again.

I would still highly recommend the Love Hotel story for Eisuke. I think that is the most memorable side story for me. And I had no regrets purchasing it. <3 But feel free to give this one a try too, for anxious Eisuke lol.

PS: For this time, I just so happened to have the feel of typing out while reading the story. I’m putting them in the same post as my short review. But... I won’t finish all the chapters. Then again, I believe Voltage will release the English version very soon lol...

Read on for spoiler review and translation of some parts.

WARNING: SUPER LONG POST + IMAGE HEAVY (kinda)

SPOILER:

To everyone who got excited from the title, I understand you. But I've learned to not trust what Voltage puts up in the description because it's not 100% true to the plot. Or, so I thought that some steamy scenes are going to happen after knowing the MC spent the night in another man's room just because she got too wasted while he wasn't around.

Although there weren't many scenes of them doing their usual adult exercises... we can clearly see how Eisuke gets anxious and annoyed in his own way. He was definitely livid and shocked when he got to know that the MC's weird behavior had something to do with Soryu. I especially like how the two followers of Soryu got caught by Eisuke to spill the beans. That was so cute, to be honest. They just spilled everything they know to Eisuke, up and go, like a hurricane that does damage and leave as it pleases. Of course, they apologized to Soryu profusely and left right after lol.

Now, I understand what did Voltage meant by “To read or not to read, it's up to you.” Because in His POV, Voltage made Soryu have an interest in the MC, which Soryu tried to get closer to the MC (literally, like you know, kabedon her and tried to kiss her) in order to make that weird feeling in his chest understood. He couldn't understand how Eisuke could fall in love with someone as plain as the MC. Eisuke caught Soryu and the MC in that position. Soryu backed off naturally.

Then we got to know that he actually thought it was quite out of him to think of using the women earrings that were prepared for his work as an excuse to get away from the mess (kabedon and attempt kiss) that he got himself into. The MC took the wrong earrings on the dressing table and fled after seeing Soryu in the bathroom that morning. He used this reason to excuse himself for getting close to the MC in that manner.

In the first place, this whole mess started because the MC got wasted, but also Soryu's policy.... lmao.

Soryu: ‘There’s no way to step into Eisuke’s room in his absence... is there nowhere else to return her to?’

And he was confused as to why the MC intrigues him.

Soryu: ‘Why is it that, this woman piques my interest this much?’

In the end... too bad for Soryu. Because this is Eisuke’s story so.... not today, bro~ ;P

Episode 1

It’s been 4 days since Eisuke went abroad for business matters. He would only be back in 3 days. Apparently, he went to a place with no reception, so there weren’t any calls made or texts exchanged. The MC was feeling lonely without Eisuke’s presence.

Baba who heard the MC sigh teased her. Also, because the back view of the MC looked really lonely to Baba. “So that’s why you have a face that says ‘I’m lacking Eisuke’ huh.” The MC being honest asked “...was it that obvious from my expression?” And Baba being himself, replied “It’s because you’re so easy to read. Don’t worry, Baba-san loves this aspect of you.”

Baba: “The leader went to a secluded region for a preliminary inspection of the new plan right?”

MC: “I’m not sure if it’s some secluded place, but the phone calls and mails cannot be received and sent.”

Baba: “So that’s why you had the ‘I lack Eisuke’ expression on you.”

Baba invited the MC to have a meal with the rest of the guys, the reason being that when one is alone, he/she feels lonely the most when having a meal alone. So it’s best to eat with people when feeling lonely. And the best way to cheer yourself up is to eat good food. In the end, they had a mini party at the hotel hall on that night.

During the mini party, the usual guys gathered without her knowing, or it could just be Baba who called out to everyone.

Ota: “It feels fresh to have a party without Eisuke-san”

Ota mentioned that it feels quite fresh to attend a party without Eisuke. Luke, however, disagreed by saying that it’s lonely without Eisuke. Soryu questioned it. Luke double confirms and threw the question to the MC. The MC could only agree. No doubt. Eventually, they decided to enjoy as much as they can and toasted.

Hishikura: “Can you guys stop it, making such a gloomy face especially during mealtime?”

Hishikura: “To me this is a comfortable space.”

Baba: “Well, well, those who feel lonely and those who feel relieved in the absence of the leader, it’s all the same.”

The MC took a liking to the alcohol that she kind of drank too much despite Soryu warning her not to. Ota added, “Isn’t it fine if she over drinks once in a while? When Eisuke was around, he would order you here and there, right? So when you’re alone, why don’t you just let yourself go?” Baba agreed and said it’s also important to let yourself loose. The MC took their advice.

Soryu being the smart one, told the MC to go at her own pace and that it’s not something that outsiders can comment about. Baba then countered by saying that Soryu who’s like that should also let himself loose once in a while. Ota agreed and joked that having his hair swept to the back too much will result in being bald. Lmao Soryu was like “Just leave me alone.” Watching their interaction was entertaining for the MC and that she had lost count of the number of glasses she had that night.

Baba: “Come to think of it Sou-chan too, isn’t it better for you to act without restraint once in a while~?”

Ota: “I agree. You’ll get bald for having an all-back hairstyle too much.”

Soryu: “...leave me alone”

Fast forward. The next morning, the MC woke up to find herself on a bed. She had a bad case of a hangover, all because the apricot alcohol was so tasty that she drank too much. As she presses on her temples on an attempt to soothe a headache, she sat up and realized something was amiss in the room that she just woke up in.

MC: This... isn’t Eisuke’s penthouse!

Well, we all know whose room this belongs to. ;)

The MC started to look around the room anxiously while trying to figure out which room was it. That’s when she finally looked down to get a shock out of her life. She was clad in only her underwear. Her clothes were left on the floor by the bed. The MC hurriedly got down from the bed to put on her clothes. She heard the sound of water coming from the bathroom. She was afraid to find out who was in the bathroom, but there was no way she’s not going to find out. Hesitantly, she opened the bathroom door to find... SORYU!!!!

Panicked, the MC’s mind short circuited and fled from the room at once at the sight of Soryu.

“It can’t be... Soryu and I? But, I had my underwear on...” There wasn’t anything off about her body, but the MC understood that just by looking at the situation there’s no ruling out that the mistake didn’t happen. The only way to understand the whole situation was to ask Soryu directly but... “Did anything happen? I just can’t ask that! I was told that it’s good to let myself loose but, this can’t be happening...” She realized that she’s totally in deep trouble and clutched her head. That’s when her phone rang. Oh no. A call from Eisuke telling her that he would be back right away.

The MC asked, “Won’t you be back the day after tomorrow...” Eisuke replied, “There are some changes to the schedule. I’ll reach in about 30 minutes. Wait for me at the penthouse.” HAHAHAHAHAHAHA omg this was so interesting I can’t.

The MC thought, ‘Up till yesterday, I would have been so elated to know this.’ Now, she’s just in too deep that she had no idea how to answer for that mistake. Eventually, what actually happened last night was still left unresolved... while Eisuke had already returned.

“W-welcome back. Did your work finish earlier?”

Eisuke: “Just some changes to the schedule. I’ll be setting off again the day after.”

Eisuke asked the MC if she felt bored without him around as he guided her towards him by the waist when she brought his favorite coffee over to him. ‘I don’t remember taking any shower, but it would be bad if there’s any soap scent that’s different from the usual coming from me.’ Being this close to Eisuke, she flinched back slightly as she recalled what happened last night.

Eisuke noticed but chose to observe her first. Like this:

“Eh... rather than being bored I was really lonely. We couldn’t get in contact at all this time round so...” And Eisuke in all seriousness said...

Eisuke: “It was a right thing to return.”

Eisuke: “Since it’s you, there’s no way you could’ve been able to withstand that long.”

Eisuke: “I’ll satisfy you now.”

And then they kissed. Eisuke pushed her onto the sofa and just when his long slender fingers reached her clothes... the MC felt that even though she wasn’t sure if anything happened last night, it didn’t feel right to let Eisuke have her in this manner... So, the MC pushed Eisuke away with all her might.

“W-wait a minute!”

“What is it?”

“I have work today! I need to go now... I’m sorry!”

She couldn’t meet his gaze. She felt that if she looked into his eyes, she wouldn’t be able to move based on her experience and knowledge. The MC got herself up from underneath Eisuke without looking into his eyes.

“Please have a good rest Eisuke-san! We can continue this tonight...”

Just when she was about to leave without looking at him...

“Did you forget?”

“Eh?”

The MC felt a strong grip on her wrist and before she knew it, she was being pulled back by a strong force. This time around, Eisuke pinned her down as though he wasn’t giving her any chance to escape.

“Your answer can only be ‘Hai’ or ‘Yes’.”

The MC was frozen in fear from the silent fury that was held in his cold looking eyes.

Just look at this I-don’t-give-a-shit face lololol.

Episode 2

(Rejoice! It’s Eisuke’s POV from hereon.)

Right after progressing with the work at the outback of South America for the sake of the new business. Due to the sudden changes in the other party’s schedule, there were only 2 days of free time being made.

“I could go to the nearby hotel to stay for the moment but...”

The business trip this time is a place where the infrastructure equipment isn’t that well-developed, so the communication can’t be done with the MC. There shouldn’t be a problem if I go back to the hotel, but just in case I’ve decided to return.

MC: “W-welcome back. Did your work finish earlier?”

“Just some changes to the schedule. I’ll be setting off again the day after.”

MC: “I see. Good work.”

When I look at her, her gaze waivers.

Eisuke: She’s acting differently from the usual. Did something happen?

As I hug her close to me when she brings over the coffee, her hand rested on my shoulder and leaned backward. This is something that she normally will never do which confirms my thought of before that something must be up.

MC: “Eh... rather than being bored I was really lonely. We couldn’t get in contact at all this time round so...”

She replies while her gaze never meets mine, gently pushing me away and got away from underneath me. This can’t be called as an act of rejection, but it is something that definitely can’t be pardoned.

Eisuke: ‘For her to run away from me...’

I reached out and grabbed her by the wrist. This was done with a strong force without much awareness.

“Your answer can only be ‘Hai’ or ‘Yes’.”

Her eyes widened, with shame and bewilderment swimming in her eyes.

Eisuke: ‘Does she truly not want to be held by me?’

My grip tightened as though to suppress the rising irritation.

“Answer me.”

MC: “Like I said, I have work...”

Eisuke: “Do you want me to educate you again from scratch?”

In order to prevent her shifty gaze from getting away, I held her chin. Fixing my gaze on her with proximity, I could see her lips trembling as her breaths were short and quick.

Eisuke: ‘During those times when I kept her by my side... she used to make this kind of expression.’

He dropped a line saying that enough of running away, and he doesn’t care about it anymore, just enjoy the ahem for now. So they did it. And from that, Eisuke confirmed that the MC didn’t sleep with anyone that night. Next, he went to find out the truth and...... eventually presented the MC a set of lingerie a few days after the incident when he finally came back from the work in overseas.

The MC found the lingerie to be too skimpy for her to feel decent. When she told him her thoughts, he was like “What? Are you unhappy with the gift that I've brought back for you?” Unbeknownst to her, this was actually Eisuke's ploy to prevent the incident from happening again. Reason being, if the MC wears such a skimpy lingerie, she would be more cautious of how she lands herself in the situation where someone other than him sees her in that lingerie. SO CUTE RIGHT! That smirk he had on his face when he thought of that. <3

#KBTBB #Kissed By The Baddest Bidder #Ichinimoya Eisuke #Side Stories #Voltage Inc #Oh Soryu #Review/Summary

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dunkcarlton · 6 years

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