#imagine the academic weapon i could’ve been if anyone had noticed i needed help…

[dykeyuu]

i spent 7 hours studying for one subject today no problem and even had fun doing it + im trying to imagine what middle/high school would’ve been like if i’d been properly medicated

#imagine the academic weapon i could’ve been if anyone had noticed i needed help… #rly no point in dwelling on it but i’m just angry that my mother never noticed #i’d been struggling with turning things in on time due to executive dysfunction pretty much forever #like i can remember it happening in third grade #and none of my teachers or anyone ever thought there might be a problem bc i guess i was compensating too well #that’s what i get for being a highly intelligent girl with adhd instead of a boy that acts out in class ig🙄 #i just wish i’d had someone advocating for me #like my mom advocated for me to be put into higher level classes #but when i nearly failed 3 virtual math classes in a row in middle school bc i wasn’t doing any assignments but still acing tests #she just told me i had to do all the assignments and gave me an incentive to do it #instead of ever asking me WHY i wasn’t doing assignments #it wasn’t because i didn’t want to it was because i was literally incapable #and there’s a million other examples exactly like that scattered all throughout the parts of my childhood i still remember #wish it didn’t take me so long to realize i have to advocate for myself #using tumblr as a journal where there are people stuck in here forced to listen to me talk about my mom