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bertiecr0chue · 6 years

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thanks for the KD advice, ppl!

i forgot to mention, i put the pot in a bag on the balcony outside after 3 days. i put the lid on it the 1st day when i came back from work to the big mess. i am very well aware of the dangers of mold! and i also am very well aware when my obsession for keeping things clean gets taken for granted/advantage of. which has obviously been the case, and which is why im so salty and chose to not risk my health to clean it for her.

i spent the whole week cleaning the apartment for 3 hours every day after work. i’m still not done and it’s been 6 days (so about 18-20 hours of cleaning. i’m purging the place, guys)). and in doing so, i’ve had to clean up a lot after what she and her pets have left behind. and i’m the one who packed her boxes because she would not come here to do them, and i needed to make room for my stuff and for cleaning.

so it really is just a question of, do i do the ‘too nice’ thing, or do i stop being taken for granted and leave her with her mess, in the hopes that it teaches her a lesson about cleaning up after you’re done cooking and also maybe not take clean freaks for granted

so i think i will go with ‘hey so i noticed you had molded KD leftover in a pot, so i put it in a bag outside cause idk if you want to clean it or throw it’

sorry if i disappoint some of you but..im just........way too salty at this point....im tired of cleaning after people who don’t give a damn, ive had to clean after her a lot, and it wasn’t easy at times. like, for example, i’ve had to scrub off burnt BBQ sauce from my BBQ grill for 4 hours, cause she didn’t use an aluminium plate and then she just left it like that for me to find it days later...or that time she left red meat unbagged in the fridge, so the blood leaked everywhere and into the fruits drawer. i came home from work to this, she was sleeping and i didn’t want to wait for nasty surprises to show up so i cleaned it right away. what adult doesn’t know about putting your meat in bags??? sigh..

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alostbeautynomore · 7 years

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I'm upset bc of the guy.

So the guy and I are arguing yet again. I called him out on not trying and I told him how much I'm trying to accommodate him and do what is good for him so we don't argue. I legit have been trying a lot. I'm really upset bc I feel like he doesn't care and just has me there like an accessory.

I do everything he wants. I even go to his family's house and I seriously don't like them at all bc of how they've treated me (and he knows very well how much I don't like them and how much they truly have hurt me and such) but I go there bc I'm trying to make it work for us bc he has a dog now and he doesn't wanna leave him even for a little bit which I do get bc he's a puppy but also his family is there. When my grandma died a few weeks ago he was more concerned w his dog and leaving him alone for like 1 hour than coming to sit w me bc I was realllllly upset and struggling w it. That little thing really stings.

I've been keeping my struggles to myself bc when I tried to tell him a few weeks ago that food was rough lately he changed the subject and ignored me and I realized it's best for us if I don't tell him so im not adding more to his plate but I think it's only fair if we can balance our struggles and life together. I really wish he would be interested in my treatment and personal life but he just tunes me out.

Like really I'll try to talk and he'll be on his phone searching the web and Ill say please put it down and least to hear what I'm saying and he'll ignore me and I'll say it again and I'll wait a bit then give up and then eventually he'll put it down but when I say blah blah blah and even ask a question about anything even down to do u want a drink and he'll literally just ignore me like he's annoyed that I'm even talking ughhh! I've asked him so many times to please just say something. Even if he just says can't talk now; or can we talk in a bit; or one second. Or even if he puts his hand up and gestures like one second or something ugh I just don't like being ignored. And I know he hears me bc I'll repeat the question and wait and he doesn't even look over my way and then later he'll answer it when he's done w Snapchat or twitter or even random stuff like how soap was made - yes this legit was one of the things he looked up and ignored me bc of this.

I've been trying to be sexual w him and he was happy bc of it but lately though I just haven't been able to bc I'm seriously struggling w touch (flashback stuff) and we watched a movie the other day and I got really upset and scared bc of the triggering content like it seriously threw me back into a memory- and guy got mad at me bc I was upset and couldn't be touched. And I asked him a few times to please take his hand out of his pants during the movie and he got mad again bc his hands were cold and then he looked back at the tv and tuned me out. I was just scared and I told him that I was scared. Then he tried touching me and I told him it was a flashback thing and he made fun of me for it. I explained how it upset me and I apologized bc i was upset and he got mad bc it's just a movie and I'm like he knows the content of the movie and how I have trauma and I was honest and said this is upsetting me and yet I was the one apologizing and he was just mad at me.

And this is so dumb of me but it's a real thing. BBQ sauce is a trauma trigger. I know it's dumb but the person that bad hurt me for years stared eating it all the time. I remember one memory when he bad hurt me and he was making something w that sauce and the whole smell really attached to that memory. I know I know it's dumb- but I can't help it. Anyways, guy ate it the other day and I was like ahh it smells and we need to open the windows. (Now guy knows the smell bothers me like he's witnessed me freaking out bc of the smell but he does not know the reasoning behind it so I'm trying to take that into consideration) but anyways he started making fun of me bc it upset me when I smelled it in the house and he's like just get used to it. I'm like that's not the point. But he walked away into the other room. Anddd left me to clean up the dishes w the sauce all over it.

I know it's little things but it's really upsetting me when it all builds up. And it's been going on for WEEKS.

And so when I said he wasn't trying he then said he is busy and that he is trying and said how he's so busy and has to work and see his dog and see me. I'm like I see that you're trying to manage your schedule but how does that mean you're trying for "us". I told him I may not be doing as much as him work wise but I am doing a lot for me personally and that I still try hard for "us". Then he basically flipped it on me saying how Im blaming it on him and that he's always wrong and that I don't see that he's trying. I am upset bc I do see he has a lot going on and I said that. But I also said that he says sorry and promises x,y,z will change but he never follows through with his promises. I have been giving him my everything and it's frustrating that he's not giving at least a little back.

I know I'm prly being dramatic it's just upsetting. Like I said the little things add up. And I broke.

He's mad and annoyed and I'm upset and scared. I'm lost 🙁it's honestly so much to deal w and I'm afraid it's all my fault. And I really am sorry for being so upset and fucked up... I just wish he could understand and not get so mad at me. I'm sick of this constant battle- and btw I did tell him I'm sorry and that I'm trying not to get upset but it just feels like he's not putting in the effort ..... I really feel like an accessory for him.

#alostbeautynomore #i love 🐻#relationships confuse me #i am struggling #he upsets me #relationship #friends are confusing #i'm so upset

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queenoffaggots666-blog · 5 years

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Yuri/GL Story? P.1

First Story YAY!!!!! ØwØ Im nervous so please no hate, if you know anyways that could help me, pleaseeeeeeee LMK!!!!! Also I’m so sorry if my grammar is bad, its 2AM and I’m not very good in my “Grammar” Class at school!! (or whatever class your school calls it) This is only part one of 2 (or more) Parts, so this isn't complete!!! I’ll work on it when I get the time to!!

**My name is Bambi Lynn, like the deer movie Bambi. I’m 17 and a Senior in high school, I’m short, weird, awkward, I have Platnium Blonde hair and bright blue eyes. I go to Mooreville Rush High-school. I have a small group of friends, Kai, Miha, Tylir , and Scotty. Everyone haves so many classes together, but I don't have any with them. The only reason we is friends is because me and Tylir are childhood friends, and he’s my neighbor. Tylir and Kai are dating, and Scotty is Kai’s twin Brother. Miha just kind of wondered into out friendship the first day of Senior year, so we don't know much about her. So, lets let the rest story begin at lunch time, in December!!! **

“BAMBI LYNN! OVER HERE!” Tylir yells, waving his hands around like a fool. I walk over to him and sit down, looking confused I ask, “Where’s Kai and Scotty?” “Not here Bambi, isn’t that kinda obvious? They’re skipping, or sick, or something!” Miha gives me a rude, snotty look and i try my hardest to ignore it. “Kaitlyn would never skip school, and its unlikely that they’re BOTH sick…Could you call her Bambi Lynn?” Tylir looks at me with puppy dog eyes, and I grunt. “Ty, where is your phone?” He awkwardly laughs and looks at the ceiling, “Well, I kinda broke it…again.” I almost die of laughter and nod, then grab my phone and dial her number. After a few minutes of it ringing, someone answers it, “Hullo?” The voice answers, mumbling. I didn’t sound like Kai or Scotty. “Uh Hi? Is Kaitlyn there?” I ask, hesitantly. The Voice murmurs something to someone else, then they say, again mumbled, “Who are you? Why do you wanna talk to Kai?” I stutter a bit, “Well….She’s not ask school, and I’m her friend.” The voice grunts then says, “Gimme a minute, she’s getting undressed.” Tylir asks, “Bambi Lynn, whats taking so long? Where is she!” I ignore Ty and wait for the person to reply. I don't hear them, or Kai say anything, but I hear moaning and giggling, so I hang up. “She said she not coming in to school right now…” Tylir looks at Miha and then down at her plate of food. “Ayo, Miha, You gonna eat all those fries?” Miha laughs and without any hesitation pours BBQ sauce all over them. Ty hates BBQ sauce. I look at my plate and slide it to Ty. “THANKS SO MUCH BAMBI LYNN! I OWE YOU GIRL!!” I shrug and look down at my phone. Out of no where one of the dumba** school jocks pops up next to me and wraps his arm around my shoulder, “Hey Hey Baby Deer, Bambi Lynn. How you doing?” I try to move and ignore him, but he scoots closer to me. “Aweh, why you trynna ignore me Baby?” I look at Tylir, then my phone and I send him a text: ^Hey Ty, you said you owe me, so help me get this creep away!!^ Tylir looks at me and nods, “Hey Josh, want my hamburger?” We all know that Josh, the dumb jock, loves food, so he jumps up and grabs it, then leaves. “He’s like a dog, most guys are!” Miha says, grunting. “HEY!!! THAT’S MEAN!!” Ty screams at her. She laughs and then looks at me, then Tylir, then the floor. “I don't mean you Ty-Ty!” She smiles. “Hey, Miha, I don't think I’ve seen you smile.” I say, looking up, then looking back down at my phone. “That’s cause I-DONT-CARE-ABOUT-YOU! You don't make me smile, We aren’t friends!” She grunts. “I’m going to class Ty-Ty!! Cya later!” She storms off.

That’s all for now, I’ll try to work on it more sometimes next week or something like that!!!

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itdisneymatter · 7 years

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Day 12 - Typhoon Lagoon

TLDR: Short one today, quick breakfast then hit our first water park - Typhoon Lagoon. Lazy River, big tidal waves, play area and more lazy river. Sun to begin with, rain to finish. Hooters for dinner, amazing... and the food was good too.

Slept the latest we’ve ever slept, but today is going to be a slow day (and so not much to talk about really), so there was no rush to get up too early. Its been nearly two weeks but this was the first day we were visiting a water park and the kids were excited!

We missed getting to Gamestop yesterday for Patrick so once we were ready in our swimming stuff and nicked some extra towels from the pool, we headed there first. Robert picked up some Nintendo Switch games for his yet to be purchased console and me and Patrick picked up a bunch of other games including Horizon Zero Dawn & Injustice 2. Im gonna need another holiday just to play these! Popped into Walmart for some fruit and McDonalds for breakfast/lunch (yes they have an actual McDonalds IN Walmart).

No Typhoon today, well not yet at least...

So last time we were here two years ago it was absolutely pouring down, but not a drop of rain in sight today :D We quickly got into the park, found the lockers and dropped all our stuff off, with the exception of the Go Pro to take some photos. We all had these cool shoes on which allowed us to go in the water without having to take them off - these are pretty much essential for water parks for walking around so you dont burn your feet on the hot footpaths. We started off with something easy the lazy river, Gracie grabbed a free flotation-jacket to float around in which they buys now being able to swim this time around, passed. It was great just sitting, lying, floating along and the kids had an absolute whale of a time (whale, get it? :P #sorrynotsorry). I could really have stayed there all day, but after a few times around, we got out to see what else there was in the park.

Gracie's was a bit of a wuss and didnt want to go on the family rapids. So we hit the main pool instead. The focal point of this park is a HUUUUGE tidal wave which extends the full length of the pool every so often. After getting absolutely washed out on the first one, I suggested that the boys put some jackets on, just in case. This wave was strong - completely engulfing anyone and everyone and pushing you back several meters to boot. Boys being boys they kept wanting to go further and further into the pool, but with Ann sitting on the sidelines for a little bit and me holding Gracie I had to keep reeling them back in. Stopped to get a quick coffee and ice-cream for the kids, which does prove rather difficult when you cant carry anything including cash around with you! Grabbed a seat in the shade after the sun was proving too hot and let the kiddies run around in the play area for a while. Robert decided that spraying everyone including himself was a good idea, though I don’t think his red eyes agreed. Wee Gracie was just content playing by herself in her own wee imaginary world.

Clouds were looming, but we wanted another shot of the river again before we left (though the kids furiously objected to leave at all). Grace was getting more sure of herself in the water so she was taxing me and Ann about in the water while we sat on the rubber rings - it was too cute. Finally persuaded the kids out of the water and as we got in the car it started to rain - excellent timing and meant that we didn't get wet (except we were just out the pool, but you know what I mean).

Unlimited wings and really big... beers.

Home and a quick change before heading to Hooters for dinner. Some say that this is the most magical place on earth. Oh wait, that's Disney right? ;) The food is really good here and the do unlimited wings on a Wednesday so it was a no-brainer after the great day we had at the water park. In and seated and served by the lovely Yen. We ALL went for wings in varying degrees of hotness (the sauce not the waitresses), and Patrick, Ann and myself went for the unlimited option. They also served massive steins of beer and I never even got ID'ed this time (thanks Yen), which is even more funny because my dad did last week :P I kicked off with Triple Dog Dare which is a sauce made from ghost chilli pepper - I like spicy stuff. Ann & Patrick went a little milder and as the plates were finished we order more until we went through most of the sauces. I did prefer my first option but the others all settled for good old fashioned BBQ as their fav. After we were more than full, we paid the bill and I got another pic with some of the waitresses (thanks Ann, again), you just have to though, right? ;) Patrick asked what my favourite thing in Hooters was and Robert replied 'I bet its the wings', ummm yes that right son, it’s the wings...

A wee quick visit to the shopping outlets to pick up some trainers for Ann for tomorrow (Adidas Samba as it happens, remember those bad boys?), and then we headed home to sleep.

I asked Patrick about what his fun fact was today and he just said right give me a sec and then gave me a fact (like he was googling his brain, it was hilarious). Anyways here’s today golden nugget:

There have been two Presidents of the United States who once used to be peanut farmers.

Peanut farmers, who knew eh? Adios for another day!

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