#im trying out krita :p

[loveis-mine]

it's 1 am and i have marching band tomorrow. cheers

#im trying out krita :p #mahiru shiina #kotone shiomi #es milgram #amanes there #0610 barely #almost typed barley. i miss warriors😞 #milgram fanart

[dreemurr-skelememer]

1 and 3? :D

1. Art programs you have but don't use

i try not to bloat my computer so i don't have them anymore but i can name a few i just fucked around with over the years: my paint, firealpaca, medibang, krita

ive tried em all LOL i have a knack for trying out art programs when i can, but i always crawl back to sai.......

3. What ideas come from when you were little

hmmm im not really sure, i dont think i really have anything that's super connected from my childhood work? esp since all i draw is designs and passing AU ideas :p

#rowynri #Weirdly Specific Artist Ask Game

[1eos]

how did you start making digital art? i’ve only ever messed around on paper for fun but it seems like there’s so much fun stuff to play around with digitally except i have no idea where to begin/can’t shell out a ton of money for some expensive program, especially considering i have no idea what i’m doing

i just dove in tbh 😭 i asked for a tablet for my 16th birthday after taking a digital media class then floundered around for a while. im hard headed i hate watching tutorials i like to struggle on my own. luckilyyyyyyyyyy u don't have to worry abt programs there are tons of free ones. there krita, paint tool sai free downloads are literally everywhere, there are also free photoshop downloads on tumblr if u ever wanna try painting there. oh nd most brushes are free too. as for the tablet itself you can find cheap ones p much anywhere so there isn't much to lose if you wanna start experimenting!!!!

#i think i saw a tablet for $30 at walmart actually #the tech is really common now so its easier to jump in #plus there are so many tutorials/starter kit vids on yt

[mallowbees]

I don't,, I don't even know anymore Krita what the fuck did you do to my images Why do they have black borders There should not be this many problems trying to export layers Before all this they looked like I turned the brightness all the way up 5!! There has been!! A total of 5 different problems trying to get them to exPORT PROPERLY SINCE LAST NIGHT!! I HAD ALL THIS DONE LAST NIGHT BUT COULDN'T DO IT BECAUSE I KEPT!! RUNNING INTO PROBLEMS!! I AM GOING TO FINISH THIS 40 SECOND ANIMATIC AND IM GOING TO DO IT OUT OF S P I T E

#the KitKat speaks

[haeroniel-doliet]

Hnghhh why does it require e f f o r t and p a t i e n c e and p r a c t i c e to get good at art????? I need to be good immediately and things i want to see appear at a snap of my fingers.......

Read more for what became an accidental full rant about why ive yet to post anything besides that one thing idkkkk

Aka im TRYING to be good and practice little by little but its BORING and difficult to not get immediate reward.... Also because for whatever reason i really dont wanna watch tutorials so im tryna be all self taught kinda and im OBVIOUSLY making a lot of mistakes like its part of the process but its FRUSTRATING

Basically im on my 6th??? Idk restart attempt at the same fennec portrait and its. Okay. Its at a point where im like nice as long as i suffer over the details here itll be decent ish. Probably.

But its not REWARDING.....

I know i want to do screencaps and character and face studies to get to the point of good art i wish i could be but .... I also just wanna draw like fun fic scenes and silly doodles of characters like some of the cool artists i follow do but i CANT because im not GOOD ENOUGH yet. ;(((((((

Yea i could post sketches or whatver i manage in a night but like who the fuck wants to follow that? Nah... I just idk. I DONT KNOW i dont know what my art goals are (i do, but DO I??)

My brain also obviously doesnt work very well visually which is GREAT so like, any original work its a lot like 'i'll know its right when i see it' but getting next to no other direction and you just gotta be like right. Okay uhhh my anatomy skills are stunted from when i was like 16?? Perspective?? Detail?? WHATS THE COLOR SCHEME

Never mind that i just... Dont understand the program or brushes that well idk why. Krita should be good and im too stressed to experiment different softwares.... BLEGH

i just. Part of me aches to go back to traditional for a bit but i just, dont have the means to make the scale of work i want ro produce with traditional materials yknow?? Maybe i should try just sketching scanning and then lining on computer again idk. At least for some of these face things.

Ok so my GOAL is to always have a very recognizable face. Like. I guess i cant hold myself to photorealism standards because hahahhah id die! But like, i want the face to be looked at and go ah yes! Its that guy! That actress! My friend! Me! Whoever! But like, recognizable. Because i know i CAN thats what i do! Thats all ive been good at !!!!

And like yeah i could hone that, yknow? Work on face studies and mini portraits of all my favourite actors and scenes and shit. Cool right?? Yeahh that could be sickaroni macaroni. People like faces they can recognize and good refined work. I can do that

But i want to be MORE

Id love love love to make like. Scenic paintings. Concept art level atmosphere and color and light and presence and as tory telling yknow?? Id like to substitute the literally colorless fog inside my head into vivid scenes. Id like to try and take the fics that in my head are set in ??? Space with some movement here and there and just idk emotions? Into fleshed out SCENES with backdrops and accurate anatomy and WEIGHT and like, everything incredible that i admire in true art.

But thats hard, yknow? I havent really ever done backgrounds and what i have have been so flat. I dont KNOW how to do that (here i would be willing to have a teacher i think but. Im tired. I cant even seek out a short term therapist for myself how am i gonna find the kind of teacher i want?? Because of course i want them to teach me how to achieve whata inside my dreams and not what they know how to do ykno)

Yeah so i want to try and paint screencaps in the meantime. See if i cant struggle my way to fit this putty of skill into a square box. Like i think i can paint. Digitally? Somewhat idk?? Maybe if i just. Keep trying itll work out?? Start with simpler ones and build up to complexity??

But also. If im juat trying to get myself to love art again, why am i trying to throw myself in the deep end of struggling with something im not good at?? Shouldnt i be just refining what i already know? Like. A character! Standing. Maybe in a cooler pose if going crazy. Refining basic anatomy. How does fabric work? How does hair work? Can i make expressions seem realistic?

Next step, could i make a picture of someone without direct reference?? Like. Could i draw maybe a wee dinluke holding eachother or whatever and like. Just. Do it?? Without doing a version of photoshopping two pics of the actors through art together. Idk.

Also NONE of this makes sense to anyone outside my head and im SORRY

Like i dont even have a resolution at the end here!!! Im just FRUSTRATED!!!

I wanna draw, i wanna have results and success and rewarding experiences. But i also want ro challenge myself and do super complex shit and like really push myself to learn impressive difficult shit and be proud of down the line.

Im so tired. I cant even feel ok drawing without having someone on call with me to alleviate the immense pressure of frustration and anxiety and stress and struggle!!

I just. Wanna enjoy it

Okay fine i need to find a show or smth to 'watch'

And tomorrow? I might whip out a sketchbook thats been last used 8 years ago and. Ignore everything in it hahhaha its bad

But no im gonna. Im gonna draw scenes. With minimal reference

I might make a face collage i definitely wanna for pascal and mar camel

But im gonna put PENCIL to PAPER and get to the roots of MY HAND CAN DRAW just give her a chance, and get your brain outta the game.

Ok so fuck me this rant has to end here or ill never stop

If you read this (i dont expect ANYONE to have) send me like a message or whatever lol imma need to ask if youre ok <3

#art woes #ended up being way too long OOPS #im just really TIRED and FRUSTRATED #take a peek in my brain #bless this mess or whatever

[fancyfade]

im testing out a new drawing software

(krita, which was recommended to me by my lovely gf @adhdgremlin)

my sibling also decided to try it when they saw 3.0 version has animation options (they love animating for some reason :P)

so we’re gonna try to get used to it together

#art related #krita

[uniformbravo]

ok..... 3am post

im havin a crisis ovr clip studio paint bc that deal where it’s over 50% off for $25 ends today and it seems like a rly nice program, it has everything im looking for, but im not willing to pay full price for it so im kind of in crunch time rn trying to figure out if i want to buy it or not

also i hate the ambiguity w/ deadlines sometimes like the website is all “deal ends june 2nd!!” like what does that Mean what is that. this sale could end at any time today or maybe it just means midnight 12am on june 3?? and then what time zone would that be fkjgsdg god i just cant tell so im like losign my mind over here

ok and like the other thing is i know there are other programs that have the same functionality im looking for for free, like fire alpaca i know for sure has a stabilizer and some kind of perspective-related tools, and then i’ve also heard good things abt krita but i haven’t been able to look into it yet

im just like!! dam i wish i had more time to try out all these programs bc i dont want to shell out 25 bucks when it turns out i could’ve gotten the exact same shit for literally nothing hmm!!!!!!

like ok let’s just, the things im looking for in an art program are:

line stabilizer

custom brushes (w/ option to download user-made brushes)

thats p much it

the reason csp appeals to me so much is bc it has both of those things but it also has a Bunch of other shit like all the perspective tools and literal 3d models u can use for reference and a shitload of features specifically geared towards making comics which hey i happen to be v interested in, and like i know it’s all just fancy extra stuff that i could honestly get by without but man when it’s all right there in front of u ur like “damn this is really nice tbh”

and like it’s kind of a confusing program if u just drop right in & try to feel ur way around but i found a playlist on youtube of this guy (im p sure he’s affiliated w/ the creators on the english-speaking side of things at least) who goes through the program and tells u how everything works and what it all means and it’s super helpful, i really like the idea of learning a program beforehand through someone who Knows Their Shit rather than spending years and years occasionally discovering new functions on my own like i did with pse (rip)

but at the same time as i say that im also thinking “damn tho ppl make tutorials about everything on yt, u could find vids for the other art programs too” and it’s like yeah!!!! u right!!!!! i rly can’t justify this purchase other than “time is short & i have anxiety & i want the thing” ghgsldkgsldkgs 

so the reason im still up at uhh 3:45 am now wow is because i can’t decide if i should just go the fuck to bed and worry abt this in the “morning” or do everything i can to keep looking into this rn since idk when the sale actually ends, like jesus christ i’ll sleep on a big essay the night before it’s due but i’d pull an all-nighter for an art program Apparently ?????

i just feel like such a Doof bc there are all these people running around with free art programs doing perfectly fine & im sitting here like “ya i’ll drop cash on this one i literally only just heard of and tried for the first time today” like what kinda dumbass maneuver..........

#retag later #talkin bout stuff #money / #i guess idk