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citialiin · 5 years

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Tagged by: @pcrticlvcid ( a big kiss. ) Tagging: @cardinalrot @seekscryptids @gothsic @betelguide please just take it from me im too lazy and i dont want to forget people :’(

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NAME : xiaopeng :( NICKNAME : BASIL :)

FACECLAIM : INVADER ZIM BABEY PRONOUNS : they/them or she/her HEIGHT : 5′6″ :\ BIRTHDAY : October 16 AESTHETIC : ex forever 21 employee + asian bbg with lululemon leggings and a fully beat face even tho im just going to trader joes + sad 90s goth from a jhonen vasquez comic LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO : retrey yung joup knea by ros sereysothea FAVORITE MUSE (S) YOU’VE WRITTEN : honestly....im havin a blast writing for zigbert. but i also had fun writing hannibal lecter and invader zim and bill cipher !!

* GETTING TO KNOW THE ACCOUNT :

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO TAKE ON THIS MUSE : i got really into d*vid b*wie stuff earlier this year and ofc i already loved aliens and scifi so ziggy stardust was right up mi alley. initially he wasnt even my favorite musical era/b*wie persona (i liked the berlin era stuff more) but he has grown on me a lot and now im even doing my thesis film on a character based on ziggy LOL

also !!! @itscnlyfcrever found some of my b*wie art through my art blog....i was so fascinated with their rp and stuff that i kept thinking i should get back into rp too (i took a three year hiatus after rping zim because school got really hard) so they convinced me to set up my account and stuff!!! and here we are today.......... WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE ASPECTS OF YOUR CURRENT MUSE : i luv doing alien worldbuilding stuff!! not like zig had any actual lore to begin with so i get to make up a lot of it and i have a lot of freedom to invent his personality and backstory and alien origins. sometimes i feel like i bore people because all i want to write about is how weird and NOT HUMAN and bizarre ziggy really is....but imo the scifi aspect is more interesting than the celebrity/musician aspect!! (THAT STUFF IS REALLY INTRESTING TOO THO). i think its fun to write about how obliviously vain and egotistical he is but also about how weird human life is through the eyes of someone who hasnt been on earth for very long WHAT’S YOUR BIGGEST INSPIRATION WHEN IT COMES TO WRITING : oh.......i keep a word document of my favorite HP lovecraft lines that i read through so i can always remember how to be pretentious and wordy :) FAVORITE TYPES OF THREADS : threads that are exciting and sort of crazy and actiony! i dont like fluffy stuff usually ... i think i really like threads where people find out he’s an alien but i also really like threads that force him to think a lot because i have fun writing out his thought processes. i like plots that really have a definite goal to work towards so i can always know the end goal of what im writing for. ok ngl i like writing with about ziggy and cardinal copia a lot please dont look at me BIGGEST STRUGGLE IN REGARDS TO YOUR CURRENT MUSE : i am SO deeply self conscious about the way i write zigbert :( ziggy stardust is like a cultural icon but even so he has no backstory or personality (fuck u b*wie you lied ziggy stardust was NOT conceived as a concept album it was just a bunch of songs he had already done put together that he later strung together a VERY VAGUE narrative for) so i feel like every direction i choose to move in....IS THE WRONG DIRECTION LOL like if i make him too shallow, does that contradict the fact that he’s sometimes portrayed as very thoughtful or deep? i make him enjoy his celebrity status and crave attention but does that contradict the way hes sometimes portrayed as a rebel messiah ? sometimes having so little to go off of....makes u feel lost and confused :[

i also feel like hes boring. hes supposed to be CRAZAAAAAAY hes a hedonistic promiscuous outer space cocaine snorting alien freak like ... i make him really boring sometimes. its because im a very boring person irl

#ooc #meme #i am social and i am filling out memes look at me go

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michi-chelle-draws · 5 years

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Inkuary is over! I know I missed two days, but considering I’m so lazy I’ve never done a challenge like this before, I’m surprised I even made it past day 5. Inkuary was.....it was a lot. It was an entire rollercoaster, like the first week was great, second week was pretty good, then we start hitting the third and fourth weeks and I was struggling pretty badly. My sketchbook is falling apart, three brush pens have died, and my pencil is now the size of my pinky lmao. But I’m glad I did it~

I wanted to do Inkuary for a few main reasons: 1) to get back into drawing after a long hiatus, 2) to start off 2019 with good habits, 3) to get my art blog going, and 4) to rekindle my love for drawing. My goal was basically to have fun (hence, all the fan art.....I was really inspired lmao) and not push myself to do anything except draw something every day. And I wanted to sort of log my experience by posting these drawings here. These Inkuary drawings aren’t great, some are just downright mediocre, but here they are. Drawing doesn’t come to me as effortlessly as I’d like it to, even for simpler drawings, but hey, I found out that it’s possible to at least sketch every day even if it’s trash. And it’s okay if it’s trash.

I’ve learned many things during this month. I’ll talk about three main ones here. First, I don’t think I want to draw for a living. I can write a whole essay as to why, but for this I’m just going to say that as much as I love drawing, I can’t see myself doing it every day as my career. It sounds strange, but eh. I think I’m going to stick with drawing for fun for now! Second, I miss colorsssss omg I only had my black pens, a few color pens, and three markers with me for most of the month. I mean, inking is my favorite part of the drawing process, I already use colors sparingly in my drawings as a style choice, and this challenge is INKuary after all. But I’m so ready to start using more colors again now that I’m reunited with the rest of my supplies. Third, drawing is a pretty lonely process. I think I tend to do my best work, or at least feel more comfortable working on drawings, when I’m alone. When people try to see my drawings, I become so self-conscious to the point of physical discomfort. Yet I’m completely fine with showing my drawings to strangers on the Internet. Again, it’s something I can write an entire essay about, but let’s just leave it at that.

I’m not sure if my drawing themselves have improved throughout this month. I don’t know, maybe I’ve become a bit faster at drawing? I wasn’t really stressing about improving as the month progressed, though. Like I said, I just wanted to have fun. But I think my attitude has improved. I’ve become less intimidated by the blank page. Posting on social media isn’t as pressuring as it used to be when I started uploading my drawings many, many years ago. I’ve come out of this challenge wanting to draw more! I think these small changes in my mindset are just as important as changes in skill, and hopefully these changes will become great enough that they translate onto my work.

Okay this post has become way too long and disorganized. Inkuary was fun! Which drawng was your favorite? I think my favorite was Day 23, but Day 4 is a close second!

Also one more thing omg thank you for the likes and reblogs and for your feedback. ✨ I’m glad I can share my drawings with you~

#and thanks for following me aaaaaaa i hope you continue to like this tiny art blog!#<3 #long post #ramblings

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