#im not sure on the english word for it but its whatever Peleada is in english. quarreled i guess with doing my makeup

[sgt-celestial]

sitting at the kitchen table doing fuckall rn might do my makeup for fun in my tiny handheld mirror. should i

#i did it yesterday to test if my old makeup still works (it does) but these days i reeeeally struggle with makeup. in the sense that im fina #lly pretty settled with my whole gender situation AND ive come to realise the Horrors of the beauty industry and stuff so im kind of . well #im not sure on the english word for it but its whatever Peleada is in english. quarreled i guess with doing my makeup #cuz i used to do it every day for college but then i stopped and realised how pressured i felt into not going out makeupless. but now its #really funny cuz i NEVER wear it so my friends arent used to seeing me with it on #so i guess i see it as more of an add-on now as opposed to a mask or something. idk IDK!!!!! but im still coming to terms with my whole #masc status so hmmm. save me 60s 70s drag #like i want it to be a drag act but no matter what people will STILL see me as a girl. makeup or no makeup. masc or femme its like i will #never escape from that :/ #emi's meandering jotts #wellll im gonna do it anyway whatever. i dont want my makeup to go bad and waste away so! considering this a use-up event #im not gonna wear it out anyway sooo ^_^ #sorry for the huge spiel. its just me thinking out loud to be honest