#im not a masochist lol

[einsatzzz]

i studied so much the past few days my brain just did a forced shutdown on me last night and accidentally reset my sleep schedule to that of an old person’s hahaha 🤣🤣🤣 passed out and woke up at like around 4:30am (b4 this reset, i wake up at around 4:30pm), then i did some more studying----that was so weird though because it was this sudden wave of rlly bad headache and nausea. at the very least, i didn’t throw up. i need to be more careful ig

#personal #haven't had the time to go outside and go to pharmacy to buy medicine so yeah... #i need to push my wake up time around 6hrs more bc it would be bad if i suddenly feel sleepy during work #anyway i think i finally gained momentum with studying and ive gotten used to it again #the grind(tm) never stops #<----i fucking hate the grind actually; i can't wait to get this over with on sept/oct #only studying so hard rn bc if i fail then my suffering extends further #im not a masochist lol

[edenfire]

🗡❤️ now that's more like it!~ ❤️🗡

I was thinking about rank 8 and somehow produced this??😂💦 and don't worry about akechi, he's enjoying it~~♡

don't be surprised if I draw more lol

#shuake #goro akechi #akira kurusu #persona 5 #p5 #tw choking #let's face it #goro is a masochist #ive decided lol #he likes when akira is enraged😳💘 #their fight in rank 8 was kinda....👀 #i wanna draw more about it #i love shuake #and this dynamic is very 😋 #should i turn this into a print? #im thinking about it lol #♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ #shitty #(< that's my art tag)

[obey-me-headquarters]

So, I haven't gotten too far into Nightbringer to write any specific smut for it. (Literally only just started lesson 6). But I do have some ideas!!

A lot of my ideas revolve around being the demon's "first" in something. Like, you know your demons inside and out at this point. You know all their kinks, fantasies, and where to touch them to make them squirm. So you can introduce them to all sorts of things that make them scream in the future but they have no experience with now.

For example, showing Lucifer how much of a masochist he is. I don't think Lucifer is a complete virgin in Nightbringer as I think he fooled around as an angel at least a few times. I mean, he's still a few thousand years old, he was bound to get curious and try getting frisky with a few angels. But him trying out BDSM? I seriously doubt it.

So once you and him finally fall into bed together, you show him all the ways he didn't know he loved to be touched. Having such an inexperienced Lucifer is a bit of a novelty and a bit of an annoyance. Present day Lucifer knew what he wanted and he wasn't ashamed of asking for it. The Lucifer you're currently bedding? Doesn't know what he wants.

It's actually really cute how shy Lucifer is. How he tries so hard to stifle his moans when you heard much louder, much needier ones from your present Lucifer.

And you don't want to push him. It's entirely possible that past Lucifer has no interest in BDSM. That his particular taste for masochism and being owned evolved after many centuries.

But you still want to try, to possibly open his eyes to a new world of domination and submission.

So one evening, one careful evening you've been planning for. One evening in which you make sure that his brothers haven't wreaked havoc, one evening where Diavolo doesn't up to distract Lucifer cause him stress. One perfect, relaxing evening, you spring the question onto him.

"Lucifer, have you heard about BDSM?" You ask in your most light, most casual tone to not raise any alarm bells and spook the demon.

Lucifer pauses his undressing, his hands suspended in the air as his tie hangs loosely around his neck. He turns to you in slow motion, looking so bewildered and confused that it makes you want to laugh. Surely your demon couldn't be that pure right? You know he's only been a demon for a little more than a year now, but, come on.

"I'm sorry, have I heard about what?"

"BDSM! Like, Bondage, Domination, Submissive, Masochism. Have you heard of people doing that sort of thing in bed?"

Lucifer's face turns a bright scarlet and he turns away from you. Like, actually physically turning his full back to you, turning away from you. You can see his ears still burning though, and elect not to tease him about it in worry that if you do, Lucifer might become so embarrassed he'll stop being the Avatar of Pride.

"It's fine if you haven't. If you would rather I never bring it up again say the word and I wouldn't." You tell him, concern starting to creep in.

"No. No, it's fine. I just. Why did you choose to bring that topic up?" He asks stiffly, hands clenching and unclenching at his sides. A classical Lucifer "I'm nervous about this topic because it inflicts Feelings in me" move.

"I was just wondering. I have been in dom/sub relationships in the, um, past, and was wondering if that was something you'll be into," you say gently, so extremely gently. "It's fine if that's not something you're into." You add.

"You have?" He asks in surprise, and because you know him so well, with a hint of excitement. "What... what role did you fall into?"

Relief crashes into you like a tidal wave. He's into it. He's really into it from what you can tell. He hasn't had any experience with subbing, you know because your Lucifer didn't when you meet him, but he was so desperate to finally try he practically threw himself at your feet.

Not this Lucifer though. This Lucifer most likely knows of the idea, maybe he picked up some porn featuring a dom/sub relationship and knows on some level that he's interested in subbing, but hasn't had the time to stew in that knowledge like your Lucifer did.

"Dominate." You say with confidence, a grin painting your face. "I like control in the bedroom."

And judging by the shiver that shoots up Lucifer's spine at your words, so does he.

Grinning, you stand and begin stalking towards your prey.

"I like taking control of my partner. Make them beg for relief. And if they misbehave, I like to punish them."

"Do. Do you?" Lucifer asks breathlessly.

You're standing behind him and you know he knows you're there. His demon sense picking up on it, and by the way he almost leans backward as if to meet your touch, you know he wants you.

"I do." You state confidently, mere inches away from Lucifer.

"But," your hand grasps Lucifer's shoulder and he flinches. "If my partner didn't want that...." You give him a light pull and he complies, turning to face you.

And oh, what a sight that is.

You missed your subby little Luci. You missed his cute moans, his tears as you edged him, and his screams when you overstimulated him. And you missed his flushed face when you lowered him into subspace.

And this? This perfectly mimics that face.

"Oh, baby." You breathe out, fighting the urge to pepper his face in kisses and pull him into your chest.

"And what if I do? Would you do those things to me?" Lucifer asks, and you're so, so proud of him for asking.

"Darling, I would do all that and more." You say as you kiss him.

Like your Lucifer did in the past, like he will do in the future, he lets you take control.

#obey me #obey me nb #obey me nightbringer #obey me lucifer #obey me nb Lucifer #my post #obey me dom!reader #ok so i know i said i was busy #and i AM #i should have NOT written this. this just got away from me #as yall can probably tell because this did NOT contain you showing Luci that hes a masochist lol #aw. oh well. i have a pretty clean idea of what i want that to look like #ill write that later #i SWEAR i will finish that one day... one day... #i noticed that i got quite a bit of notes from my Nb posts. and uh. #yeah sorry folks who are not in the know. im a smut writter. #a dom!reader smit writer in fact. sorry. #best to leave now if you're not into that

[demonophilia]

i needd to get groped more often... come up behind me while im cooking or cleaning n grope me grope me while were spooning grope me in public stick your hands under my shirt and play with my tits im no longer asking!!

#mine #ftm nsft #trans nsft #queer nsft #ftm t4t #t4t nsft #t4t kink #t4t sub #ftm sub #ftm switch #trans sub #trans switch #bd/sm blog #bd/sm community #bd/sm masochist #t4t switch #sry im like crazy today or something. what having a bad day at work does to a mf.. #like i should literally be getting railed rn i should be getting dped WITH QUICKNESS AND HASTE! sigh. i havent used my toys in a while... #might get a bit silly lol. #subposting

[house-of-daena]

ngl all i've been doing is work n playing league

#» asmo talks #i feel off writing tbh but uh maybe give me 6 months and i'll return lol #also my social battery is like perpetually empty so #you know #i think a bf would fix this all /j #i may have fallen out of love for dottore a bit... #i mean its still there but my eyes are on certain champs in league #'coughs' specifically heartsteel ezreal... some kayn and maybe hwei.. #anywho #if anyone is interested i play the mobile version and all roles (im a masochist) #well thats all you're gonna hear from me see ya'll in 2025 /j

[shameful4]

e4 🤝 e7

self indulgence

#i wish ppl talked more about how e4s are self indulgent #i think bc its more masochistic ppl don't talk about it as much #but the type i connect with the most is definitely e7 #always disatisfied always rationalizing always reframing and trying to understand what the fuck is going on #always reaching for more #might just be a frustration triad thing actually #idk. e7s annoy the shit out of me but i love em #im listening to an album by a so7 and the way he talks abt indulgence and literally begging to be bored is so real #i havent felt bored in awhile #vent #<- kinda lol

[galedekkarios]

yk i usually expect the absolute worst of twitter when it comes to opinions on literally anything, but i'm pleasantly surprised at the amount of people from all parts of the world coming out to defend having greys and wrinkles at 35 and pushing back on the idea that gale looks or acts too old for his age etc etc. esp when on here someone saying that will get like 3 notes, meanwhile someone saying what is essentially "no one gets wrinkles, greys, or joint pain, or enjoys being a homebody before 45 🙄" gets 100+ easily :/

#i saw a tweet and went into the replies bc im a fucking masochist but instead found people being normal abt aging. yayyyyy 💜 #and like. ofc it could just be my bubble on there. and it might be. but im happy regardless! bc the fanon abt his age and body type #and its supporters are Very Passionate abt their beliefs so any pushback or ppl holding diff opinions is in my opinion rather rare #so i'm always happy to see it lol i'm always wary of echo chambers

[vanyafresita]

im normal im okay im fine im not crying about fictional characters its fine im alright no worries guys

#season 4 of magnus archives is making me want to jump off my window IT WOULD HURT LESS #holding dearly jon and daisy and martin on my arms #EVERYTOHNG HUUURRTTTSSSSSS #looking at jon WHY ARE U SUCH A MASOCHIST STOP THAAAAATT #okay im normal again #ACTUALLY IM NOT I NEED EVERYBODY TO BE HAPPY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #ALO IM STILL NOT OVER TIM THAT FUCKED ME UP I MISS HIM !!!! #okay im fine now fr dont mind me #i was about to start ep 136 but i actually need a shower and some food ive been on bed for the entirety of the day listening to tma LOL #vanya strawberry flavored #tma

[da3drat]

playing morrowind has really given me a new appreciation of rpgs with no/minimal voice acting. Like idk if the game would be what it is (to me) if the lines were voiced. It asks you to pay close attention to what people have to say, to really understand what they mean, and then allows you to spend as much time as you want reading and rereading through the words by just presenting them as a paragraph. Ik a lot of people don't love text blocks and that's fair, but to me it offers a completely different gameplay experience where the dialogue can be of greater importance because YOU control the flow and pacing of information. You don't have to sit through three or four voice lines just to get to the one you want to check again, and you don't have to wrap up your thoughts by the time the VA finishes speaking. You can just sit and pick it apart!

#ive been thinking a lot about crafting rpgs lately and im sort of designing one ha #and one of the things i have been stuck on is audio. because its so crucial and it's something i have absolutely zero experience with #like i know how to code i can do art #i have enough experience with video games and analyzing them to have somewhere to start when learning game design principles #and i've made simple games before #but I have NO experience with audio recording and design #I sing and thats about it lol. #but morrowind has really given me a look into how you can USE limited resources to do something interesting. #even with something as crucial to the overall atmosphere as sound design. limitation is the fuel for creativity or w/e right #anyway next on my list is pathologic (classic HD bc I'm a masochist<3) #im thinking about making a separate blog to talk about like. ig video game opinions and development stuff because its not all tes related #so i can't keep it here haha

[linpunny]

I love love love looking at others selfships with characters I self ship with and seeing the different dynamics 🥺

me looking at others self ships with heart eyes:

but also I look at my self ships and laugh because I’m such a brat and that’s the dynamic lol

I try my best to be a good girl for Draken. I actively want to be a good girl and not be bratty for him. He’s my soul mate and I love him very much so I’ll try hard to not be a brat and I’m quick to apologize for being a brat or saying something mean. But I’m making fun of him in an affectionate way and probably always commenting on how tall he is or something stupid “Here comes Draken with his big ass” “he’s a big boy” like I’m just dumb and sarcastic but I’ll give him a 1000 compliments afterwards🥲 Doberman bf and chaotic orange cat energy for sure. we’re playful behind closed doors but otherwise he’s probably sighing and thinking I’m almost as much trouble as Mikey 🙂

Taiju it’s like I’m 60%brat 40%(those numbers are false lol) good girl. puppy golden retriever gf energy and black cat bf energy allll day. but I’ll fold so easily once I’m cornered by him or he looks at me. I can’t even brat him honestly like i try but I fail and whimper the moment he says literally anything or threatens punishment. I am Dessy Shiba. He owns me. I’ll accept that. My fate is sealed and I’m so insanely attracted to him and I want to bang my head on the wall and I’m probably always running away or deflecting and he’s just staring at me like “when are you going to stop?” With one eyebrow raised and his mouth in a tight line. He’s patient and the opposite of my energy. I truly hate love him.

I’ll bully the fuck out of Leviathan so hard. I’m talking calling him the filthiest meanest names “cumsock, can’t even use his dick(s) probably levi, disgusting pathetic loser who sobs on my strap. ” but he’s a bigger masochist and even more pathetic than me so he’s putty as soon as I step on him. He‘s getting the strap for sure. Or I’m riding him because he’s too shy to do anything but whimper like the loser he is, full tent in his pants. He’s my skrunkly demon boyfriend. When I’m not being mean we play video games together and watch anime. So happy to be around each other we can be engrossed in different activities, sitting in silence but still enjoying the warmth and comfort of the others company.

#I try to be a good girl for Draken for sure #I’ll bully the fuck out of leviathan but he’s a masochist soooo #I’ll probably move this to a whole separate post that is under my pinned #theres more like kenpachi and toshiro but ill do those later #dessy selfships #dessy stfu #self shipping #i look at my moots and the people i follow and go aww thats so cute look at them heart eyes heart eyes look how cute they look together #then i look at my pfp and im like damn im really getting fucked dumb by taiju lol and im fine with that #taiju shiba #draken #levi obey me

[sethjarvy]

feeling like nathan mackinnon every time i buy red lentils or chickpea pasta

#listen i eat too much pasta and it's SO hard for me to get enough protein so i need to deprive myself from good ol classic pasta #although chickpea pasta is gooodddddd #i tried red lentils once and it was meh but i got them again bc they've got more protein lol #i do eat it with sauce though I'm not THAT much of a masochist #also im bulking so I'll put a fuck ton of sauce and margarine/olive oil I'm not that healthy hahah

[juice-enjoyer]

the brush I use for digital art is kind of just functionally terrible but I have such a strong attachment to it that using anything else feels wrong

#ive been using it for 3 years lol #and honestly....im just so used to it that ive learned to draw around its quirks and use them to my advantage lol #its kind of awful for lined+colored pieces bc its a low opacity brush so i have to go back under the lines oftentimes #and the thing is its a heavily altered version of a brush that got DELETED!!! literally cannot find it anymore!! #but its great for painting in a masochistic kind of way #and i like to use it for lining bc i like the way it feels... TT-TT #the icon i put for it in clip studio is tidus from ffx with a transmasc flag behind it amen #txt

[monusdiary]

thinking that ur masochist before having any real experience and then realizing once you do that you are actually a sadist is such a strange realization lol. i think it maybe has to do with knowing I was into pain in some way but like subconsciously thinking “theres no way I could hurt someone I love” until I realized, oh, yes, i very much could 💀

#nsft ramblings #i still feel bad about hurting my bf sometimes #even though it’s consensual and even when hes actively asking me to lol #i just cant go past a certain point bc im scared i’ll hurt him too much lol #just subconscious reservations i guess #gay nsft #mlm nsft #nsft #trans nsft #nsft post #ftm nsft #queer nsft #pain play #bd/sm kink #sadisim #masochist

[a-gay-little-cat]

the game handed me a funny little jester oufit its all i ever wanted

#like damn go off #also had someone call me a sadist (? u mean masochist surely) for being on blm #like brother idk things im just playing the game n having fun so far #n i just wanna stick through with it lol #interested in trying dancer eventually maybe #but uhm yes #im at 75h of ffxiv now like uhm... it gripped me afterall #ryan diaz