#im losijg my fucking miiiind

[junkartie]

Me having insane thoughts and emotions about people & things but i have to ignore them and let it ruin me because im extremely mentally ill & i cant just chalk up my feelings to “instinct” or a magical 6th sense

#im losijg my fucking miiiind #🤸‍♀️ #idk how much longer i can stay unmedicated and at this point im too afraid to find out #i have to go to a psychiatrist again i think. #im back in my trashes the whole house while im alone only to spend 3 hours cleaning it back up phase #i dont know whats wrong with me man #its gotten so bad that i almost refuse to talk to people irl #because i geniuenly believe everyone is plotting against me or doesnt care wnough abt me to not hurt me #simultaneously i know this isnt true or healthy #but despite knowing this i cant change my stulid little brain from believeing it #legitimately idk what im going to do at collage