#im just mad okay? I wish I could've cut hard enough to be rushed to the hospital then I think things would change

[sensitivegoblin]

Vent

Tw: self harm, sucide

#I tried to kill mysekf and nothing happened...... #I dunno I'm spiraling I guess but fuck wow #my dad bought me stuff (kept telling him not to) but nkthing fucking happened or changed #that's why it doesn't feel like I tried hard enough cus apparently I'm just supposed to sit and rot in bed like normal #I know none of this shit im saying is making sense o dunno how to say what im trying to say #im not trying to blame anyone or ugh I don't fucking know #im just mad okay? I wish I could've cut hard enough to be rushed to the hospital then I think things would change #I know people care but it doesn't FEEL like they do #in the movies when the person is sitting in the hospital bed that's when the family n friends finally get it #but I feel like everyone around me is like 'lalalala everything is the same :)' #NO YOU IDIOTS I SHOULD BE DEAD RIGHT NOW AND NO ONE SEEMS TO CARE #IM DROWNING AND I NEED SOMEONE TO SAVE ME