#im deeply disingenuous in all my earthly offerings

[joni-witchell]

I am feeling the tendrils of despair poking and prodding at the edges of my psyche.

I'm overstimulated at work.

Under caffeinated

It's genuinely hard to give a fuck about anything when I can SEE WITH MY OWN EYES (all three) that it's all bullshit.

It's like ... For whom is this ? Any of this?

I'm passionless.

I'm scolded for my compassion and empathy.

I don't know if I've grown up correctly.

It feels like my whole life has passed me and by the time I catch up, by the time I reach out, by the time my hands take hold of something tangible and loving and real...it or I will be dead.

#😑 #i dont know how to change things in my life enough for me to feel happy or content #its not enough to be alive #i want to live #im genuinely disgusted by everything that makes me me #im deeply disingenuous in all my earthly offerings #oh welllllllll #maybe ill feel better after i eat something