#im back at it again woo

[variousqueerthings]

watching doctor who confidential onwards into season 2, and of course we reach some of the more... considered romantic-type episodes -- school reunion up through age of steel, because of sarah-jane, renette, and mickey

what i find interesting about the ways people describe the dynamics between the doctor and sarah-jane/rose/renette, it immediately becomes much more Alive than simply using the word "romance," which ultimately says nothing. people will throw around the word "romance" and then start talking about "well the doctor is possessive of his companions because he's terribly lonely," "well, rose thought she was Chosen to be special and save the world, but discovered that there had been many people before her who had subsequently (often) been unceremoniously left behind on earth once again without their consent," "the doctor cannot bear saying proper goodbyes to various companions, because it's too painful and so deliberately used to try and keep it casual," "the doctor knows what the companions don't quite understand, which is that they will always die and the doctor will always live," "sarah-jane had a bit of this magic and then was abandoned," "rose sees her future in sarah-jane," "renette goes into the doctor's mind and sees the loneliness there," "the doctor sees this person he knew as a girl grow up and then die in a very short space of time and it's tragic"

and that gives much more flavour to the various dynamics the doctor has with their companions. at one point dtennant describes different "relationships" without using the word "romance" and while I don't know if that was conscious, it's much more accurate and doesn't put a dynamic on the relationships that's quite... limiting. I think it's quite telling how much people tend to conflate the two words, because romance is unconsciously put on that highest pedestal, so if the relationship is intense it must be romantic, because... well romance must be intense (also, from what I've seen, not necessarily true)

it's not enough that renette encapsulates some of the doctor's worst fears (a companion simply dying because humans will always die, and there's nothing that can be done to stop the passage of time), or that she briefly caught a glimpse of some of the doctor's true loneliness and helped assuage/distract it for a little bit, before it all came crashing back tenfold, or that she as a human from a certain time period conceives of the doctors through terms like "angel," as if all of those things aren't intense

it's not enough that the doctor has left companions time and time again without saying goodbye, and that this has now been confirmed in nu!who as being because it's too hard to let them go every time and actually say goodbyes that have proper meaning, and the doctor consistently wishes for them a life beyond the tardis and sometimes they make the choice, but often it's the doctor's decision (most times without them even knowing) that now they're at a point to move on without the doctor, or doesn't need the doctor anymore, or it's too much/dangerous, or whatever that choice is based in. and that often in the past this choice has been related in them finding romantic relationships that have superseded what the doctor has to offer (skill issue, but then I'm aromantic -- I do acknowledge that the ponds is one of the only times this hasn't quite happened, which is funny because I too tend to become swallowed (with affection) into various couples to various degrees) and the doctor accepts this

once again, the worst quote came from stephen moffat, saying that in renette the doctor had finally found an equal because she was educated and cultured, which feels like a (probably not on purpose but still quite noticeable) slight against rose being able to be considered an equal -- rose who deliberately was introduced as a young woman who never finished highschool, and in the idea that romance is about... equal knowledge? equal education? unclear, but it's another example of all the talk about romance being quite waffly compared to actually describing what's going on in these narratives, which is a fascinating set of dynamics that can't be encapsulated by that word

also ofc in rise of the cybermen/age of steel mickey finally lets go of rose, and there was a description there about how mickey did read the doctor as this other guy who came in and swooped rose off her feet and had so much to offer -- but that makes sense, because mickey is a human man seeing his girlfriend prioritise someone who to them both looks like an attractive young man (who owns a time machine to boot). whether I would personally read mickey as thinking it's romantic, I don't think it matters much because mickey mainly just recognises that the doctor is more important to rose than he'll ever be, and it's a rare-ish example of the doctor taking precedent over another romantic pairing, which was quite interesting (also, again, from an aromantic perspective)

#aroace doctor #aro doctor #aromantic doctor #the doctor #dw #doctor who #sarah-jane smith #rose tyler #mickey smith #im back at it again woo #doctor who confidential #i need to get some coherent tags for all of this

[wasyago]

we're at it again🕺

#jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #my art #sketch #back on my bullshit woo yeah woo yeah woo yeah #genuinely a lot happier with this design than the previous ones. the lighter metal looks better on him #and this one doesn't have a lot of detail (or any detail tbh) so it looks more solid and fun i think #and you can see im trying to figure out how gill would carry his sword around #technically he should just carry it in his hands and don't have a scabbard because its a longsword and isn't supposed to be sheathed... #but like... its not practical to always carry it in his hands. especially in a day to day life. because he always has the sword on him- #but he doesn't necessarily always hold it? like. he needs hands for stuff #i think i like the back scabbard better (even if i drew the whole turnaround for the hip one) just because it doesn't mess with his tail #plus that way destiny's blade is higher up and gets to look around at stuff and i think its funny #but then like... the cape is a little awkward if it has to go above the sword... #but its not a big deal. if he has a cape and armor on he probably holds the sword in his hands anyway #am i putting too much thought into this unnecessary detail? yes #am i rambling in the tags again instead of making a separate post? also yes

[crescentfool]

🌊🌸

#persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #lizzy does art #a brief break from the oc rainbow stuff. i present a minato to soothe everyone's souls. he is my favorite ever!!! #i'm so so happy to be drawing him again you have no idea #i've found my mojo again!!! rahh!!! my drive to create!! you're back!! i missed you!! and i will take you in stride!! #truly minato will always be such a comfort to draw he's like my favorite protagonist in anything ever he's just so!! #wahhhh i love him... #i realized a few days ago that i keep making sketches that i dont bother to color even if they're niceys #and im like damn dude wtf. let's go color these!!! #so there may be a bit more art than usual because HNNGH I MISS COLORING. i am going to drown you all in art 😈 #anyways happy friday! congratulations everyone. you made it to the end of the week. give urself a pat on the back!! woo!! yeah!!!

[mrinafria]

She held a yellow umbrella over me with a smile. I couldn't breathe because my heart was fluttering. As if I'd forgotten how to breathe.

...

She hasn't changed at all.

The fact that it's been YEARS and I'd gotten rid of all my original vidding stuff along with my channel (and forgot 98% things I knew) because I never thought I'd ever edit another show/couple xD These two are an exception okay :'( In case you can't already tell from my long analysis and frequent mourning over him, I have a special soft spot for OG Seon Jae. So yeah. This was hard to do because I had to see that face that screams pining and guilt and pain (AND THAT SIGH GODDAMMIT) but I wanted to do this, for him.

[tw: death]

#Lovely Runner #Byeon Woo Seok #Kim Hye Yoon #Sun Jae #Im Sol #Seon Jae #선재 업고 튀어 #kdrama #kdrama recommendations #east asian drama #lovely runner edits #can't go back to my youtube days again so this has to be it for archiving purposes

[guiltymepleasures]

Not me dreading the sound of the watch taking Sol back to 2023 during that Sonaki rendition.

#i was so worried she'd go back #and leave sun jae again #lovely runner #im sol #kim hye yoon #sun jae #ryu sun jae #byeon woo seok

[every-vocalsynth]

kasane teto (synthv)?

tetoe real,,,,,, [click for better quality!]

#hhhhh ok so i tried messier lineart but im never doing it again bc. this was an absolute PAIN TO COLOUR HELP #anywho im!!!! proud of the effects!!! totally didnt remove the shoelaces bc im lazy #and WOO WOO WE'RE BACK EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! #vocal synth #vocasynth #utau #utau art #utau fanart #synthv #synthv art #synthv fanart #kasane teto #teto kasane #teto utau #utau teto #synthv teto #teto synthv #vocaloid #vocaart #synthesizer v #utauloid #vipperloid #art #digital art #an idiot's art

[oscill4te]

deviantart changed their search engine so that you cannot look up art just by searching up a person's username. this sucks and means if your account(s) was banned over a decade ago, you're probably not going to be able to access that art or those old journals anymore, unless its archived already. dayum =[ ive gotten banned so many times due to not being 13+ lol, they rightfully enforced that rule very well.

#its okay though. its not good to ruminate in the past anyways!! #not extensively at least. #if i could go back in the past id ask younger me to archive her art and journals. save the notebooks #but its okay. again. rumination isnt good. ive been doing that a lot recently. time to live in the present. #im drawing some old ocs to idk. get over that loss i guess. #i wanna draw the ones i remember before i forget completely one day #i dont know why it matters so much to me. they are just technicolored animals drawn on ms paint; no? #well. it does matter to me. so XD #i should be happy with what i have archived. i did do a bit of archiving as a teen and it genuinely its nice that i did that for myself #the internet will never reliably back up your stuff. devices break. notebooks get lost. bwah. :p loss is normal. #if i ever visit my parents i want to hunt for my laptop.. its lost in a sea of.... :( hoarding #it might not even work anymore. it could be gone even #its not as sad as im making it out to be lmao. i guess i just forget what i was like in the past sometimes #even in therapy an event that happened when i was 17 came up.. i barely remember who i was at that age. lots from that time is gone. #i guess i dont have to remember. who ever i am -now- matters more than a hypothetical past me........... #but that past me got me here. and im so thankful. want her to be find peace for once. i want to at least know her. all versions of her. #divided sense of self = lmao. this all sounds so woo

[larabar]

Pride hcs you say???

My favorites are quoiromantic Amy and Surge (Quoiromantic means you have difficulty differentiating platonic and romantic affection)

I also really really love transfem Silver and her friend he/him girl Blaze 😌

oh these are so good,, you win

i could only do two of them but man i love all of these, tysm for sharing !!!!!

#ough the one for amy and surge.. just like me fr !! #also blaze n silver bring me so much joy your hcs are really really good #!! #asks #doodles #sth #amy was reaching out to surge but theres something about her that makes me physically unable to draw her #i think ive only done it once #so anyway thats why shes not there #OH AND SORRY FOR DISAPPEARING AGAIN it is. summer and im so drained in the summer💥💥💥 #but ill get back into it soon ! hopefully ! #PRIDE HCS WOO!!!!!!

[good-beanswrites]

HI 🎬 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THESE AHHH It did get eaten so I'm really glad you sent it again!!

It's interesting, because this movie night could take place right before T2 begins, and act as a little celebration/preparation night. But also, I like the thought of doing it after T2 closes, since they'd have their verdicts in mind while they watched the videos...

No matter when it takes place, this round of videos would definitely be more tense, but at least some of that would be lessened by the fact everyone was involved in filming. While the first movie night was a way to break the ice and have a little fun, this event feels more solemn. It's definitely used as a pick-me-up after such an ordeal -- a way to offer tons of praise and support and understanding to their fellow prisoner before/after a time where they had to pretend to hate one another.

Haruka, Mahiru, and Amane's require some serious time afterwards to talk and recover. LMAO I love the thought of Yuno's video resulting in some cheers as well as some "yes ma'am"s 😂 But I think despite her honesty, actually seeing her in those situations would cause the prisoners to understand her much deeply that before. (And I like to think she tries to bond with Amane over having multiples of themselves in the video :D) Mmm, and having a little moment between Muu and Fuuta would be so nice here. As bad as he felt seeing her be a victim in the T1 video, now he feels bad for her for a different way -- he can relate to her situation more and knows her pain.

Ahhhhh I want everyone to meet and hang out with Shidou's family so bad ;---; Although they're still not allowed to leave the facility until the experiment is over, everyone immediately starts making plans to hang out. Mahiru asks their favorite foods so she can have him over for dinner. Haruka asks if they have any similar hobbies/games so he can play with them. Amane doesn't say anything, but listens really closely to all the conversations. And yeah, by this time Jackalope would have received too much pressure to ignore the paperwork surrounding Amane any longer. While he's at it, they make him look into Haruka and his sister as well.

I wanted to make a John joke so bad you don't even know 😭😭😭I'm definitely going to sneak some teasing in post-neoplasm because I just think that's so funny and the others would never let him live it down OMG (I saw another post about it, but maybe secretly Red thinks it's fun -- despite hating the actual name John, he's excited to actually receive a nickname after Mikoto has given so many out to others)

But no matter how serious it gets, they'd be able to dance and sing along with some of the upbeat videos! The singer themselves may encourage the others to join in, since it would take some of the heaviness off of watching themself like that. It's such a bizarre situation, but they embrace it and find a little fun where they can.

I also just realized they'd get to watch Undercover!! It's the first time they get to hear Es sing and they're very impressed, and also enjoy seeing everyone together after separate filming. The visuals are pretty basic, and I think it'd be mostly teasing one another about the uniforms or looking like a sad wet cat behind bars...

Once again thank you 🎬!! These were so amazing and big brained 👏 I really appreciate you taking the time to write them out and send (twice ;-;), and I know a lot of others have enjoyed reading them as well!

#milgram #AHH thank you for sharing! #i was trying to find the balance between 'i want to comment on every piece of this i LOVED it and set aside time after work to treat myself #to reading it and vibing :)' and 'theres no need for me to tag on my useless rambles when its all there and amazing' sfsdfsd #but even holding back im a chronic rambler so sorry 💀💀💀 #once again im Vibrating with the desire to write a few things ;--; this was so sweet #i dont think the es covers work in the au at this point... #i could write off the cover songs as the prisoners fucking around between trials with the recording equipment #but that doesnt work as well for the es covers #though that means deco*27 is a canon musician in the au.... interesting 😂 #happy deep cover week woo!!! #lights camera sing your sins

[marymekpop]

eyes on you [3/?]

#extraordinary attorney woo #korean drama #kdrama #park eun bin #kang tae oh #mygif #im back with the heart eyes sets again ksksks #if my man aint staring at me the way ljh be staring at wyw then i dont want it! #ok no but srsly #i just love the way ljh looks at wyw and pays close attention to what shes doing or saying #i noticed it from the very first ep #best boy ljh indeed!! #these 2 own my entire heart #i love them so much #hearts in his eyes

[i-bring-crack]

Pov: You caught me re reading the dossiers for the nth time

#solo leveling #sung jin woo #woo jinchul #they know each other and yet they dont know each other and the fact that the world is so tiny but so big as jinwoo tried to maintain #his composture when he was just 15 seeing his father dissapear from his life and woo jin chul never truly wanting to change his career unti #until the freaking momwnt where he is shown and like you can see it very clearly how this was the only time jinwoo had relaxed #and how destiny just stabbed him in the back like that and since then he would (probably) be in constant fear of ever loosing #his family again and you also see woo jin chul who is a man who works hard with his passions and wanted to not let all his work go to waste #yet he has such a strong attitude of doing what is right for others that just from seeing jinwoo he leaves his work all behind #and chooses to become a member of the assosiation going so far as even trying to study and learn as much things as he can about hunters and #gates and then even if he doesnt need it at the end he doesnt leave it behind #he isnt bothered by it #and like he still keeps going #and i better repeat #his only motivation his real dream was to be a detective #he wanted peace he wanted justice #and yet he still let it all go to bring justice in another kind of form im dead dying dead dying #and im not even crying upon the irony of Jinwoo bringing haein to relax in the same amusement park ONLY TO FREAKING DIE A DAY LATER LIKE #WHAT KIND OF CURSED AMUSEMENT PARK IS THIS #please this was the only time haein and probably jinwoo too had also relaxed AND BROTHER THEN YOU DIE— #solo sobbing #solo leveling spoilers

[yuukimiyas]

( •̤ᴗ•̤ ) good morning!! this morning we said goodbye to the beach :< but i had a v good time!! now its 9+ hrs in the car back home!!

#we did it!! ₍₍◝(°꒳°*)◜₎ woo!! im not ready for real life again sigh #but i took tmrw off too so i can have an extra day to decompress & get my ducks in a row :3 #but its 5 am here & ya girl is so so sleepy so i’m gonna try & nap a lil bit or mayhaps read a lil bit!! my bff bought me a new book here! #im payin him back for it but HE DIDNT HAVE TO DO THAT ໒꒰ྀིஇ﹏இ`꒱ྀི১ he is so NICE!!! #anywho we’re not gonna talk ab the day i spent crying on the phone to my dad….that didn’t happen…૮ ̷ ̷ ̷・ﻌ・ ა lmaowjjsjs #ILYASM!!! i’ll be poppin in every now & again on the road <333 mwah!! #ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals!

[5-htreuptakeinhibitor]

i love art, im very grateful for adderall for gifting me with the executive function, ease of prioritization, and clearness of thought <3

#seriously a blessing in my burnout recovery #i think i had 2 burnouts really #1st when i was 12 i burnt out academically #and fell into other hyperfixations like homestuck and anime #n cartoons also socially burnt after my friends got annoyed w myhyperfixes but got close w my husband which helped/distracted from burnout #then i did again injjjjunior year i would say #i was burnt out creatively and socially and i hated band for the first time and i met my first AP class that i couldnt just coast through #because we had to do checked notes and DAMN im grateful for that teacher!!!!!!!!!!! #genuinely led to me learning how to take notes on text when i never had to before #but i literally cried. because spent HOURSSS the first few times trying to do my notes before a classmate told me theres a website that #summarized the book #which helped a lot #but it was the first time since suspecting i have Something other than depression/anxiety that i was SURE i had adhd #it kinda just clicked so i got on a nonstimulant that helped a bit but had shitty physical symptoms that got worse as i got older #i was on it forrrr like 2 or 3 years before i stopped taking it #but i also got on a 504 which gave me deadline flexibility which like #great yknow finishing out junior and senior year medicated woo #but senior year last semester i had terrible senioritis lol #which i now realize was that 2nd burnout #and literally from march 2020 to the end 2022 i barely talked to anyone or engaged on any level with most people other than smoking weed #and being a therapist #and my beautiful wonderful husband ofc but we kinda enabled each other lmao #but yknow that gap of time when my locale cared about covid and stuff was just not going on i really recovered #i didnt draw much or do much hobbywise #i did probably too much weed and not too much but Quite a Damn Lot of acid #(which.. idk who follows me now... but acid isnt a evil scary drug it is not physically harmful and wholly dependent on mindset) #and i worked a lot #but... i quit my job at the end of 2022. which kinda directly correlates with me reconnecting with my friend group #and reconnecting with them... i decided to go back to college #re realized the path for my passion for psychology lies in academia and i LIKE that

[thewhizzyhead]

can't believe it's been two damn years since I got into watt and yet with every damn reminder that watt exists, my head still goes haywire over ideas on how watt can be adapted/improved/put to netflix

#also remember that watt movie adaptation rambles i had back in 2021? #well as a communications major in college i am pleased to say that upon the arrival of the watt reunion concert #these ideas basically JUST GOT WORSE and as someone studying FILM MAKING i am oh so very tempted to try those ideas out #but anyways woo watt netflix mini series gjdjd even way back i remember other wattblr people talking about this #about how watt's format would better suit a mini series than a straight up adaptation #and thinking about it now i do agree - mainly because watt as a mini series could be unstoppable ghdjd #i mean that in a sense that more time can be allotted to exploring the characters either before or after the sleepover events #and thats one consensus i remember watt fans sharing before #and to this day some watt people me included still want to know more about the characters in terms of both their backstories and whatnot #so wHY NOT A MINI SERIES GJCJSJS #anyways woo its 2 am and im rambling about watt ideas again woo i really Am Officially Back on tumblr huh #we are the tigers

[fawnderes]

He’s back again.

He makes my chest hurt with anger and insecurity.

Why does he keep coming back, why don’t you talk to me about when it happens.

Are you trying to hide something from me?

#yandere irl #bpd yandere #queer yandere #yandere #yandere bpd #actually yandere #gay yandere #male yandere #boy yandere #irl yandere #vent #im going to actually go insane about this aren’t I? #I don’t even have the energy to be able to talk to the person about it #woo #depressive episodes sure to hit you down #and then people being too busy for you #just great #amazing #I should go back to isolating again #I’ll be fine that way #no one needs me after all #they’ve all got someone else #not even like they can even talk to me about it #I logged out of most the things I have lol #because I’m isolating even tho I know it’ll only cause more problems

[rattinahatt]

Sonic underground is pretty cool. I like Manic

#im back drawing sonic art again after a month woo #lineless art #lineless art is reall fun ngl #sonic underground #manic the hedgehog #sonic the hedgehog #manic sonic underground