#im also very sleepy i dont actually know if i can stay awake until midnight

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very very scared

#turning 20 in less than 2 hours #im also very sleepy i dont actually know if i can stay awake until midnight #mmm too sleepy to gather my thoughts properly #man i havent journaled in a WHILE. i dont think i made a proper journal entry since.... june? #yikes. #this past year was. something. for sure. #very eventful. i dont even remember all of it. for better or for worse. #it was a very stressful and busy year. proud of myself for keeping it together for as long as i have #idk im not good at words. thats why i make playlists every year. #in fact this year was so. blahhhh. that i have two playlists . #anyway ive made an age playlist every year since i was seventeen. just became a very nice tradition. #i think i no longer miss who i was at age seventeen. #i think im ready to let that child go #and. become a young adult officially. or smth. #god i need a vegetable. im gonna go make me a salad. and then go shower or smth. i feel so icky. #chris out thank you for reading ✌️ #chris noises #misc