#im also thinking about top surgery more bc ive been like. on the fence and still am bc 1. medical debt sucks

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ive got a check in w my gender specialist in a month and i was kinda unsure about my Goals™️ at the first appt, just like. here's what i don't want to look like anymore, and i want to look more gender-neutral, but all of my People I Wanna Look Like seemed so unattainable as goals (they were!)

but i am realizing now, all along, my goals should have been to look like a slightly-less-masculine version of jack black as dewey in school of rock

#messages from the ouija board #i was thinking actually about my hair and realized it wouldnt be that hard w a little product to get that look w it #and then everything clicked #im also thinking about top surgery more bc ive been like. on the fence and still am bc 1. medical debt sucks #but also 2. i feel like a completely flat chest would look very weird on me like. cis men my size arent usually totally flat chested #& i want the ability to go back and forth wrt presentation #but a coworker who is also nb just got back from top surgery medical leave and got really specific w their surgeon about exactly that #and it looks great so im like. ok there are options.