#im afraid to post it anywhere because people are assholes and i don't have the spoons for dealing with them

[the-yearning-astronaut]

If there's one universal thing we all experience being queer, it's a pervasive feeling that we don't fit, whether that's in society at large or our own communities. People who decide you don't belong because you're different are doing queerness wrong.

We see you. We recognise you as one of us. You don't need to fit into a specifically shaped box to be here. If we believed you needed to change to belong we'd be no different than all the people who labelled us queer in the first place.

You've got this.

Hey anon. Just wanted to thank you for this message. I didn't post it before because I wasn't sure what to say (too many emotions lol) and because I wanted to be able to easily reference it again.

And I'm glad I waited because even though I'm still full of emotions and don't really know what to say or how to say it, I needed the reminder today that it's ok to be queer and express and explore my queerness in whatever way I wish and that there are plenty of people out there who would support me through it.

And that the people who gatekeep identities and determine who is allowed write or draw what and how they're allowed to do it... are in the wrong. I wish I could say I'm capable of just ignoring them and moving on, but I'm not. It hurts. It hurts to express myself and explore my understanding of my own identity through the filter of media and characters and have fellow queer fans say I'm wrong and what I'm doing is wrong and that my interpretation of this character is wrong wrong wrong.

And I hope one day these kinds of people come to realize their words and actions have caused harm to members of the community they profess to support. And that they're able to admit they were in the wrong and grow from those mistakes.

Anyway. I sorta did find some words I guess. 💛

#reminders #queer #queerness #fandom gatekeeping #identity gatekeeping #queer gatekeeping #emotions are once again heightened because I've been having some fun with a new bit of fanart #and aside from a few friends idk who else will ever see it #im afraid to post it anywhere because people are assholes and i don't have the spoons for dealing with them #fox answers #☉ #aromantic #asexual #demisexual #demiromantic #being either of these is hard and confusing enough

[scentedchildnacho]

The security warned me social security raises came in.....so I told him no I don't take or tolerate any government its post metropolis and it was actually the irish that jobbed a lot of secret chicago culture......

Because now people can be aware most of it is extensive migration and there are other forces to ask for integration the government was not good to people and social security is just for old reefer serial killers they called an experimental astronaut....no one wants public stripping but playmates....old ulgy mean unmarried disgusting old dudes are the only people who social tourism

They will start driving around and in from all over....it was a felon and it goes and reefer playmates at the gross stagnation that hangs it's repulsive big fed but untreated disease skinner tits over the food or asses at people ...their disgusting 20 something's their very old girls with untreated disease and it touched my things when everything is robotics capable

Protests I would be apart of is that government wasn't significantly reduced.....as regulations not statutes was finally posted and government was only mental health slaughter and they are trying to figure what actually to governance...

I told the lady at Lutheran meal......that I am doing badly it's very chink gooky all the time here...no good to sense anywhere nothing but pure war torture with tools all the time

I have brain damage....drones over head that feel like the sound wave aid is battering and hammering really pound british pounding on my head till i feel like brain damage ..I'm not really afraid of anything and my short term memory is very bad these creepy disgusting gang swat teams come by the library because young men never go away if a bitch is around if things are ever bitchy or sex positive young men are always around clinging and disobeying general

The young men don't go away to work anymore they use to have fish research or rural abstraction renewal and they never go away anymore

There is extensive wilderness like deep south in arkansas and they all stalk around here continuing to concentrate all abuse on things already abused beyond concentration

Its so deafeningly beyond concentration it's just how many people were killed and I prefer anything loud with a tool shocked and ran by hellicopters in it's film scene till very averse to ever stalking around loudly

Young men started stalking us by the library when the things already have schools suburbans and jobs and started coming around me ever at a library

Just outside of Camden Arkansas there is truly nothing out there but abandoned rural outposts to renew and reconstruct and the things won't go away to us ..they just keep rape ing and rape ing rape ing things already raped ..all nothing but jap gook mass murder

I was gang raped with swat dog men by the library yesterday because young men were ever allowed and if young men are allowed their jail tells them to believe in gender neutrality and I don't look like a man but it will all assume I'm a male to rape on site for tourism

I told her they stalked by me to start pooping and peeing the property or letting the dog bark or have threatened me on multiple occasions with cageing and dog murder

The only things I say to people is return threats of community shocks into required behaviour

If a dog growls i finally get to say to some creepy youth millionaire you want to finally get put down asshole for that you finally want your vaccine for the lobotomies

Or if they shock me by suddenly being on the sidewalk where I am it's six feet of space you reeking creep grommett

And that's really the only time I want government is if these creeping shocking amounts of young militias won't go away I only want to call their general and put them in femas

I told her I only want to know how many people have been killed and if it's going to be a genocide and if I should expect to die

Im sorry but I'm a selfish person I'm some middle aged lady with brain damage I don't deserve anything more then a quiet run down old folks home of an inner city it's the youth life that has no business stalking around rapeing battering and killing everyone of it's school stalkers

Their young people get away from me into the wilderness if your going to strike going to school if your earth hookies you have to go out and homestead...get away from me

I was like well if their going to be that loud disgusting and stupid of a frietal group then deep south you told us all the christian commitment to cultivation and economics wasn't enough for you so if your a neo nazi that can't respect what semites can give you have a wilderness to go to if you desire another dinosaur age with how pollutive repulsive you are.....

I mostly want to know if I'm going to die or not.....I watched Edward said and metropolis parades so they told me in comparison these are ugly annoying small and young men that act old and terroristic compared to how large and magnificent Jewish armies can be.....but nothing ever intervenes a mostly disgusting ugly incapable rape force easily kills us off or severely debilitates us and nothing ever stops the noise the horrible repulsive painful rape noise...so I want to know if they are never going to intervene and we all just die

No I'm not talking about my issues with my ex boyfriends and I've been firmly told that's issues if you politicize it they will stop hurting me all the time with coed enforcement and gender neutrality because their not like my ex boyfriends my exes were very your a girl with coodies you have to go away from me zoo regularly....these are very unphobic of things it called a bitch finally taking a kitchen knife and letting it bleed to death on the floor

[sore-child]

I always wonder if the people closest to me think about me the way I think about them.

Today has been a fuck for brain. Went basically all day head empty but feeling generally bad and now that I'm in bed allllll the bad thoughts are here. Lately I feel so not thought of by anyone. Not in a "they hate me" way but more of a "I have something better to do/someone better to talk to" way. And I hope I'm wrong and that it's just my brain doing stupid shit again. But fuck I hate this shit. I have an appointment with a new psych on Monday, I should maybe get my list of actual symptoms and not feelings. I want to feel better so badly.... And now all of a sudden I got that sudden hit of hyper awareness. Like I feel weird that I'm laying here typing this out ?? Like I feel like I shouldn't?? I can't tell if I'm overreacting? I'm not sure what I feel but I know it's bad. Maybe it has to do with all the shit I've been seeing of people cheating, both just random internet posts and I watched a fuck ton of Maury last night. Well I guess it's two nights ago now. And then the Julian and Terra thing. Like I want Julian to be happy but I get major bad vibes off what they told me about Terra. Gives me major Brian vibes. Plus I've still been feeling ugly and undesirable as a whole. That's a feeling that never goes away but it's amplified right now. Maybe it's the heat?? Also it was just a full moon in Sagittarius so maybe that has something to do with how I'm feeling? I don't know I'm just so confused and I feel like shit. I want to go somewhere fun to get my mind off it. I wish I could drive so I could just go to Walmart or the mall or somewhere I've never even been before. I really want these stores across the street to open soon because I really want a job. Im so tired of sitting at home doing nothing. I could work at one of those gas stations but those ones make me feel so closed in. I'm afraid I'm gonna have a whole meltdown because of it. Plus I'm so fucking huge I feel like I will constantly knock stuff over and break stuff. If I found like a bus that puts me directly by somewhere I would work that would be cool. But I can't even think of anywhere. Target would be cool but they never fucking hire anyone with no experience. I remember applying there a few years ago and literally the next day they said no. Ulta or Sally's would be cool but I think you need a cosmetology license to work at either of them. I wish Daystar could have been able to hire me quickly. I wish the mission would take people with no experience plus the one boss guy that was there in 2018 was such an asshole to the girl working there. And starship earth would be perfect for me but she never hires anyone except sometimes around holidays...god I'm fucking ranting but also another reason I might feel like garbage is because of the stress over Tori. My mom pisses me off so fucking much and I'm dreading going to this fucking work dinner thing with her on Tuesday. But if I don't go she will know I'm avoiding her and I don't want to add on to all the shit just over a dinner. I would rather it be over something worth it.

It's posts like this that make me wonder if I have BPD ?? I really really really don't want it. I'm not an angry person but basically everything else about it seems to add up. I don't wanna be a manic pixie dream girl. I just want to be normal 😭 God my brain keeps switching up and now I specifically have the part in without love by Alice Glass where she says "am I worth it or am I worthless? Will I ever figure it out?". I go for months not remembering that song and then it pops into my mind when I'm feeling like shit about myself and I don't even have to hear it. I don't even remember the last time I heard it. I'm so tiiiiiired. I have to make myself sleep, I hate staying up past when the sun comes up.