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lmanberg · 3 years

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i've been trying to write this post for like 20 mins but then i feel disgusted w/ myself and i delete everything ;-; aaa here's goes nothing ig

I used to be in poppytwt. and just typing that i already feel like shit. not only bc of how wrong it is, but also bc i've been lurking here for months whilst being there which makes me feel awful bc ik ebblr is against poppytwt.

I found out about poppytwt from a blocklist (istg those things are just follow lists for problematic communities) and at the time that was the only community i knew shipped t x r and that was why i got into it,, over time i made a quite a few moots (which took quite a bit bc it's very hard to get people to follow you when ur a lurker and have no "proof") and i actually got pretty close with some of them.

The people in that community are doing disgusting things. that's just an objective fact. but also some of them are really really sweet people and they were pretty much the only people i talk(ed) to,, plus when u get to know the people you sort of humanise their actions, they tell you about the trauma they went through and how they use this to cope and you sort of see their reasoning and therefore forgive it,, which you shouldn't, but it's easy to fall into.

I've wanted to leave poppytwt since i started lurking in ebblr (so for like 2 months now,, for context i was in poppytwt for like 5ish months),, but i was rlly attached to those moots so i simply deactivated my acc, which i would eventually reactivate. the logical solution would be to just unfollow+block the accs I was following,, but i didn't want to bc "what if i regret it,, getting these people to let me follow them took actual months" and "but i wanna talk to my moots,, i understand they're doing smth wrong but i still rlly like them as people".

idk why but today i was rereading posts from the // poppytwt tag and i decided "alright,, enough of this shit." and i finally left the community. property this time.

and now,,, i don't know how to feel?? i kind of regret it bc some people i knew from there i was pretty close with and i left with no warning,, but also rlly glad bc i've been meaning to leave for so long,, but also?? idk dude. i'm conflicted rn,, i know it was for the best but i can't help but feel bad about it :((

i'm still a minor and i know you guys accept ex poppytwt people if they're still minors, but also i lurked here for like 2 months whilst still being there so i feel rlly rlly bad for being here?? i wanted to apologise and thank you.

Sorry i was here while still lurking there, and sorry it took me so long to leave and sorry if me being here rn if that makes you uncomfortable,, and thank you. thank you for getting me out of there, i feel bad about leaving now but ik it was the right thing to do so thank you.

tldr: ex poppytwt member here,, an apology for being disgusting and a thank you to jason [+ this community in general] for getting me out of there

Anon I am so proud of you for getting out of that situation. Don’t feel bad for how long it took you, be happy that you got out in the first place. This is a massive step for you and your mental health and while you may not notice it rn, in a month or so you’ll look back and you’ll realize how much... cleaner, you feel. You’re always welcome here anon and I’m so happy you got out of there <3

#ask #important #// poppy

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