#idrc much either

[arcsin27]

Me: why do some people make being gay their whole personality ugh 🙄 I would never 😤

Also me:

#honestly I’ve never seen someone make being gay their whole personality #idrc much either #I’m more just calling 2016 me out with that one lol #gay #lgbt #also peep the subtle #self promo #my youtube channel #persona 3 #p3 #persona 3 reload #p3r

[icedlava1]

#I played MKX and i love the mk kids so much #mortal kombat x #mkx #mortal kombat #mortal kombat fanart #takeda takahashi #takeda #kung jin #mkx cassie cage #cassie cage #jinkeda #jin x takeda #you can see this as ship art or not. idrc. I think it’s funny either way lol #jay art #my art

[miciiq]

Got Aventurine in 60 pulls!

He’s so auxhuehuche I’m so happy I have him now

#This is actually from 10 days ago but i forgot to post it so #I started on the 20th and i just got to equilibrium 3 #Im at the part where we should leave luofu but we visit a few friends we made along the way or smth #Im so happy hes my first limited 5 star i love him #Hes my second oshi after dan heng or maybe even my first #I want to change the voicing to english for aventurine but i cant bring myself to abandon ito kento as dan heng #Maybe i can just change it to en for most of penacony and change it back when jing yuan and dan heng somehow appear #Ugh im still regretting missing out on jing yuan voiced by cyyu #But Ito kento #But i also like english dan heng too omg #Oh i also want to hear eng dr ratio bc he acts slightly differently towards aventurine compared to like jp #Like he sounded much more uh passionate in the aventurine keeping up with star rail video and i was living for it #hsr #hsr aventurine #honkai star rail #Aventurine #aventurine hsr #star rail aventurine #Hm idk im not sure if i should skip all 4 characters in 2.2 and after that (firefly and jade etc) #I have almost 100 tickets saved rn but like im not rly sure ab pulling for any of them #Idk im not really attached to any of the characters rn #Maybe i should wait for ruan mei? I don’t particularly love her tho shes inhumane but pretty idrc #Firefly and robin are apparently rly good but i feel like im baiting myself everytime i read another reddit thread and watch another video #Like idk the only 5 stars i have are yanqing dr ratio and aventurine all e0s0 and i dont feel like pulling for topaz either (boothill idk) #im really tempted to pull for jingliu but im probably going to pull for dhil maybe next year when he reruns just bc i like him so again idk

[frostluvrs]

i genuinely think the idea that kang changed too fast is about to be shot down by him act just like his old self but in a completely different way when he finds out sailom is escorting again 🥴🥴

#the way he was acting in the trailer in that scene ? that was literally how he was acting in his bullying scenes 🥴🥴 #throwing money at sailom like that he’d never do that rn #even if it doesn’t happen either way idrc that he’s had a change of heart bc i think it makes sense in general for him to change like this #that man was putting on a show when he was being the school bully wanting attention and to feel superior and good about himself #he’s getting that attention and feeling of wanting to feel good about himself in a different way from sailom rn #but i also do understand the criticism ig i just don’t care that much #dangerous romance

[taikanyohou]

anyway i love being asian and i love saying that out loud with my whole chest out. there's so much tradition and history in our culture and when you're in the west sometimes you fail to understand or you miss the sentiment, the reasoning, the point, of certain practices within the culture. either that, or you feel ashamed of them. until you start seeing, for example, white people doing and taking up practices belonging to the asian culture and you, as an asian, are like .... uh ............ what the fuck am /i/ doing being ashamed about it then .......

like. for example, oiling your hair. when i was a kid, my ammi would oil my hair every single time a day before i was going to wash my hair. that act, yes, held so much meaning for the both of us. it was something my naani did to her, so she did it with me. generational. it was our bonding time. it was her teaching me how we look after our hair. and then ... as i grew up, i didn't get my hair oiled by my ammi anymore. when she asked me why, i had said to her back then that i looked greasy and it was so embarrassing because i'd smell of oil when i would go to school and. yeah. she stopped doing it. and my hair got damaged. and its been years and today, i saw my ammi oiling her hair, and she just called me over, and i sat on the floor and she oiled my hair. and it just felt. like a lot. and i felt ... heavy.

and then i realised that despite being in my late twenties, there's still so much left in me to unpack and unlearn and relearn wrt me being asian. i thought i'd gone past that phase. but i haven't. and thats okay!

which is why its so important for me to have ... this space ... i guess ... where i can validate myself. where i can watch things that are asian, made by asians, doing asian things and following the culture so that i too feel comfortable in my own skin. in the people who look like me. in the food i eat. in the clothes i wear. in the languages i speak. in the art and media i enjoy. in all the big and little things i do.

but anyway. i love being asian. i wish i could talk about it more and how much it means to me when i make a deep dive and indulge within my culture and how rooted that makes me feel. i often feel like i've neglected so much of what it means to be asian, but its still not too late. and there's a deep comfort in that.

#faiza talks #sorry yall i had a bit of an out of body moment just now when i felt my ammi's fingers massaging my scalp when she was oiling my hair #and i was trying so hard not to burst out crying in front of her but its been years. not just 2 or 3. but like #over 15 years since the last time we had this moment together and uh yeah. it was a lot lmaoooo. #so yeah thats why this whole entire blog is so focused on asian things. ive wasted too much of my life ig on non-asian things but like. #now i just dont care. i wanna dive into the stories asians tell and the art that asians makes coming out of asia. theres so much to unearth #and ughhh yeah i love indulging in it. idc whether anyone finds it cringe or whatever man like. im past that. #idrc much for the popularity of it either bc theres GEMS hidden away back home that i wanna discover and bring onto this blog. #and then when u get religion + sexuality + culture together (like boyyofgod for example) like. !!!. idk it just means a lot to me. #that my culture can talk about these things and show these things from as ASIAN perspective. #how religion and sexuality (even mental health) is seen in asia isnt the same as it is in the west. so let asians make art about it all!!!!

[pakrat1237]

nats unofficially official baseball team ranking

#all yellow categories are pretty much saying idrc what happens to this team but theyre split into whether i have a lean either way #b is i like the team kinda but still a little whatever #a is i like this team and or have some type of emotional connection to them #s is just. mariners should win they deserve it #and a's are split between best and worse of course . of you know you know #stfu myself

[gonbeeyamada]

i hate keiji. I hate him so Much. Hes so Weird Hes so Ew. I Hate his hair, I hope he dies. I like qtaro more than him. I like Shin more than him. I like ranmaru more than him. I like EVERYONE except midori & hinako more than him. Even Meister.

(I did feel kinda bad for him in chapter 3 but i still hated him)

this ask is so passionate and i think its really funny cause tbh i literally could care less about keiji. we've all had a mental break down and didn't know how to bleach our hair so it came out corn yellow and we all thought it looked good for us. he is not that special.

#i actually really like midori??????????? sorry bad opinion moment i just think he's funny. i do NOT take him seriously as a villain lmao #until i do. but thats when i think too much abt shin 👁️👁️ #dont care for hinako either she did nothing for me #AND MEISTER TOO WLRJKWAERRWOUI #you will soon realize that if its not alice or like 3 or 4 other characters idrc LOOOOL

[titanofthedepths]

Yknow as someone who was raised in a cult theres like this… weird uncertainty on how I feel about cults in media?? Like on one hand I don’t hate it, portrayals of cults aren’t like… a trigger or anything, and I’m not trying to say there shouldn’t be portrayals of cults in media, but there’s certainly a base level of discomfort there at all times at least for me personally

#cult mention #idk if this makes much sense but idrc either im just thinking #theres like. a huge disconnect between cults in media and the actual lived experience of ppl who have survived them #so its weird to see

[planetdream]

hi ! pls send fic recs to @dreamrecs (thru ask or dms) idc if the fic is something u wrote or ur fave fic by an author i just rlly wanna read and get excited over other ppls writing thank u

#🦋 — dream.txt #doesn’t have2 jus b for skz — send other group fic recs 2 pls !!!1! #drank 2 much 2nite which means tmrw is 4 getting high and reading probably #idrc what type of fics either #rec some good smaus 2 pls

[socksonvideo]

haiiii i have a. sso only sideblog now (@mossrootgrove) and ya!!!! i will. probs post on there soon. thats all :33

#important #pip rambles #finally did it only bc i like... idk i post ab sso so much #i wanted this to be an everything blog #anyway u can like. unfollow my main now idrc either way

[boygirlctommy]

i want to animate but idk what right now :( smoge and sadness

#my post #i dont really have any ideas rn #<- has 70000 wips #ok but those are either vague concepts or i just dont care about them as much #like oh yeah ive got the GL TME one. but idrc about it #OHHH OHAHNTOM OF THE OPERA JUST STARTED PLAYING YIPPEEE #ok i found a stupid audio im gonna do #i stole it from my cousin hehe

[blessedshortcake]

My dissociation tip of the day is ice cream. Idk why it works but it does so??? 👍

#ive been having an ass time with dissociation lately and every time i lose it a little too much i just #whip out my thub of chocolate ice cream and grab a spoon and snack on it until im okay #which is like 15 minutes usually tbh #idk the science behind it but idrc either #if it works dont touch it ig lmao-

[llycaons]

I'm rewatching yj with my sister because it's exactly the kind of thing shes obsessed with and on this run I like jackie less and I feel for misty more

#jackie is overwhelmed and unable to adapt which is fine but shes also mean #misty does really horrible things as a 17 year old but shes clearly fucked up from a lifetime of bullying #as an adult shes awful but she's also completely alone #im not trying to justify her elder abuse and I think killing jessica was way over the line #bc wasnt jessica hired by taissa in the first place? #but I mean I feel more for her. #even tho shes done some of the worst things of any of the girls #anyway i just dont care abt shauna and jackie that much #maybe they were subconsciously into eachbother maybe not #I read an argument for jackie being a lesbian and I went huh #and then I watched the show and she had THE straightest vibes of anyone #idrc either way. taissa and van are much more interesting #yj lb

[a-sad-moth]

Gonna take some cbeeduo drawing requests/prompts rn since I'm bored lol

#either put it in a rb or ask (ask preferred but idrc much) #moth-rambling #:-)

[pussytendr]

is it just me or is it fascinating how u'll start talkin w/ someone like talk talkity talk all day every day they won't leave u alone & then 3 weeks later it's just like no words have been said in 2 weeks what happens with that it's always so interesting 2 me how do u just nooot care soo fast

#not even just in relation to love interests either idk like my friend & i started chatting more bc i was gonna be in town again #& we talked sooooo so so much !! not even just abt the visit but other stuff cos we hadn't in sooo long #and then i came & went & i think they only talked to me once genuinely afterwards #& then during that same visit i was talking every day with a new guy & now we haven't said anything in 2 weeks LOL #idrc abt that dude cause he sucked mighty ass but still weird 2 me why do ppl do that is it bc i don't reach out #but even when i do it doesn't gooo anywhere like the convos draaag... #whatever idc

[caruliaa]

actually yea iv already claimed youre on your own kid idc. iv packed bonded to it so intensely im shaking violently. its my song now. and i havent even heard it.

#its giving the outside its giving my tears ricochet its giving tolerate it its giving never grow up #its giving giving careless mans careful daughter. #yk what. now that iv thoroughly embarrassed myself by relating a song i havent even heard yet to my parental trauma #the relating dear john and atw10 to is prob nbd now huh...... #like just im getting such vibes of. this awful traumatic low point in your life were you feel entirely alone #or feeling specifcally abandoned/hurt by a parental figure #(idrc abt her personal life that much but i will say tht those assumtions are somewhat based on it #bc of obvs 2016 and apparently she saw her old record label as a father figure so. those arent basless guesses #but i dont wabt to say those song are about that in the context of like. how i think i might personally relate to it yk) #anyway way to atached to this song already. lol <3 #also cld be on the feeling of growing up and starting to feel like youre alone as you become and adult #bc i feel like *kid* in title cld relate to either that or being betrayed by a parental figure like i said earlier #tbh we dont know but i already know im not normal abt it el oh el #flappy rambles