#idk those 4 are just in this specific category that i cant even describe

[bearsgrove]

thinking about the last episode of the breaking bad on this fine sunday morning

#river.txt #god that was #such a phenomenal show #i've watched (and played. games count too) a handful of things in my life right and i loved many of them #but few make me feel like this when i'm done with them? #that i just sit here for weeks or months like. damn. that was. something else. #i think so far on that list we only have hannibal da2 tlou2 and breaking bad (and i hope im not forgetting smthin lol) #idk those 4 are just in this specific category that i cant even describe #like. watching this story unfold and then u arrive at the end and it ends and u are just. empty? #no thoughts head empty need to sleep it off for the next 4 days #idk in a small way they maybe make u feel like. they took something from u when they ended #maybe because there is no real.. happy ending? or the ending is somewhat anticlimactic? #but in a good way #like. shitty things happen throughout the entire story and they just keep getting worse #and of course u have no illusions about a happy ending. this is the kind of story that cannot end in a satisfying way #it just. ends. #i dont know #like. idk. there are many other stories i loved of course #and dishonored feels like it could fit here but. despite it being so grim the entire time u find emily in the end #like there IS light at the end #i loved the merlin show too and despite it being extremely sad in the last few episodes it just #doesnt have that same feeling because the rest of the show is light-hearted up until then #and then even in the end despite how sad it is i dont feel empty after finishing it because its good and right how it ended #and love is there and its not all grim and bad #maybe poe could slightly fit into the hannibal+etc category because in your own personal quest and your companions' quests #in the end they are all more or less for nothing because u dont get the ending u wanted u dont get what u sought #but despite that u get a sense of peace when the game is finished #maybe poe2 has more of that vibe because while its not super grim and dark u spent the entire game chasing something #only for things to happen anyway because u have no say in it no control over it and u cant do anything #i guess thats the thing about the category im trying to describe