#idk maybe i’ll have a couple cats and cool trinkets and awesome lamps and vintage clocks.

[dancing-with-stars]

my mom is literally yelling at me bc i “study too much” and she says that’s selfish and i shud be doing other things and spending time w my family. like. as if everytime i spend time w my family i don’t just end up hating myself more.

#to delete #like girl maybe the reason i don’t want to spend time w u is because u yell at me everytime i do #all we ever ever ever talk about is how stressed she is how everything’s so hard for her how she hates her life and i make things worse by #being a terrible child #like god im fucking trying #i’m so so so so so sorry u feel the way u do i wish the world was kinder to you #and i will always be there for my mother if she needs someone to talk to or someone to listen no matter how much it hurts me #like idk maybe she is right and i’m an awful kid #i’m sad a lot and i get angry because no one ever listens to me or treats me like a person with a heart and feelings. #but i’m so tired of being yelled at all the time #i just want to go to a place i can call home and feel safe #idk maybe i’ll have a couple cats and cool trinkets and awesome lamps and vintage clocks. #no gray walls #no fighting #no more flinching #only peace and colors and love and warmth