#idk man i just fucking love Nahyuta KRJF

[spiritofjustice]

i know Nahyuta's whole thing is he's extremely calm and well-put together but i want this dude to be constantly under the threat of disintegrating. he definitely is calm and put together SURE and that is a core element of him no matter what (and i like that about him!) but i also like the idea of, once he no longer has to be that perfect person to survive, that the reality of everything, all his anxieties n guilt n discomfort with himself comes crashing in when it's finally safe for him to feel this way. a miserable kind of catharsis, but a catharsis nonetheless. a necessary one for him to unravel the real version of himself he had to keep deep inside. do you understand my vision

#psy's no punctuation posts #aa tag #nahyuta sahdmadhi #which i know also that him being so reserved and chill about. Fucking Everything IS arguably a defense mechanism for him like #canonically #but idk they really don't let him have strong emotions Ever in the story. he never gets that catharsis and it kinda sucks #i wouldn't call him unstable in the slightest just. slowly unpacking the world's best hidden set of negative emotions RKFJ #and it's very hard but he'll get there eventually. the revolution was a good start for him to 'redeem' himself inside but that's not so eas #there's still a lot for him to unlearn from the previous regime n how Garan treated him and how he treated /himself/ #idk man i just fucking love Nahyuta KRJF #let him GRIEVE let him be MESSY let himself be those things and not a perfect little pet for a despot #i just. waaaa. this dude