#idk it feels strange to mourn him cuz that means he's really gone

[benetnvsch]

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#vent in tags #cw: death #I am thinking about him again man #he passed so loved and he was ready and thats what matter but g-d dammit how much I want to be selfish #listened to a song that happened to be about death and reference the place we grew up together and just :'0 #ah yes this is Fine #this and the birthday relvation earlier #idk why it's hitting me so hard #I remember acknowledging huh the age difference between us matches theirs thats v interesting #huh he passed at the same age too ok thats just an interesting coincidence #but the birthday being the same is unreal #it's hard to believe its real and that it has been so long #I don't think ive processed this all right yet #despite that #idk it feels strange to mourn him cuz that means he's really gone #and so I just live vicariously through fictional parallel's ig ?? #like a baby fucking loser #belghhh #sorry for being so down lately ill post nicer things later-