#idk i guess we're just going to move the clock hands forward a couple more notches!!! tick tock times running out apparently!!!

[piplupod]

why the hell did my molar have to go and get chipped somehow randomly (i dont know when it happened or how it happened, i just noticed it was very sharp one day earlier this year) right after i was no longer eligible for my dad's insurance that covers dental.... i am going to have to probably pay at least $200+ to get this checked and taken care of,,,, head in my hands. i swear someone up there wants me to off myself I swear to fucking god

#like man can u leave me be. I'll get around to offing myself eventually but im trying to get a few things done first!! #u are draining my savings that i need to pay my mother rent !!! i need that money!! what the hell !! #idk i guess we're just going to move the clock hands forward a couple more notches!!! tick tock times running out apparently!!! #this makes me so fucking frustrated bc this is the ONE thing i get to choose and have control over and you are rushing me into it !!! fuck! #im just. head in hands. banging head against a wall. my jaw aches around the molar today #it just started aching randomly a few hours ago and i feel like now its developing into smth Bad and Expensive #I feel sick thinking abt this. i want to do things !! please can u let me have this last hurrah properly!!! #this is not fair !! nothing is fair i know but christ. i thought i could have like... another year at least without any massive issues #i thought I'd have a year where i could just get shit done before i decide I'm done but nooo we have to rush me apparently #idk. maybe if i ignore it it'll stop aching. maybe the cold outside was bad for it or smth. maybe it's smth I can keep ignoring #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #suicide tw