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vent-or-stab · 6 years

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guess thats a rant so

I’m awake for like 10 minutes and I already have 0% interest in staying awake yay

Got waked up by my cat jumping from the closet on me, completely clawed up my fucking hand yeah isn’t that great everything burns and hurts it’s a great way to wake up when you’re already depressed isn’t it

and of course I have to stay awake because my cat is stealing my new merch stuff because GOD FORBID i have anything standing where anyone could actually see it

I have literally 0 of the things I like standing around because either my cats destroy it My mum hates it or there’s just no fucking room in this god forsaken ““““flat”“““

I hate literally everything so fucking much right now. Sad thought? makes me sadder. happy thought? unreachable thing I hate it even more

music???? too much emotion, brain is not okay with that much input while being way to mad at literally nothing

ugh I hate everything

wish I could go out and idk fucking MOVE or anything but yeah that’s 100%%% impossible because mom comes back and I’m out? she’s gonna freak tf out and kill me, call her and ask? yeah I’m mnot in the fucking mood for explaining 1 hour why I would like to go out and if I actually said I’m upset she’d just freak out and want to fucking talk WHICH I DONT WANT WITH THAT BITCH I just wanna fucking go but hey do I know what she’d do to my stuff if I’d just go? If I’d just run away she would 1000000% neglect the fucking cats great isn’t it or do something to herself as she AROUND the fucking flower tells me everynow and then great just fucking great I hate her andeverything else

I wouldn’t get far anyway if I EVEN where to run away because I hav literally, LITERALLY 0 money. not one cent because I lend everything I had to my mother months ago and will never see it again because I live with her and her promises mean nothing I’m not seeing any of that ever again probs and if maybe in like 3 months or so earlierst but wouldnt be the first she doesntgive back at all and certainly not the first promise she’d break.

is there any problem I have which root isn’t my mum? NOPE

ugh what even is this about

i hate everything

I wanna sleep but as soon as I lay down I start thinking about everyt little shit thing thats happening in my life

god I’m glad my mother isnt home because I cant fucking be in a rome with her and guess what!!! theres only one fucking ROOM HERE!! i hate this flat weve been living here for almost two years and theree is literally not one wall except for the smal flur and the bathroom thats it. Kitchen, living room, mums room my room? one half.kinda wall not one door to close

I NEED SOME FUCKING SPACE FROM THAT BITCH

but there’s no such thing for me nope

I just don’t want to do anything right now everyhitngis too emotional and upsetting. I have some loud fucking music which lyrics doesn’t make sense and it’s just upbeat but I’m gettin 0 vibes but yeah

typing here this shit fuck piece of cuntdirtand lsitening too loud to stupid music keeps me from thinking even worse or idk I’m not that rfucking mad anymore

its working??????

idk I’m just a meloramatic bitch and get upset over everything and make a blog to vent where I vent like I got it bad lol

i hate everyhing my self so fucing infuckcluded

at leastI dont have friends to inconvenience because I can’t maintain a realatiopnship its great

should I get professsional help? MOST FUCKING LIKELY but taht aint happenening without giving my mom a fucking heart attack because she WOULD know

Why do I always have to accommodate to her just becauseshe has somefucking depression and wont take any medicaments!! I’m heartless reat idgaf it’s not my fucking prblem and I shoudlnt have to deal with this

not any of my siblings either! we were kids but did anyone ever care about us`??? I dont fucking care waht my mum says she doesn’t carea botu any of us at all she just wants too keeps us as some kind of I dont fuking care

she has a fucking obsessive possessing issue that bitch

i hate her so much

I want to move out - but cant without money grweat isnt it! no woner why she took my money and always does when I have more than like 20€

fucking bitch

thats probs also why she got those two new cats tbh for nothing else but manipulate me into staying#

i hate her so much

but that’s nt the fucking cats fault so I can’t just leave those poor cats with her alone

who knows what she’d do (or more wouldnt do)

to conclude I hate everyhitng Im hungry and I didn’t even fucking piss yet can’tbelieve I have thi smad fucking mood before fucking breakfast as if I can just skip a meal with my fucking ufnerweight Im gonna eat like some unhealöthy but tasty shit now thansk good bye

#vent #rant #or whatever the fuck

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