#id sooner take 4 weeks of catastrophic liver failure and whatever horrendous pain that entails

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#getting very tired of waking up wanting to kill myself every day #like god this is rly all there is huh. the waiting and the passive sadness and the financial worries and the worthless use of time #starting to think i should just withdraw all my savings and do it now. save my family worrying about paying off debt later #im so tired of all of this. ive wanted to kill myself since i was 9 years old and i still do. i can't keep this up anymore #id sooner take 4 weeks of catastrophic liver failure and whatever horrendous pain that entails #than have the possibility that i might still be like this in 5 years. or even 1.