Ugh, I have one of two super hard, super important exams tomorrow and Im so damned stressed out about it. It's supposed to be like an hour long, 10 questions and 5 minutes for each type of exam, but my doc with notes is like 50 pages long and Im sitting here wondering how am I gonna compile a few pages of notes into an answer short enough to type up in 5 minutes? Not to mention, my wrists and fingers are gonna be screaming at me after the first couple of questions too, it's gonna be miserable.
The only saving grace is the fact it's an online exam, so Im pretty sure we'll be able to have our doc with compiled notes pulled up for some help. I'd be cooked without it. There's so much material and I should be revising the notes to make them more concise but my brain just won't work, the brain fog's being awful, so of course my anxiety is having a field day too. Ugh. I dunno, I guess I just hoped to throw out some of it by typing it down. Maybe it'll help...
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Bartylus
TW: mentions of child abuse, internal homophobia and transphobia, underage drinking and smoking
after posting my last thingy I've decided to rant abt bartylus on here so let's begin *rubs hands togethet mischievously*
Fyi regulus is trans in this he doesn't realize until later on so they're not in the same dorm.
I know some ppl hc that barty and regulus had a fling but romantically it was on one-sided (barty had a crush on regulus) I however don't i hc that they dated from third year till a little before Christmas break of fifth year, they had their first date on their first hogsmeade trip.
They were each others first love and even when they broke up they always had a strong bond with each other and whenever they had a problem they would go to each other first even after jegulus and rosekiller happened (I'll explain those at the end).
FIRST YEAR:
When the two of them first met in first year it was because Barty was late for potions on the first day and ended up sitting beside regulus, regulus at first ignored him and didn't bother answering any questions he was asking. Barty 'fell first' crouch was immediately fascinated by regulus, he remembered seeing him at the feast after the sorting and barty obviously knew who he was and who his family was from his dad but he didn't care.
After that first class of potions barty began sitting beside regulus at meals usually not talking because he learned the hard way that regulus prefers silence. He started bringing extra jackets and sweaters because regulus was always freezing (regulus refused to take them tho). He also carried hair ties and bobby pins for regulus because he was always pushing his hair out of the way. He would give regulus knew nicknames everyday based on his favourite color floweres, books, because he noticed that regulus would always get slightly upset when ppl would his deadname.
Before Christmas break they sat together on the train with Evan Rosier and Pandora lestrange who came in halfway thru the train ride cuz her brother were being pains, Regulus didn't really talk to anyone but he was absentmindedly playing with a Barty's sweater ans making snide comments here and there. Barty hugged regulus goodbye at the train station (regulus disnt hug back nor push him away-he didn't get the chance to do the latter since the barty had let go after a millisecond). Regulus just rolled his eyes and said bye Crouch and walked across the platform to his parents and sirius.
During the break barty practiced heqting charms for regulus and started knitting with his mum so he could make one for regulus as a late Christmas present, his mum asked him why but he just played it off as wanting to get a new hobby.
Regulus was counting down the days to go back to hogwarts and possibly thinking of Barty tho he'd deny it if anybody asks. Sirius was teasing him relentlessly abt his 'bf' after he saw them hugging. He didn't understand why the thought of being someone's-preferably barty's-gf was bugging him sm.
He was also thinking abt the conversation he heard between sirius and James when they were talking thru the mirror one night before he went into sirius' room. Sirius was annoyed and said 'she's my sister james, there r rules abt that between best friends yk'. But he quickly looked panicked when he saw regulus in the doorway and told james bye and shrugged off any questions abt it.
When they went back to school barty ran thru every compartment searching for regulus, when he actually got to the right one tho he paused at the doorway, with the sweater in hand, not rlly sure what to do now. Regulus stared at him for a bit waiting before sighing and rolling his eyes with a small barely even there smile ans telling barty he could hug him for 10secs. Barty smiled before crashing into him, regulus stiffened slightly but calmed down at the familiarity of barty and loosely wrapped his arms around barty.
Barty let go after exactly 10secs and rhey sat down since the train was gonna start moving soon. Regulus was abt to ask abt the sweater when Barty threw it onto regulus' lap and blurted a rushed 'merry Christmas Silver'. Regulus was silent for a while scaring barty who was just now realizing that it was a bit much.
After abt a full 2mins regulus turned to barty with slightly tearful eyes and said 'for me?' Barty didnt rlly pick up the question instead focusing on regulus tears and he started panicking, 'Is it rlly thqt ugly? Im sorry I've never knitted before i just wanted to give u something im so sorry'. He shut up when he felt two arms wrap around his neck and a quiet tearful thank u mumbled beside his ear.
When regulus let go he frantically wiped his face then smirked at barty, 'Silver?'. Barty blushed slightly and said, ' is it bad?'. Regulus chuckled slightly, 'no i like it'. The nickname stuck and became a permanent thing.
Throughout the school year they spent alot of time together esp in the library since regulus liked reading and barty loved to make fun of the funny looking ppl in the history books, they didn't really hang out with anyone other than evan and pandora, usually sitting with them at meals.
SECOND YEAR:
Barty starts to notice how tired regulus gets back from summer and regulus notices barty never mentioned his father and scowling at him whenever he's mentioned in the newspapers. They don't really talk abt it but they know the other understands and doesn't push rhem for answers. Barty also develops a stton hatred for james potter since he like everyone else notice that he very obviously has a crush on regulus. Barty makes little jokes abt being in a relationship with regulus but stopped saying wife and gf when he say the look of sadness in regulus' eyes.
They spend every second of their days together, and barty going to all of regulus games and always runs up ans hug him with after each one.
After Christmas break regulus came back with a scar on his wrist that only showed if u rlly looked and barty noticed and asked him abt it but regulus just brushed him off with a cold look and didn't talk for thw rest of the train ride to school. The next day tho regulus was back to normal and gave barty a smile during breakfast to reassure him.
Regulus started warming up to evan and pandora as well, already being kinda familiar with them from events with their parents. Regulus also was more open to physical touch from barty as he was thw clingest person alive. Barty was always touching him somehow whether it be his head on regulus shoulder on locking their ankles together or sometimes holding his hand.
Before the went back home for break barty held regulus on his chest for the entire train ride back home, telling him silly stories to distract him from the reality of the situation. Before getting off the train they hugged each other tightly ans Barty told regulus that if anything happened he should come to him for the break, his father wasn't the worst but he was rarely home and he could hide regulus from his mum.
Regulus gave him a slightly forced amile and promised he would although they both knew it was a lie. He gave barty a kiss on the cheek and went back home.
The summer sucked for them both, regulus' mother was banning him from wearing trousers completely after she found the stash of sirius' hand me downs in his drawer. Barty had been
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