thinking like a long repeating prayersong cantillation: tamartamartamartamar........she is so big-in-herself, so marked-with-herself, but more than that or perhaps actually the reason for that or because of that or both in am ourosbourous: so truthful-to-herself. preceding her Looking at the face of G-d as she rares up erezel plateau wantingwantingwanting, in the moment she begs G-d to let her see, and in every thought and word and act she makes even years afterwards — she is so truthful-to-herself, an infinitely singularity-intense honestysureness in what she knows even if the only single tiny needle-slender thing she knows is that she does want, because she Will Not lie to herself either by omission by denying the want she does know, nor by commission in making up untruthful ideas to fill those yawning embarrassing gaps of of why does she want and who she is who wants, that she doesn’t know.
and it is this infinitely full-in-herself, condensed-in-herself, truthfulness to herself that makes her like unto G-D.
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