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lesbrarians · 6 years

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so i drunkenly and kind of accidentally came out to my cousin tonight/?? i went home for an early bday celebration w the fam. neither my grandparents or my grammy could make it, bc grandma and grandpa were taking a bunch of priests out to the country club which is literally the most quintessential grandpa and grandma thing to do, like religion and the country club?? my grandparents in a nutshell. i love them so much. and then my grammy couldn’t make it bc she won’t drive at night and my uncle eddie was out somewhere and wouldn’t be back until too late, which apparently my dad and uncle michel (i am spelling that right, it’s not being drunk, his name is pronounced like michael but spelled like michel for whatever reason) have been bitching about that all week bc they can never get a straight answer out of him, like either you have plans or you don’t, just give us an answer.

anyways so it was just my aunt maggie and uncle bob and kathleen and chris, their other son jimmy and his wife (that is so weird to say??) chelsea couldn’t make it, and my aunt patti who was coincidentally in town, and my aunt jojo and uncle jim and bryan. bryan shaved off his like. neckbeard is the only word to describe it tbh. and when they walked in, i was just hit w this like wave of “alex” bc he and his brother look so much alike. looked so much alike. and it’s really sad getting a birthday card that’s just signed “love aunt joanne, uncle jim, and bryan” without alex’s name there too and i just really miss him.

ANYWAYS anyways i digress. so i was talking to my little cousin kathleen, who i kinda suspect might be some kind of lgbtq? i had been showing my aunt patti pix of my apartment, and then was like “oh kathleen you’d like this” and showed her my fandom picture wall, then my fandom shelf, bc she’s the only other real actual fandom person in the family. she loved it. and i pointed out my funkos of the ninth and twelfth doctors and apparently she likes doctor who, the eleventh doctor is Her Doctor which is so lovely to know, and i asked her if she’d watched the new season yet and she hadn’t, but i was telling her about how much i love thirteen. and she asked who the new companion was, and then i was saying about how awesome it is that we get two pocs out of three companions and she was like “yeah it’s very white” “omg yeah it’s so white and so straight, which is why i loved bill so much bc she was a black lesbian which was so awesome to see” “omg yeah like it’s been 50 years” “IKR” and then i happened to look at my phone and was like “oh so this is my girlfriend in mass effect. i used to have another asari on my old phone but now it’s this one because of mass effect andromeda.” and i forget what she said but it was basically like oh nice! she doesn’t do mass effect

anyways now she knows i’m gay if she hadn’t already guessed by you know the whole hair thing and shit haha and i guess whoever happened to overhear that, like potentially my cousin chris who was sitting right next to me when i said that, knows now too which is fine. it’s fine, whatever.

anyways i just took the nyquil my mom gave me bc my cough is still awful and i’m like 90% sure i ruptured my eardrum which isn’t very relevant except i’m nervous sleeping on my pillowcases here bc i had to bring home all my pilowcases and sheets bc uhhhhhh they were stained bright yellow and orange from. my fucking ear. so you know that’s fun but it’s okay i guess my mom can wash these pillowcases if it happens again tonight. also i guess i’ll find out for sure tomorrow.

i love you tumblr all of my followers are beautiful and amazing and i hope you have a very good night and thank you for listening to me drunk ramble!!!!!!!!!

#omg this is so long i'm so sorry for drunk rambling you guys #thank you for putting up w me lmfaooooooo #long post #drunkblogging #personal post #delete later #maybe?????#i'll probably forget #it's cool it's kosher

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dressedupkiss · 3 years

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21 days

Until March! Then 20 days til spring! Then two weeks til my birthday!

Then it will be so warm out and beautiful and spring will smell so nice and the sun will be so comforting and energizing, the moonlight at night will be so emotional, the stars in the sky will invite me to love them and celebrate...

Summertime will be a time for lovers and I will spend lots of time with Joel and George and I will make new stoner buddies and have lots of friends!! I will meet new people and make true connections with my newfound confidence and comfort in myself.

I don’t care about Laura anymore, she is just not kind to me and I don’t deserve to love someone who doesn’t respect or appreciate me.

I’m feeling good and ready for the new warm weather, just another month and a half and the sun will start to melt the snow and everything will be so beautiful!!

Lately it has been insanely cold outside like -30 every day and I hope there is a warm day soon.

I’m gonna do laundry at dads tomorrow and get groceries with him sometime this week, that will save me lots of money for food this month. It’s the 8th today I thought it was later in the month for some reason.

Only 16 more days until I get paid again! And this time I will have $484 all to myself for the month I am so excited to be able to spend my money more. I’m gonna get so many cool shirts for summer. I’ve been really frugal the past year because I had to pay off my MasterCard but now I did pay it off so I’m Rollin in my extra dough!!

I don’t have free wifi anymore because my neighbour cut everyone off or it’s just needs to be fixed like he said seemingly lying. Oh well. Soon enough I’ll have wifi from a different neighbour or something ....

My weed is coming on Wednesday, tomorrow is Tuesday, it’s about nearing 7pm today. Joel’s bday is in less than 10 days, I gotta draw them a pic for it. They haven’t lived in a place for themselves in like 3 months, they kept all their $1500 to themselves each month and they’re still out of money. They’re the worst at saving especially when they need to be saving for a vehicle. I hope they get a car and a place soon. It would suck to be summertime and they’re still not in a place of their own.

Riff raff has community telepathy with me, three loco I would see each of them every once in a while on YouTube or on tv shows or movies and I enjoyed all 3 and then I see they’re getting all fucked up on my intense vibes. I had such intense emotions and mental activity man I was singing good songs and feeling so much passion. Very exhausting though. Thought of so many things. Saw space. I dunno why everything gotta be a rollercoaster of rainbow magic but at least I’m ok still. I wish I didn’t have to be forced medication though.

My guts are full of food and I look big, I’m definitely ready to go walking and burn off these extra pounds. Still gotta wait 2 months though.

Unless there is a warm day again before spring. Then I will go walking. I’m glad it didn’t snow too much this year, a lot in the beginning but not too bad the rest of the winter. Has been real cold but not more snow.

I need to connect to nature more. Good thing I have marijuana. I’ve been doing mudras with my fingers lately in the morning sun and it feels really good. I was thinking of how eastern medicine is like bells and smoke and stuff and I learned how to do that by their example. I feel very eastern medicine-y and eastern worldly, I need a red covering with beautiful intricate patterns and brass bells 🔔

🔔

Looks like a lamp

I’ve only been able to make friends with male meth heads in the last couple years

I don’t really get close to them but there is an aspect of friendship there

Nameless kid, Lionel, and Derek.

Two native guys one white guy

Lionel reminds me of my white friend Adam tho

And He is super fit and strong

Oh there’s one more guy,

Andy

He’s native too and strong and fit

So that’s 4 meth heads drug addicts dudes that are nice ish to me and chill with me randomly

I guess that’s who I resonate with because I accept everyone for a beautiful creature and maybe these guys needed some extra acceptance because it must be tough living as a guy sometimes when everyone expects you to work super hard and do everything for everyone

Drug addiction must keep them busy with something rewarding and it must be from pain

So I go out in the world and meet drug addcts and they’re fine and nice and interesting for the while we hang out

At least that’s an interesting pattern

It’s not like I keep making friends with lonely fat girls lol I’d prefer the adrenaline jazz of a muscular addict than a sopping tubby chick

Fat girls just always suffocate me with their loneliness and they have a thing for me beinnamed Jacey and having long brown hair like jebus kristo

At least the addict guy accepts me when I tell him I’m gay; most of them stopped trying to get with me after I explained I am like a dude

I hate City shit and I hate university students and I hate cops and I hate dry lives

I like dreaming soldier First Nations rainbow tribe 🌈 heroes 🌟

And all the dead people who truly love their life and life altogether

My dead bro zack and his dreams for me are super appreciated and awesome

I like artists and dreamers and drifters and bewilderers and magical folk who do real magic

Magic is real more than dry life

I bring magic to the world

I believe in magic

Thank you my life!!

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you-are-worth-the-wait · 3 years

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Hey there Love. It was a rollercoaster of a weekend. My brother got a dog. I can’t recall if I ever told you the saga of how he wanted it, technically not his place, but if he got it no one can say anything. Well, I went to my grandma’s birthday party/gathering Saturday night but could only stay for half an hour since I had to go to babysit the dog so my brother could go to a coworker’s party. I really had a tough time with that one. I scarfed down my food, couldn’t enjoy it, and pretty much felt like I was leaving before I even got there. Then there’s my brother. He chose going to a coworker’s birthday gathering than even making an appearance at our grandma’s bday gathering. I didn’t know what to tell people when they were asking where I was going when I said I had to leave soon, when people asked where was my brother, and if he would come by. Especially when my grandma asked me that. My heart felt so bad because I knew he wasn’t going to show up even though I was saying I needed to go watch his dog so he could go out and possibly swing by. So yeah. I had mixed feelings about that.

And then something very bad happened. The relatives I told you about that I would have taken you to San Diego to go see and eat all you can eat lobster. The guy is my dad’s second cousin. Man, I don’t know how to say this and I get goose pimples thinking about it. His wife’s sister was at their house using the propane tank, there was a leak, and it exploded. She’s in the hospital now and I don’t know if they got their details right or not but they give her a 70-30 chance of survival. I don’t know which is which as far as the good survive or bad not make it. They were here to hang out with my family and celebrate the birthday. I think half their house burned up and it was deemed unlivable. So they drove back earlier today instead of staying later and driving back later in the night (Sunday night). I don’t know how to feel about that. The thought scares and terrifies me of an exploding propane tank. No matter how fast your reflexes, you really can’t protect yourself from something like that. I’d like to think I could react fast enough to possibly block/deflect/protect my major organs or someone from harm but something like that, I can’t, for myself or someone else...and that terrifies me. I want to be able to give myself or someone at least a chance. That’s like almost a “no chance” situation 🥺😔 my parents plan on going out there next weekend to check up on them and the situation. Thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach. I really hope she is all right...

How was your day weekend? I don’t work Monday. You know I’m gonna joke and say we should get together for lunch and all. A half truth half joke sort of thing. I should go to sleep early so I wake up early and be productive during the day so I can fall asleep at a decent time for work on Tuesday but most likely I’ll stay up late, sleep in, and do whatevers tomorrow. That’s why I’d be free to do something with you :) you know I had to try...*ws* on the off chance you even consider it and say yes...*shrug* the food is bring. Maybe I’ll post the pics of food in a separate post.

My grandma’s get together happened on Saturday night along with my brother’s dog, him going to his coworker’s get together debacle. He came home late so I spent the night there. We had some things settled for our phone bill, I ended up staying there the day so I didn’t hear about what happened about the explosion/fire till I came home Sunday night. It’s so...I don’t know...messed up. Just yesterday too while getting ready for my grandma’s get together, they were using a propane tank at our house to cook jambalaya to take to get together and they were exclaiming how it smelled like there was a propane leak since there was an off smell. I don’t know. Too eerie and surreal.

How was your weekend? No poop time for me? *ws* It’s okay. I know not to expect anything from you during the weekends. I should consider myself fortunate and lucky that you even communicate at all with me. I get it. Anyways, I hope you are doing okay. A friend of mine was telling me he got the Moderna vaccine and his wife got the Pfizer vaccine. I was telling him how that was my new criteria when it comes to looking for a potential match so we could create a super kid so he is lucky that it worked out that was for them. See, something else to screen in a potential match other than credit score. Yeesh :P

Your like...the brink. I can’t help but venture a guess as to what I could interpret it as but it is pretty bad and dark and if I speak along the wrong lines, I feel like I’m going to hurt more than help you. I’d ask you to let me know where your mind is at when you read/like that post but I don’t know if you would admit or share that with me. So I’ll just say that I have a lose interpretation of the like and I’ll let you know how I see it only if you want to hear what I think. But I can see/understand what that like is saying. Or at least I know my interpretation.

Hey...Lily...*skotc*

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