#i’m just in awe and shock

[goingdownorup]

Actually I do have thoughts and oddly enough it’s about gem, who I haven’t watched too much this season.

If you want to do Lore: She gets pulled into another persons body for a single day, she kills people she knows from a different world a few times and goes back home where everyone acts fine.

She wakes up a few months later as one of the contestants.

So she adapts, makes friends and alliances. It’s almost fun! They all have team ups and okay, some people are better at survival than others, but she’s having a good time. she does the secrets just like everyone else. Sure, some of hers are more violent than others but that’s what she’s good at and she won’t apologize for that.

(She does, profusely, after the fact. People accept, but suddenly she doesn’t know if they’re being honest.)

And then they all turn red. And then they all get a secret that says something so simple, so out of reach for most of them.

And it’s not fun anymore.

She’s running from people, she’s feeling a craving for blood and more hearts that’s not natural. She’s watching the people she’s grown close to turn on each other for ten hearts and watching everyone else be okay with it because “that’s how the game works”

Scott tells her to kill him. Tell her that he can’t get it done. Impulse is gone, and Scott is so calm when he’s throwing her stuff that will hopefully kill her other two friends still alive. He sounds like he’s made peace with the fact, that he KNOWS Gem is going to kill him.

She does.

She doesn’t have time to process it, something she screams about as soon as the lightning fades. She doesn’t have time-but that isn’t the right game, she isn’t in THAT game- when Pearl and Scar are right there coming for her.

She’s shaken up, she’s alone. She’s readying her sword anyways.

Gem is a fighter, but as she yells at Pearl asking her why she’s trying to kill her, Gem realizes she doesn’t know why she’s fighting in the first place.

Her first game, and she dies to people she considered friends.

And THAT is her introduction to the life series.

#secret life smp #secret life spoilers #secret life #geminitay #scott smajor #I can’t have thoughts about the roomies or mounders but I do have thoughts about the others #I’m still in shock and awe so hopefully this makes sense #I love her and loved what I watched of her series #gem is great #I’m just going insane rn don’t mind me #eating drywall #the usual

[rebornrosess]

had a dream greg tried to drown himself in a pool just so tom would do mouth-to-mouth resuscitation on him????????

#and then i think greg was shocked it worked because he thought there was a 50% chance tom would just leave him there #and say something like aw greg you big lanky pool noodle shouldn’t you be able to swim from birth #are you an evolutionary mutation? #natural selection i guess! #anyways it was actually kinda cute. barf. #also there were robot dinosaurs involved and i think the pool was on my uni campus instead of the parking lot #this is what happens when my cat wakes me up at 4am #tomgreg #<-i’m sorry </3 just felt i needed to share because What #succession #<-i need to reify my dreams sorry #maya.txt

[wacky-nameless-inventor-24]

Bartimaeus of Uruk, Rekhyt of Alexandria, Sakhr Al-Jinni of Al-Arish, N’gorso the Mighty, and the Serpent of the Silver Plumes!!!!

#AAAAAA this doesn’t look bad!!!!!! #first time doing like a full drawing of a person ig and it’s not awful I’m shocked- #I tried to make him look younger ‘cause Ptolemy was 14 #but have him still be like. Bartimaeus. #He even has the moles kitty noticed and the scar on his chin :3 #The outfit he wore at the beginning of AoS #bartimaeus #the bartimaeus trilogy #the bartimaeus sequence #bartseq #Wacky’s art #ik this blog is for dt stuff but probably more for the fandoms I’m more interested in #So bartimaeus + Lockwood and co art will probably be here too #First one is how it was supposed to be rendered the second is just so you can see the details and stuff #Me drawing: hold on….. I can draw him with whatever kind of earrings I want‼️‼️‼️

[jemmo]

it’s the way ayan looks at akk whenever akk initiates something. when he kisses him first, and kisses him again. ayan looks at him like… this is the akk i’ve always knew was there, and finally i see him. I see the akk that loves me, because he loves himself enough to let himself love me. because to him, akk will never look as beautiful, take his breath away as much, as he does when he is wholly and unashamedly himself

#that single look of ayans just destroys ne #it’s so open and in awe #his eyes glisten in a way that speaks to pure shock and joy and love #that akk is finally here #that he’s meeting him #that there is no single wall between them #it’s just them #and the world cannot stand in their way anymore #if you haven’t noticed I’m fucking emo #the eclipse

[angelofblackblood]

I’m so tired.

#how do people make friends as adults #like I’ve been at uni 3 years #I’ve joined clubs #gone to events with people #cooked dinners and had takeaways sat in the living room #and yet somehow always seem to be an after thought #I’m literally a week away from handing in my dissertation with lots of work today #and the housing situation here sucks #and two people who I’ve been talking to about housing #who know how badly it all sucks #have put in for a flat of their own without saying anything #and I get it #it’s not really a shock cause like they’re a couple that can get a 1 bed and split the cost #they’ve been together 18 months #but I’m not even worth the talk apparently. #is it me is there something fundamentally wrong with my ability to make friends #or am I just really crap at picking people out #and like. they’re not awful people don’t get me wrong #but I also reckon if I went home from here for an extended period of time. #or left after uni #I’d never see any of them again #and apparently I feel badly enough about it all that I need to shout into the void here. #something that I do not do at all #but I have no idea what I’m doing now and finding somewhere new to live that is walkable to the uni is really difficult cause #for a uni town they sure don’t like students in any of their properties #I have so much work to do I should not be worrying about any of this right now #but I’d like to just play the switch instead and forget about this project or other people for a while #and I can’t cause this is due in on Wednesday and there’s still lots to do #and I can’t even complain about it to anyone cause they all talk to each other #a little circle of gossip that just goes round and round

[cinnamontoads]

y’all ever get crazy awful painful pins and needles in the bottom of your feet at night cause it’s been happening to me the past few nights in a row and i’m getting sick of it

#it’s not like foot falling asleep pins and needles because they’re not numb or tingly it literally just feels like awful nerve shocks #like i’m stepping on nails

[graveyard-cowboy]

I gotta say, nothing beats the scene of Optimus absolutely BODYING Skywarp in his alt mode in the one Skybound comic

#Also- man- the fact that Bumblebee died IMMEDIATELY #Like he didn’t even wake up from stasis and Starscream killed him #also Jetfire- #Man shocked and upset when the series about war where everyone dies a lot when characters die #If you couldn’t guess I just got the Skybound comics and I’m normal about them #I do like that they made Starscream absolutely awful #Also shocked and amazed Cliffjumper is still alive after two whole issues #I give him like four or five issues before he kicks it

[brookheimer]

from the succession podcast it sounds like kieran thinks roman has successfully pushed down the voicemail/possible guilt about logan’s death and is genuinely like .. not thinking about it, which i find really surprising honestly. is that really not going to come back? trying to figure out whether this is a “pre-grieved” situation (read: obviously a failing attempt at repression) which was my original take, of course, but the fact that kieran says, like, “i’ve actually thought about that” makes me think it’s not something that will come up in future episodes — if repressed guilt/fear/self-loathing ab possibly causing logan’s death is part of roman’s ‘arc’ this season, why would kieran say like ‘oh i’ve actually thought about this!’ like, that kinda makes it sound like it never comes up again, so kieran’s come up with his own take. but i mean… we’re supposed to think roman “yeah i pre-grieved” [one episode later] “i’m dead. i’m gone. it’s over for me” roy successfully pushed down the fact that his last ‘interaction’ with his dad was calling him a cunt over voicemail (his first time standing up to him Ever) which logan may or may not have heard before his death — and may or may not have CAUSED that death (we know the phone was found in the toilet, after all)??? successfully pushed it down my ass

#felt like it was such an ingenious direction for roman to go in — feeling like the one time he stood up to dad he killed him — #heartbreaking obviously but so so so full of potential #if roman genuinely is not feeling guilty about logan’s death and that guilt doesn’t come up in the folllowing eps ill be a little #disappointed honestly. like post 4x03 i was so excited to see where they were going with it because it was honestly like the Worst Possible #Situation for roman — logan’s death wouldve been devastating in any circumstances but the way it played out felt so tailored to be the worst #possible way it could’ve fine for rome…. idk man. i was so impressed w how it was like each kid’s nightmare. like the circumstances for each #character were the most painful they could’ve possibly been for that specific character. and rome in particular #like that was some of the most ingenious character writing i’ve seen in a while i was just in awe of how multilayered that experiejce was #for rome in particular like it was just so perfectly conceived to fuck him up the maximum amount possible while not making any of it feel #shock value y or whatever in the slightest #so like… if all of that ends up being kind of forgotten other than Logan Died…. #i will be sad lol. what was the point of all that then!!!!! #it just feels kinda surprising — not bc it’s not following thru on an arc or a detail or whatever but bc on a human level it feels like smth #that would haunt a person for the rest of their life esp someone like roman esp bc it was his dad #succession has plot holes and forgets threads and stuff but typically it’s good at keeping the internal emotional logic of each character #intact so i’m just kinda surprised by the possibility that the whole ordeal might not have any more influence on rome than any other #hypothetical way logan could’ve died. idk. rambling #succession #roman roy

[vesselmade]

yuji’s character development after shibuya is so important. I mean in all honesty he’s a completely different person but he does still hold that idea of saving people. His heart is shattered and his mind is broken yet he’s more motivated to do what needs to be done. He’ll do anything even if it means giving his own life to get rid of sukuna. and it isn’t the same as before in the way that he was anticipating his execution. during the culling arc he was way too ready to trade his life for Angel to unseal Gojo (he mentions it quite a bit). that fact just makes me so sad.

#ooc. #and what’s funny??? #sukuna isn’t even the main villain #he isn’t their biggest concern but #yuji doesn’t see it that way #they don’t rlly understand just how awful #kenjaku is #least I don’t think so #yuji is just concerned with getting rid of sukuna yet #Kenny is out here finna do some bad shit #yuji hasn’t had time to process his trauma so he just #he wants sukuna GONE #becus he think that’ll solve some of their problems #but either way they’re all fucked atm yk? #if I’m honest I think he’s still in shock and that feeling #just hasn’t left #I hope this all makes sense ngl

[mt07131]

Y’know what makes me sad? I’ll never hear Raphael’s Final Act for the first time again

#baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 #maeve.txt #like yes it’s still amazing every time I hear it #but that first time is straight up magical #like you just have to stop and be in shock and awe for a moment #every time I see a video of someone doing that fight it’s always the same reaction #it’s wonderful #I’m glad we all feel the same #anyway best new video game soundtrack song sorry honor for all from dishonored (2012) you’ve been replaced

[dykesynthezoid]

It’s like we really cannot stress enough how much this whole “sex scenes shouldn’t exist” thing has nothing to do with people being ace or sex repulsed or anything else, like as a (non-ace) person who was previously sex repulsed due to trauma, I wasn’t throwing a fucking fit about sex scenes existing??? That’s not to say I didn’t ever stumble upon scenes that upset me; of course I did! I just didn’t think the media I was watching was somehow morally degenerate because of my own discomfort.

#and the way they equate being surprised by a sex scene to being VIOLATED #you have some shit you need to process and heal from dude. that’s your own issue. you need to address that. #they often lump regular sex scenes in with scenes of SA; like one is traumatizing so aren’t they all or whatever #which like. newsflash. my opinions on SA scenes would shock those people ig #‘SA scenes shouldn’t exist’ so we’re just hiding a traumatic experience that happens to billions of people now? #‘ok maybe SA scenes need to exist sometimes but they should never be graphic’ sometimes you need to be confronted with the reality of how #awful that violation is actually #‘ok well SA scenes shouldn’t be directed by men’ I mean tell that to Patricia Arquette talking about how respectful and reassuring and #understanding David Lynch was when they were filming difficult scenes for lost highway #and also. as if a female director could never be exploitative #like yeah a lot of SA scenes have been exploitative or only existed for titillation in the past and a lot of them still are that way #but idk what that has to do with deciding they just shouldn’t exist?? #I’m someone who watched Paul Verhoeven’s Elle and loved it though so. whatever #it’s all just exhausting

[lesmiserablol]

andor is so fucking good it makes me want to eat my entire dresser

#i’m just sitting here. in shock. in awe #jesus christ #how am i supposed to be normal about any of this #star wars #andor

[rotzaprachim]

the thing one realises trying to do something like crowpernatural. is that soc ’muricas ’murica better then supernatural often murica’s murica by being willing to let unhinged free market capitalism and religious fundamentalism stand properly on their own as major villains

#and major villains in which even main characters are both brutalised and involved with in complicated ways! #because arguably one of the major themes is about Living in a Society we sure are all living in societies #crowpernatural #a doubter in the city of belief #More thoughts on this but processing. Processsing. One of the things that really shocks me the most on the takeaway from SOC #Is what a fucking dark world it is in which every single villain is human #There are no shadowy demons or ghosts just awful bosses and human traffickers and gangsters and religious culty leaders and militaries #Whereas something I think SPN had some really good MOTW type flashes of but rarely season long this is worthy of attention types of plots #Is with human villainy #I think it also didn’t always need like. Full season arcs on some of this stuff #But the questions of the day to day grind of rural and small town poverty and capitalism flit in and out of the narrative and usually seem #Be these questions of dean and Sam’s day to day existence but rarely enter into monster of the week territory #And religious fundamentalism ohhh boy they could have done so much more there #Day to day religion from humans that ISNT fundamentalist. I think they could have done more there #Idk idk thoughts pending thoughts #This is kind of based on the first few seasons I’m not nearly as aware of later stuff #Supernatural watch

[bumpscosity]

Every time I think abt the Stanley parable demo I just

#like I think most ppl played it while knowing at least a LITTLE abt the full game like at least the tone #i went in with NOTHING except that ppl liked it and that it was funny sometimes. i truly was the target audience for the demo #and it hooked me so hard right after I played it I went and bought the game #thinking back to the demo brings me back to the good ol’ days of learning new endings….. #also brings back my only zending stairs experience but I’m pushing that to the back of my mind #giggling abt the broom closet….. my first playthru following him to a t #then in my second I turned on the machine. never expecting him to do THAT. #again I had NO clue this game broke the fourth wall or anything. so you can imagine my shock #i remember just sitting there in awe and panic as he rambled on…… #or when I jumped off the lift and thought I was gonna break the game by going on the catwalk…. well I mean I kinda did in narrators terms #we’ve had some good times him and I #sassy speaks #tsp

[walkscornelia]

if you told me 24 hours ago this would be the situation i would’ve not believed you even for a second

#like i’m still in shock #but here we are #and can’t imagine how taylor feels #like if you told her this 6 months ago she prob would’ve not believed it #life is just really crazy and awful sometimes #and i guess this can just be a reminder to love everyone in your life and enjoy the good while you have it #wctp

[an1malcannibal]

Guys I don’t think my anxiety ever went away I think that it just moved itself and got worse.

#uh oh #when the social anxiety morphes from social to regular anxiety 💀 #to be fair #I was diagnosed w generalized anxiety but we always focused on the social aspects in therapy #miss Brooke was really a gem she helped me realize that yeah not everyone is talking about you #she told me “this is going to sound harsh but it works. you are not important enough to consume everyone else’s thoughts #‘‘not everything is about you. nobody is spending the time and energy being your friend and then secretly hating everything you do’’ #are she was RIGHT!!!!! #I still have so many social anxiety issues but I’ve improved drastically #genuinely life changing. it’s very grounding it really does help #except w my dad usually he is upset at me abt something #but sometimes he isn’t and that’s nice #I have a coil of anxious horrible buzzing anxiety in my chest when I get home usually #and when everything is cool and everyone is nice to me and glad I’m home #I just deflate but in a good way! #I can feel the anxiety melting away and it’s great I’m able to actually relax a bit #makes me happy when that happens #like today! #everyone was happy to see me :) #shock and awe fr fr