#i’m gonna have to come out to them eventuslly i know that

[inthewild-flowers]

i should be banned from music that reminds me of home goddamn

#dan talks tag #just makes me miss home :( #the funny thing is tho that i mainly miss the place not the people #like i do Not miss my family #i DO miss my one (1) friend can’t wait to see u again emma <33 #but yeah no mostly i miss the place and i miss the familiarity of it and i miss the cliffs and being able to sit and watch the ocean #idk i DO love it i also feel trapped there i fucking hate it #why can’t it be SIMPLE goddamn #like i simultaneously want to spend the rest of my life there and also never go back #hmm #i think it’s largely my family i don’t want to go back to tbh #don’t wanna have to like. idk be the person i am to them #i’m gonna have to come out to them eventuslly i know that #but id rather do it if the only time i’ll ever see them is on my terms with a lot #of warning #not when i could just happen to run into them at the grocery store #and i mean it’s not like i can rlly afford to not live with them back home #everything’s too fucking expensive for anything else #but. idk. #idk idk idk #ah well #i’m hopefully leaving for at least a few years soon and then i guess. i’ll see #depends on a lot of things tbh #honeslty if i could have the money to visit there regularly that’d be fucking amazing