#i use humor and acting stupid as a defense mechanism to keep ppl away from forming meaningful emotional bonds and relationships

[sonic06apologist]

Really starting to think that that thing called climate change might be real

#it is real I’m wording it to sound stupid cause I have to sound stupid so ppl don’t know how serious I can be #i use humor and acting stupid as a defense mechanism to keep ppl away from forming meaningful emotional bonds and relationships #maybe this is why every relationship I’ve had never lasted #never having the chance to express and show how I really am but instead acting like a silly moron to protect myself from getting hurt #what if it’s the way I act that is actually hurting others and that’s why I lose them #maybe it was my fault in all of those relationships and I need to work on myself #will I ever know when I’ll be ready again for love and have a chance again with a woman? #do I even deserve love while I’m still trying to find who I am as a person? #maybe I need to learn to open up not just with my friends but with myself