#i understand if y'all don't wanna do it

[homicidal-slvt]

Have you guys ever created a hot character in your head? Like an OC that is just so beyond sexy. But like- you have no idea what to do with them. They just live in your brain.

#you guys can't see them but i swear they are literally so fuckin' hot like just so cool #I can't draw so I would have to write for them but like idk what to do with them they just kinda exist #I wanna fuck my own character so bad you just don't get it you wouldn't understand #sorry everyone I'm going insane bit by bit y'all just have front row seats to my impending doom #vee's random thoughts go brr

[camellcat]

it's irritatingly funny that I can find books for almost any other series like it's nothing and yet somehow doctor who continues to evade me. I just. can't??? none of my usual sites have them, and looking online brings me nothing, and I ??? where are they ?????

#y'all I just wanna read the monsters inside #and I am the master: legends of the renegade time lord #but honestly I just wanna read every book with rose tyler pleaseeee #do you understand how easy it is to find books on like literally ANY other freakin series #in fact the only time I have ever struggled is when it's new #or if you're warrior cats ig. those bitches actually give me a quite a fight too #BUT IN THE END I STILL FIND THEM #AND I HAVE YET TO FIND ANYTHING OTHER THAN THE BLOODY STONE ROSE #(okay admittedly I found the monsters inside FINALLY. but at the time I had not) #this is the same as trying to download the episodes themselves as well ohhh my god why is everything with this show such a STRUGGLE #doctor who #hold on. to make things clear actually. this post is talking about piracy. I am talking about the whole “read online free pdf” type thing #just so that no one links me something where I have to use money. cause I don't got none fvkmfvkmvf

[fluffle-writes]

I wanna. Pick them up in my mouth and shake 'em around like a dog obliterating a squeaky toy

#you can tag anyone you feel this way about but I was thinking about Rook hunt in particular #tbh I feel like he'd picture the same - just with Vil and Neige #he wanta his oshis to be besties (he is just lime me fr) (just a liiiittle furyher frim reality) #(I view neigexVil as nore of a crackship until we get more Neige development/lore) #(our queen Vil doesn't deserve to be genuinely shipped with someone who's kinda 2D rn. #But I respect people who flesh out neige with headcanons - they write the dynamics realy well tbh) #(hopefully we get more RSA development at some point I think that'd be cool) #(plus I'd cry if TWST just. stopped. after the last NRC OB) #(I mean it'd make sense aince that's where the story is based and it'll probably end once Yuu finds a way home #- which feels close now thanks to Ortho) #(But at the same time I. have been following this since it first came out when I was about 16 - same age as the first year squad lol) #(and I feel like it'd feel weird if we stopped getting main story updates) #(Im rambling a LOT lol - probably because I'm tipsy haha) #(hope someone can relate to my lamenting of future woes though) #(Oh well - I should atop borrowing sorrow from the future and live joyfully with the now) #(I do miss my friends who've stopped being in the fandom though - and my friends who deactivated and idk how to contact now) #(sugarandmelody... zacrazyvalentine... I miss them. but we had fun #writing and stuff. and I suppose that's what matters in the end. that we had fun.) #at least - I hope they had fun too. and I kinda hope they think about me how I think of them sometimes. #have a nice day if you're reading this. I rambled in the tags a while and I understand that it's kinda long lol. #and probably riddled with typos #I'm tearing up for some reason haha. well it is what it is #I hope each and every one of my followers know how amazing they are - I hope y'all have a wonderful day - evening - or night #I wish I could hug people across the internet lol #I should stop posting on tumblr while drinky haha #tw drunk #tw drinking #i'll tag it just in case #don't wanna cause discomfort and stuff

[hamartia-grander]

Wtf kinda resident evil spaces are y'all in that it's common to see someone "lament" Leon losing his job as a c*p. Maybe leave those places asap.

#Literally I've only ever seen one post ab it and it was just them saying smthn like “in another au Leon had a perfect first day” #Supposed to be sad ab his trauma or whatever #But even still most everyone in the comments was like no lol. Acab. #Like idk I feel like if you're seeing an overwhelming support for p*lice in an online environment you should leave it. Immediately. #Cater your tags better. Block people. Etc. #Also like. Not to state the obvious but y'all will whinge when people don't understand Leon's incessant need to help ppl no matter what #But when I say that Leon is still in the BOW workforce because he - subconsciously or not - does in fact choose to be #Y'all get mad. #Do you understand even if the govt never had a hold on him he would've eventually joined the DSO or at least some kinda BOW fighting Corp?? #Do you understand he refuses to quit of his own volition bc BOWs still exist and still terrorise innocent people #And his stupid captain america complex won't let him leave so long as there's even one more person left to save #His compassion being his biggest strength AND weakness is literally such an awesome thing but y'all ignore it #Bc you wanna pretend Leon is serving against his will :'((( he's a poow wittol baby who can't escape :'((( #Get a brain.

[taegularities]

so hhhh

#1.5 weeks left and i'll be starting at my new workplace #which means i'll be juggling school and work and social media #i won't go on hiatus (i think??) but i do think i won't be able to be active as much #which also means i'll be slower with writing #and i'll do my absolute best to finish c&f and bring hty and cmi8 to y'all but i just #wanna apologise in advance if things get delayed. for some reason i'm already so out of focus so i hope may and june don't make it worse 😭 #i feel so bad not just bc you guys are looking forward to that stuff but bc i am too ugh #let's see how things go but i'll try my best to still deliver stuff <3 i know you'll all understand <333 #i love u !! <33 #personal

[gideonisms]

sometimes I feel bad because this is a side blog and I'm constantly on here talking like it must be really hard to block me jghjhjj

#do you ever have like a psychic knowledge your personality would annoy someone like y'all agree on a lot of topics but you just Know #when the autisms are at odds with each other #i cannot emphasize enough how much i'm on here just saying things like sometimes i wanna insert a note in my posts that's like #the full thesis here is tbd this is not the final product. the opinions here may change #i change my mind CONSTANTLY and i can see how that could be irritating #well also i don't understand the rules of 'cringe' and i won't find out because i think all of that is silly

[hannibalismos-jaaneman]

i read a hannigram fic last night where op decided it was an okay thing to mention vatsyayana and my brain chemistry is fucked now.

#raj shitposting #afghdaklkjfdakjfgaskjgf #so for context i read the kamasutra as a joke earlier last month and istg i was not expecting what i read. #bro- listen i thought it'd be about heterosexual sex only but it's really not specified IN SO MANY PLACES IT MAKES ME WANNA YELL. #there's this entire section in the text about scents. now idk how many of y'all know seema anand but you should def check out her tedtalk. #because she kinda boils it down to the very basics with the best examples for all of those who do not want their brain chemistry altered. #and that was what got me into her stuff and i read the arts of seduction a couple years back but i wasn't unhinged back then- #-so i forgot all about it until like a month or so back when i came across a video of hers on yt and damn those floodgates BROKE man. #which lead to me finally putting my foot down and reading that shit and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST- #so back to where we were. there's this entire section about scents alright? and we all know where this is going so bear with me please. #so this section talks about how different scents stimulate excitement and how different parts of the body should be scented. #like seema anand does NOT warn you about how fucking DETAILED this shit is in the original text. AT ALL. #it's got i think somewhere around 600 different scents and the optimum intensity of the scents for like IDK TURNING INTO A MONSTER. #so like when i read the fic my brain thought HEY THESE ARE TWO UNHEALTHY OBSESSIONS OF THIS FUCKING SICKO THAT SHOULD ALIGN RIGHT? BOOM. #and i imagined post fall will experimenting with scents for fun and shit because why not who's to stop him at this point in his life? #and then my brain flashed me a very vivid image of hannibal BURYING his face into will's waist to smell the perfume he put there- #and then my brain short circuited because that is too powerful an image for a mortal brain to comprehend. #i don't think anyone will understand what the fuck it is that i'm on about but y'all should watch that ted talk. #and get ahold of the nearest fic writer you know and force them to write a fic on this BECAUSE THIS IS THE PROMPT THEY'VE BEEN WAITING FOR. #this is actual psychosexual bullshit and istg i've had SO MANY vivid dreams ABOUT SCENTS ALONE it's making me lose my fucking mind. #GAAAAAAAAAAAAH #hannigram #hannibal

[fuckin-sick-bih]

i'm just gonna scream in tags so i don't clog anyone's daaaash

#just bex talkin #personal #SUDDENLY i understand why a vanilla blog might be a good idea #i didn't expect him to go asking for my tumblr thIS EARLY #sir... sir all i have is a kink blog!!! for my weird fucking snz kink!!! #it's not weird it's perfectly normal yada yada whatever it's weird and i don't mind being weird #but it's so early on in knowing each other for me to divulge what a masochistic degenerate i am #“i'm writing” “oh what are you writing?” “something for my tumblr...” “oh whats your tumblr?" cue internal amused panic #he's so sweet and so cute and i just wanna cuddle him god DAMN IT #part of me has a weird sixth sense sensation going on that idk if i wanna say anything about #mr “sneezed so hard he got a bloody nose” and y'all... you can't do that to meeee #you ever wanna be really affectionate with a person but all your past trauma's go “woah there buddy remember what happened?” #i *just* met him idk how to dO THIS #can you hear that sound? it's me at the nearest fire look out *screaming* bc Emotions

[kiriona-apologist]

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#i am decidedly not over it #had myself convinced there for a solid few days #but we've been spending more time together and it's hard not to notice #the feelingstm #and i'm trying to be a normal human around her like we were in a group and i participated and talked and stuff #but i'm still a homo #at my roots i am such a lesbian #and by default #i am a fucking disaster #y'all don't understand they're so pretty #to everyone who likes these posts i hope you enjoy a useless lesbian useless lesbianing #i hope its entertaining or cathartic or something #this is MY blog if i wanna be gay and useless i can damnw ell do it! #it's so early to be typing like these sweet jesus

[watatsumiis]

(obviously lying) I'm having a normal one about Il Capitano on the dash tonight I promise

#He's just so. #He's my captyano and I adore him somuch I don't think y'all understand !!!! #I don't think i talk about my big comfort characters on here enough truly #He's so big and he's my scrunkly and I wanna kiss him RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HELMET #I wanna sit on his shoulder like a lil bird as he walks around doing whatever he needs to do. I wanna play with his hair. #He's broad and big and large. Mf built like a brick shithouse in the real life. So important #AUGH. Harbingers take over my brain forever and always #But Capitano especially. He's so. Mhm mhm. #General barks

[penncilkid]

Every day, I have my silly little brainrot thoughts over characters and ships and rarepairs. There's a constant rotation in my mind at any given moment. Always evolving.

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But Moonlit Chains, my beloved <333

#Moonlit Chains #PK Rambles #Y'all don't understand what they do to me #“What's Moonlit Chains” Do you have an 30-60 minutes to spare /hj #One of my many Redacted rarepairs #Because I have a problem /j #But also if you actually wanna know more it's a Milo SH Darlin rarepair #And also if you just wanna hear about some of my funkier rarepairs *twirls my hair* /lh

[emp-blast]

am i the only one who thinks that sigma strongly dislikes reaper??

like idk, i have no evidence or reason as to why i believe that. i just feel it in my bones, okay??

#i just think that it'd be funnie okay. #like reaper is such a bastard and i need someone to kick him off his high horse #listen. i like reaper i really do. he is my babygirl #HOWEVER- he deserves to be bullied #and i think sigma should be the one to do it #also not putting this in any of the tags because i don't wanna be annoying #but i still wanna talk about sigma i just have no one to talk about him to #so y'all are gonna suffer from me constantly posting about him. Sorry <3 #i hope y'all understand 👍

[just-miru]

people keep saying i should go for the architecture university and it's getting on my nerves aaaahhh-

#i have to explain them the same thing over and over again #but they can't get past the 'you like drawing. architecture means drawing. you should go there!' hngngnhng #like- besides it being structure drawing lacking in human anatomy adafha #there are also other practical projects like 3d models and stuff which i can't say i would have the patience to do #*explodes* #and they don't wanna understand that #for them drawing is drawing regardless of what you draw which is like true but y'all know what i mean hopefully-

[emile-hides]

POV you’re in the same room as me while I scroll through my own tag on @ask-chef-teruteru

#Emile's Arts #I was gonna draw something for the event on my self ship blog but I got distracted scrolling Ask-Chef-Teruteru #Ya know. AGAIN. #I cannot express how often I do this and end up making my face hurt from smiling so much y'all #Best time of my life was spent being embarrassingly in love with Teruteru Hanamura #and he loved me BACK YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND #*Shakes the ever living shit out of you* #YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND #The mod was and still is so incredibly nice to me they went out of their way MULTIPUL TIMES to be the NICEST PERSON TO ME #AND I JUST!!!!!! #I WANNA BITE THEIR HEAD OFF!!!! (affectionate) #I've gotten a lot more physically stimmy in recent years and I've found my default to be slaps #I slap my legs a lot and the empty part of my desk and my cheeks #I tend to pat at and maybe hit a little too hard onto people around me when I'm excited #I'm back and forth on suppressing that one I don't wanna hurt anybody skfjfjkgkd #Instead of hitting people then I've got this cringe little jumpy dance #It's mostly stomping but involves a lotta leg swinging as well #And jumpping I like jumping... Good stim... Outside stim only tho #I wanted to be like them and run an RP blog for a character I liked and go out of my way to show people said character loves them so much #But I really suck at keeping things going and it wasn't getting a lotta traction anyway #so I did drop it... Twice kgfdjfdkg #I miss being so embarrassingly in love with Teruteru Hanamura #I mean I guess I still am... #Maybe I miss him being the same way back...... #Mod's tried to come back a few times and every time I'm just glad to know they're alive and okay #I'd be okay if the blog never came back really I don't need it as badly as I did back in 2019 #Still hard not to miss it though #Eventually I'm gonna channel my embarrassingly in love with Teruteru energy into redrawing our on blog interactions #Because they're pretty funny and stupid sticky sweet #Maybe I'll do that for the side blog.. Who knows

[areus-in-a-little-cave]

okay I did a little discoursing on twitter but like this is the stupidest thing I’ve ever seen I’m just laughing

#I saw discoursing very lightly I retweeted like 3 tweets joking about the whole thing #BROTHER ITS NOT THAT DEEP #ITS NOT THAT DEEP IF SOMEONE SAYS 'these are my ocs now actually' they're not stealing from the ccs #like bro #Bro #please tell me you're not actually getting upset at people being like 'I only like fic![characters] now and they're my ocs' #like. you do understand that a lot of stuff. within the universe. came from fans right #like in the first place #and the story would Not be what it is #without the fans #and many ccs have said 'the characters belong to the fans' #someone being like 'I don't like the cc that played them or the canon so now they're my oc' #isn't like. stealing from the cc what #and like. I'm sure most of these people are just like. saying it lightheartedly #and if the concern is like violating cc boundaries. these are just people who wanna write like s//b//i fics without the whole like #ongoing situation with tommy and d/r/e/a/m #I don't think they're making them their ocs to do bad shit with them #y'all it's just so stupid like calm down!! let people write fics in peace Brother

[notjanine]

okay so our internship cohort is pretty tight and mostly women, so we be girl talkin. and the girls have gotten invested in my love life, partly bc this situation is so ridiculous and partly bc they're not autistic so they're like Omg you just talked with them directly about your wants and needs?! multiple of these bitches have expressed their desire to live vicariously through me in the context of all this etc etc. so anyway. a bunch of us are chatting about this after class and it's fun and loud, so Messy Guy comes up like Ooh what are we talking about?! and classmate is like Al out here dating two people, living the dream!! and i had to leave for a meeting before i could catch his reaction but they were still giggling about it when i left so l m a o

#part of me feels bad for him bc now i know him so well i know he will continue to cause his own problems #and he lacks the self-awareness to understand why. but part of me is also like. does he know how bad he fucked up does he have regrets lmao #but also my closest internship friend--who set me up w one of these current dudes (gn)--invited me to her birthday party #she was like It'll be cool it'll be chill not too big and you'll know people- Bookstore and Messy Guy will be there! #Y'ALL WHAT DO I DO #she doesn't know i hooked up with messy guy #i told bookstore enough about messy guy that they might be able to guess if they met him #and also tbqh messy guy is messy but i still kinda have the hots for him like #if he were to hit me up on the right day i might still say yes. like i don't actively want to add him to the rotation but. he is SO hot #also also my friend KNEW bookstore was packing heat when she set me up w them!! and we have been girl talking!! #so i already told her they're like twice the size of the last one! so if #if she figures out that messy guy is the last one then she has to know that about him!! #also she knows that the last one was shitty and did some shitty things that he shouldn't have done #and that would definitely affect their friendship #OOF. i wanna go bc i love her so much but what if. mess happens! #i have two and a half weeks to decide #but who knows if i'll even be messing with bookstore still everything is weird rn #gossshhhhhh #and i still. still have to coordinate w these two dudes about hanging out this week/end #and on top of all of that i'm about to start at a new three week internship rotation #which i just found out is going to be much more intense than i expected #and i have a huge semester-long project due tonight lmao #everything happens so much indeed #can't wait to get railed and turn my brain the fuck OFF for a while. but i gotta figure out by whom when!!! #lizzo_boys.mp3