#i tried to give everyone rep but unfortunately most of my gifs are well

[heavensigh]

Weenie week has finally passed and I’m exhausted. It’s a week of me working out “lightly” at the gym so I don’t over tire my muscles. I do light weights, light reps and sets just to condition my body and mind of whats to come. I really like this method because in the past I use to go hard in the paint right away, like try to shock my body. Problem is I would leave my legs and arms shattered and would be out of commission for a whole week until I could walk properly. Thus the birth of Weenie Week. I’m actually NOT being a pervert for a change.

So yeah, my plan this week was to go at least 3 days and work each area of the body on alternate days, with abs being an each visit day. Chu is coming along with me because he has to get in shape for his PT test thats coming up in a few weeks. So we ended up going every day. I try to get in our workout right before rush hour, the gym seems busiest right after work. Unfortunately, it doesn’t seem to matter when we go, there are always more than 5 people in that bitch. I haven’t tried super late at night (3am) or early in the morning (5am) but those times might seem perfect if I wasn’t such an awful morning person. We wear our masks the whole time in there and wipe off each machine after use. I then scrub myself down before we leave and do it again when I get home. I know I shouldn’t even be going to gym during this crazy, germ filled time, but I need to get in performing shape.

I talked to my old coach about some questions I had concerning the show season. He said that its def doable to compete this fall if I bust my ass. Like kill it twice a day, every day. Even then, since I’m a noob I might be cutting it close. Both him and Chu recommended that I compete early 2023. I won’t be able to make my goal this year.

I got so sick last year and now that my flare ups are under control I thought I could make it in time. But I want to present my best self. So I guess giving myself a little bit more time won’t be so bad.

I took the body scan yesterday and check out my results:

I have such a long way to go. The gym owner mentioned how my results should be in a “I” formation instead of a C. I def have to get my body fat percentage down. That will be the most important number I suppose. The app is hosting a competition to see who can improve the most in 10 weeks. The winner gets 2k and I’m thinking of entering. Chu isn’t on board, but thats no surprise. It isn't about who lost the most weight, just overall improvement. A part of my is unsure, I know its just another way for the app to get all up in my information, but I’m already using the blasted thing so who cares? Plus, it’s for charity and I’m going to be working out anyway so might as well just see. If I can’t make the show circuit this year then I can feed my competitive spirit in other ways. I have 2 weeks to decide.

It’s so strange...I’m managing my flare ups while working out but I have this sense of dread in the back of my mind. Three months into my workout journey I got ill. I had to put everything on hold for so long. I keep having flash backs of that. I remember feeling so good about myself, taking my vitamins, eating well and staying hydrated and yet I was brought to my knees in a matter of days. I couldn’t eat, couldn’t move. I guess I keep associating the gym life with that time period. I’ve been taking zinc and double checking my mask and keeping my distance from everyone else. I know I should stop worrying and if I REALLY cared then I would find a way to workout at home. But...

School starts on Monday and thank God I’m only taking 2 classes. I was a little miffed that the two books I needed were ones I had already rented a few semesters ago. Goodness. I guess it will give me more time to focus on my job hunt. Which I haven’t made much progress on. I’m going to take pictures downtown with Chu in my best corporate wear. Chu is awful as a photographer but we’ll stay there until we get at least 5 good shots. Thats asking a lot of my non photogenic self though.

Businesses still need more time and I’m running short on cash. I hope it all comes together soon. Chu hasn’t gotten his back pay yet so we really have to tighten our belt.

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