#i think......im tired. im gonna go play fallout nv until i pass out from exhaustion. im tired

[heyitslapis]

vent

#haha now im fucking sobbing im my bathroom bc i was texting one of my only 2 friends (not including my ex) about how nervous i am #then i started in about how i actually dont really want to go out & meet people & go on dates but at the same time #im so extremely tired of being lonely/alone & having absolutely no one to consistently hang out with & im so starved for love & gentleness #and tbqh all i want rn is someone to hold me. i want someone to actively want me/pursue me. i want someone to choose me & care about me #it really fucking hurts & sucks being on everyones backburner. im such a loving person. i have such a big heart & so much love to give #ive always been like that. ive always loved people with my whole being. always been happy & happy to make others happy #ive always prioritized peoples happiness & comfort & well-being FAR above my own #ive always heard the universe gives back what it receives from you......so whens it my turn to be wanted fully & loved in an unwavering way #my love has always been give give give...... i just want to receive the affection. the devotion. the loving tasks. for once. please..... #im not even looking for my forever or for my life partner or w/e. i just want someone who's excited to see me & wants to be in my presence #someone who; even if only for 1 day or 1 week or even 1 month; chooses me. chooses to stay. #i think......im tired. im gonna go play fallout nv until i pass out from exhaustion. im tired #emma vents #vent tag #sad boi hours #sad bitch hours #2023 tag