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#i think its a testament to how much my social skills habe deteriotwd that i have to plan even simple conversations like this the night befo
parkinglothater
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2 years
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I feel less doomed...I'm going to give college a genuine try
#its not like i dont want to make new friends
#its notnlike i dont want to take notes and read
#i just feel like i cant do those things when im at achool
#just being there makes me so tense
#physically and mentally
#i start to shut down
#im determined to make tomorrow a good day by any means
#im going to talk to my classmates
#ill asl him abt his weekend and what he dis
#and then like abt where he frequenyly hangs out
#ill admit to babysitting and show him a picture of mimi even
#and ask if he has any siblings
#boom thats 3 whole questions that i asked him!!!
#thats enough for a whole conversation
#and i wont just be a responder ill b an asker
#i think its a testament to how much my social skills habe deteriotwd that i have to plan even simple conversations like this the night befo
#i feel very sorry for myself
#im still coming to terms with the fact that like
#a very real part of me has been truamatised by going to school in 2020
#like i know its been 2 hears but im hust now realizing just how bad my social skills got
#just how bad my anxiety can get
#just how unregulated i am
#in every way
#plus 2020 was extra bad for me bc i also broke up with my lomg term bf pre covid
#and then my entire community got displaced for like a month post covid
#anyways im trying so hard to listen and learn from my body and my brain and everything
#and my responses to school now feel like they come from the same place as my responses in my relationship
#like sometimes or ig less often now but sometimes zack wld say or do smth and it wld send me into a straight up panic and id get super def
#fensive
#and i feel that way at school a lot
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