#i spent around twenty seconds screaming in a bad way because of how friggin white they are it scares me

[arthur-r]

my fire opal converse arrived i’m screaming

#/hyperbole but the color is so perfect #i spent around twenty seconds screaming in a bad way because of how friggin white they are it scares me #like i don’t want to ruin them. i have owned two pairs of not-hand-me-down sneakers in my life and this is one of them #and so then i felt like a terrible person for doing purchases and wanting things and not just sticking with my old hand me down red converse #which are too small for me now and literally stained with blood. and also mud but the blood is the problem part #anyway mal blum voice oh my god look at all the stuff you got does it make your loneliness more bearable #but genuinely it kind of does. they’re my exact color it’s ridiculous guys. like it’s the color of my walls exactly #and they will make me taller so i can actually see at concerts and in the school hallway. and i’ll keep them forever #(this was an early christmas present from me to myself i put a bunch of tip money on my debit card and bought myself the shoes i’ve wanted) #they are custom because the color doesn’t come in regular converse you have to get a custom fall colors pair so i did #and so they’re lift platforms with a gold star logo patch and stripey gold and white laces it’s really cool #anyway they were supposed to arrive in time for the happy fits concert and they didn’t. but the concert didnt even happen for me so whatever #good news!!!! daisy the great is coming back this april on their first headlining tour it’s gonna be so cool #no news on the happy fits and i really want to see them and also meet them but they did say something about how they can’t wait to be back #so i hope that comes sooner rather than later and that i’m still minneapolis-adjacent enough to go #or i guess i might have to go to a show in chicago!! we grow and change with the times #anyway i’m kind of disjointed cause i woke up recently and also have been in an anxious spiral for like a week but we’re managing great #playing sudoku and being parented by my dad which means: sitting alone in my room with the door closed for hours on end #so i’m here if anybody needs me!! usually dad parenting comes with caring for my sister but she has gymnastics today so i’m like. here #anyway yeah i have these bright red-orange converse with gold on them and i’m gonna cry #i’ll post a picture soon if i’m feeling up to it they’re really exciting like almost enough to fix me #like it’s literally my color. it’s the color that i am. i’m going slightly insane about this (is insane already) #and i painted my electric guitar with nail polish so now the tuning pegs are sparkly red and it’s just a good time for the arthur community #period-induced paranoia that i thought i was done with put aside. and general anxiety put aside. the arthur community is doing great #do y’all remember mononokay by sorority noise? the arthurcore song? it still is. i’m listening to it rn and it still is #anyway idk what to say. i’m here and things are weird but i’m going back to school on monday and it won’t be as weird anymore. i hope #and i cleaned my room like actually deep cleaned it and it’s fixed now. my room is actually good now. how did that happen #anyway i want to go home but i am home. i should also eat breakfast. yeah. so i will do that now. yep #me. my post. mine. #friends only