#i really should do replies tho

[bcbdrums]

Help. Me.

Okay actually the Inbox is broken down as follows:

1 "troll" targeting me specifically

1 random spam

10 hate mail (1 is from the aforementioned "troll")

16 private replies from people

23 remnants of multi-part asks

43 "underwear guy" harassment

78 individual genuine Asks

I've deleted probably some 30+ in the past from the underwear guy, I just stopped doing it after awhile. Time to start the purge!

#should i keep those remnants tho? #i think i put screenshots of them in the actual replies #i also realize i completely missed one set of multi-part asks oops #i really gotta do something about these drafts tho oh my gosh 😭

[alistairlowes]

You're not being gaslit. Different people have different tastes. If we didn't, the family tree would be a straight line. You're damn near 30 years old. Grow up and move on to people you like.

was it really that serious bff... was it

#flora is this your anon #made one post about the man and acting like i don't do anything else in life but talk about him.. that sounds like your anons #i wanted to reply something funny but i'm just too much in awe #that someone read the word gaslit in that context… and decided it was anything but a shitpost #idk how to tell you but telling me i should ‘move on’ when you’re here… on my blog… in my inbox… over my opinion that i didn’t even tag #also sorry but the age card on tumblr really isn’t as big of a burn as you think it is or i wouldn’t be here in the first place #maybe you grow up tho and don't be on anon like a coward if you plan to call me an old hag okii? #lord can't even call a man ugly on MY blog what's it all for then

[stealingyourbones]

Re: you are playing half-life

1) GOOD IT'S GREAT, needs a bigger fandom outside hlvrai. Also maybe look into Black Mesa- the fan made modern remake that is *absolutely beautiful,* one of the few games that would probably actually be worth $60, but is actually only $20, and is a faithful recreation with modern technology.

2) siren pups are called houndeyes! Headcrabs are probably p obvious, but also, the squid face dogs are bullsquids, and the three-armed aliens are vortigaunts!

3) pleas don't slander my boy Barney Calhoun like that he's just a security guard not a cop and in fact is canonically, actively anti-cop/anti-facist in HL2 please he doesn't deserve to have his game rejected like that PLEASE LOVE MY BOY-

Ok im sorry that's all I'm done I'm just passionate about these games I hope u enjoy them ok bye <3

!!! Oh bro you’re so good!! I absolutely LOVE people talking about things they’re passionate about and have a bunch of facts to share!!!!

I KNOW THE NAME OF THE HOUNDEYES NOW!!! Today is a good day :)

I shall play Blue Shift then fuck yeah!!! Was just about to start Half Life 2 so I’m glad I found that out beforehand and play everything in series! I’m absolutely gonna check out that fanmade game that sounds so cool!

As a kid I was pretty much fully isolated from video games as a whole and honestly it’s been a BLAST playing games that are spoiled or well known for many but completely unknown for me! I finished playing the Portal series a few weeks ago and MAN I now know why it is on such a high pedestal!! The games are wonderful and the characters are absolutely iconic. Currently going through well known earlyish PC games, the Doom games, Portal, Half-Life, and slowly chugging my way through chronologically so I can see how video gaming as a whole progressed and evolved! It’s so neat! It’s really hard trying to play a few games though, lots of games expect you to know a lot of stuff so I have to watch lots of videos to make sure I’m not forgetting a Super Important button that does a Super Important Game Mechanic. It’s so cool tho!!!! I’m having such a great time!!!!!!! Thanks for the ask my guy!! :D

#bones replies #if ANY of y’all have reccomendations for games PLEASE tell them to me!!! #y’all I didn’t realize games were so expensive it’s WILD but understandable for like super well crafted and long games but WOW!!! #is cool tho! #first game I ever played on PC was Manual Samuel to get a feel for controls… my biggest mistake #Half-Life #half life is such a blast and it’s funky and fun!!! #I’ve only accidentally broken the maps twice but both were fixable by reloading saves #the F6 key is a lifesaver dude #I’m so bad at games because I really don’t understand what I’m doing but I’m having so much fun!!!! #took me 37.6 hours to finish Half-Life on hard! google says it should take me 12 hours #but I’m getting better!!!! #tutorials that half life games give you beforehand are SO nice dude!!!! it’s really cool because I don’t know shit #I’m rambling but dudE #that fuckin god raspy ass bitch suitcase man with the green portals #idk who he is and I’ve made it my MISSION to not search up his name until I’ve fully completed the series bc- #people go INSANE when I describe him as the crusty dusty suitcase motherfucker and I want to keep myself in my Unknown State because- #I want the true comedy of whatever I’m saying to hit me then. #i don’t care WHAT that suitcase fuck is. he’s a lil bitch who owes Gordon rent money from sending him to stasis without closing his lease #I’m super excited about these funky vide of games if u can’t tell

[darkwood-sleddog]

Prepping for the annual dog wash like: *adds deshedding shampoo to cart adds deshedding shampoo to cart adds deshedding shampoo to cart

#dogblr #it was 80 F today and i felt bad for the pups bc they have not lost a majority of their coat yet #so really wanting to help that along #slash still HATES the high velocity dryer tho so.... #'why do you only wash your dogs once a year??' they say #well. they are only gross like once a year i reply #but also bc grooming malamutes to completion is a MARATHON #2+ hours per dog if you want that coat all the way dry #and it SHOULD be or else they can get moisture trapped under their outer layer which gives skin irritation

[lconoclasts]

Can't add the exact timestamp (it's at the end) but they just??? Jump off screen???? Do they not die???

My general consensus with this fight is that it's just extra content and... in-between canonicity. They don't show up in the credits (in a scene) regardless if you kill them or not, and the pupils are alive(?) or possibly some other ones are alive as they could just look similar/be reused sprites

long speculation under the cut

Fitzroy is lore for sure which contradicts some of the implications about trancending that we get but like. Royal is kind of a dumbass AND is being told all of this from mother/one concern. There's multiple implications of the "ancestors" (both isi and Him followers) coming from somewhere else/resetting the planet and leaving instructions/tech for their respective people to use. Fitzroy seems to fit in the between stage before the concern has studied the tech, but AFTER the Ancestors arrived/reset the planet. In The Tower and the Bastion there are images of famous earth landmarks (taj mahal, new York, pyramids I think) implying that some sort of Earth was destroyed/minerals drained (more connections to the themes about environmentalism) and that humanity was "reset". RIGHT BUT CANONICITY. Fitzroy is more lore... If u want him to be. The true past of humanity is still foggy ESPECIALLY with conflicting views from Him followers and the Isi. The concern claims to have longer records of history, and has aforementioned images, but they shape it to their beliefs and leave out certain parts intentionally as well as only educate people deemed more faithful (concern staff) and censor/mysticize parts for the common folk and ESPECIALLY city one residents. Cough cough 'merica haha but not really I doubt he was thinking about Americans specifically. This is more likely a commentary on religion specifically they larger ones and how they shape societies views and history! (Remember when we used B.C?) I'm not going to say this is an effective commentary or a scathing remark on Christianity (I believe that Christianity is used as a reference as it's the poster child to westerners for what "religion" is. He probably intended for this to be about religion as a whole but like. Come on. It's definitely Christianity with a few changes to make it a "generic religion" especially with the focus on punishment and ascension to a "good place". They also use sin/sinners a few times but that may be for familiarity especially since he had a whole npc for explaining terminology) that aside. Canonicity. Again. The history behind the Starworm followers vs the Isi is intentionally left a mystery! Fitzroy and Leticia are real as fuck (if u think they're canon) and provide some ideas for what actually happened in history but who knows! I should get back to my conversation I got distracted haha.

#text that should be about royal #iconoclasts #lore speculation #mothers corners #Youtube #long post #analysis #(?) #also feel free to reply my ideas are very foundational especially on the religion part :-P but I have a lot of thoughts on xtianity #Being seen as “what religion is”. Especially when not every culture uses the “good place bad place” idea #Or the nobility of suffering Or Or the focus on punishment and atonement #I do think elro is telling the truth with what they teach the lower class so I may use him as a point of reference in the future #He's also a really funny and interesting character. I also completely understand why people don't like him #I'm sorry for not having other examples but he is literally Walter fucking white #Oh my God for Halloween I should draw him in that costume. I have an old sketch of him as reanimator actually #I'm too shy to show it tho hehe... Also the only connection is “science” and “crazy syringe!” #Also by calling him funny I mean his actions are. I like how he gives up on his religion immediately... #Definitely only because it affected him personally (penance) but he probably wasn't that devout #If a follower anyways. Especially with Robin helping out. “Lol it won't get me!” >Wife and daughter die #A lot of his actions are absolutely caused by grief and I really like how he's written. I like the themes of grief! #He's absolutely an asshole tho ESPECIALLY to mina actually honestly to any woman in his life #Teegan get with a real man. Fuck that guy. Also counting grey as a woman in this instance. Woman in a lesbian way not as a gender #Teegan is the only person who survived elro besides robin #themes #Teegan has her shit TOGETHER. I saw her and Gustavo talking in the credits I hope they become good friends :-) #robin survived elro and like he won't try to protect/control her anymore but... God... #elro #(mentioned) (also I might talk about him in the future I really like how iconoclasts deals w grief)

[byanyan]

...staring at my drafts and realizing i should perhaps consider pausing on answering ask prompts to start getting caught back up on those instead bc the number is back in the 40s & i just found a starter i completely forgot about bc it got lost on the second page :x

#a few weeks of mentally struggling & being out of it has really done a number on all that hard work i did getting (almost) caught up l-lmao #tbf everything except like. 2 threads (& a few unprompted asks that're in there) are all from march & april but. hhhh. #i was doing sm better at staying on top of stuff and then suddenly that all went to hell lmakjfakjs #really tho i suppose i should just keep doing whatever i'm feeling/enjoying the most right? #i'm here to have fun not stress over deadlines that don't exist for replies #need to get better at remembering that. need to..... idk. stop feeling overwhelmed over a hobby lmao #i just!!!! feel so bad leaving things for so long!!! i worry it makes people think i don't want to write w them #or i've lost interest or smth which!!! is not at all the case!!!! my brain just sucks so bad!!!!! #i'm rambling to myself ignore me ajsfksd i'll see what i feel like tackling tomorrow #hopefully?? i'll have some better focus??? bc my writing has still felt v disjointed today and i don't. like that. at all. #but my usual routine around the house is still kinda disrupted & off-kilter until monday which i think is playing a big part in my struggle #so. idk. we'll see. i'm still rambling i'm sorry pls continue ignoring me askjfsd #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[ink-asunder]

Jesus. Walmart delivery has a $10 minimum delivery fee AND I'm tipping the driver now too?? Where the fuck did that original ten dollars go??

#before you reply consider: if the delivery fee goes anywhere but the drivers pockets i do not care also die. #groceries are fucking expensive bitch i CANNOT afford an extra 20 dollar nothing fee just because i cant leave my house #i do love that they deliver tho and ill always tip the driver at LEAST 10 because i live rural and i know its a pain in the ass to get here. #we cant even get doordash out here smh. i wonder if walmart delivers even to REALLY rural places? (they should) #big shop day

[vampirepunks]

You know what, at this point I might as well just go for a full half-sleeve of DS tattoos

#there's so many cool designs in ds!! I always intended to design a black sleeve around my higgs tattoo and i should go all in tbh #strands would be a really neat connective element to bring the whole thing together into an actual sleeve #i do want a lil one of some vampire teeth on that side tho. for my higgs/astarion rarepair <3 #anyway reply w/ some ideas if y'all have any #personal #logan.txt

[fractured-fables]

due to how vast yet vague majority of Alice's family tree is I think I should be given a round of applause for not making her related to more Fables

#paraportal #grimm writings #alice glazier #she's already related to the mad hatter mary anne the white queen AND lewis carroll himself. #the thought. of her being related to so many different Fables & having ties to so many different Tales sounds HILARIOUS to me tho #like girl. no fucking WONDER you ended up getting isekai'd lmao ur whole family is magic/cursed as hell #i already wanna connect rose & marjorie due to them going into comas in their respective Tales #I CANNOT have a phantasmagoria family tree 2.0 I am NOT doing that again goddamnit #anyway sound off in the replies who alice should be related to next sljfkd /hj #like shes married to wendy - her father in law is captain hook #& her sister in law is the little mermaid. girls got ENOUGH fairytale bullshit shes gotta deal with. #but also i want as many paras in this family tree as possible. really STRETCHING the use of ''family'' here lmao

[mcnuggyy]

funniest parts of sense8 is when one of em gets out of some big fight and it does the whole dramatic pan around the group and they're like thank you everybody :) you all helped save me<3 when it was mostly like. sun with a lil help from wolfgang

LITERALLY LMAOOOO BAHAHAHAHA

#i mean obviously some of them provide more emotional support #and logic #and help ground the team and have their own unique skills #BUT BECAUSE THERE ARE SO MANY FIGHT SCENES #IT REALLY IS JUST SUN AND WOLFGANG KICKING ASS WHILE EVERYONE ELSE IS JUST STANDING THERE AND/OR FREAKING OUT LMAOOOO #tho i do love when Kala just makes fucking bombs... she should have done that more :-) #callate guero #replies

[bravevolunteer]

i need to pick up. a fucking textbook. and technically i have time but like i don't you know

#me looking at 5 hours of time: my god. that's not enough #I SHOULD REALLY JUST DO THAT . esp bc idk how much actual work im gonna get tonight tuesdays and thursdays are such long days for me #i probably will. i just like. finally got up after an hour of rotting after class and went 'actually i probably have time for this' #I DONT EVEN USUALLY BUY TEXTBOOKS but i. Couldn't Find A Suitable Easier Access Pdf That I Trust If You Catch My Drift and also this is rll #interesting to me i wouldnt mind owning it #im spinning michael around in my head tho i wanna reply to drafts sooo o oo bad #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[novelcain]

I will never forget the day my former boss looked me dead in the eyes on my orientation day and said: I'm a great judge of character. I can tell that you're an extrovert.

Me nervously laughing because every time I had interacted with this man I was masking my ass off to get this job and most certainly was NOT an extrovert but also didn't want to somehow risk my new job by saying otherwise: Yep! You got me!

#there was also this one time i got this male customer by himself at noon so ofc he just had to talk to me #and this bitch literally asked are you always this bubbly? #and i said yes ya know like a liar #because wtf else am i supposed to say? #no i'm actually never like this and if my wages didn't come from GENEROUS tips of my customers i'd never show a single ounce of emotion #bc im autistic (didnt know it at the time tho) and i really hate dealing with bitches like you first thing in the morning #and then this bitch had the NERVE to ask me YoU wErE rAiSeD bY ChRisTiaNs WeReNT yOu? #and i was so shocked i didn't know how to respond and ended up fumbling out I'm actually not Christian #AND THIS MOFO HAD THE AUDACITY TO SAY oh i can tell but that's not what I asked #LIKE BITCH WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE #so me just wanting desperately for this conversation to be over i nervously say yes #and he says yeah i can tell you were raised by a good family #WHEN I TELL YOU THIS WAS THE CLOSEST I EVER CAME TO BREAKING I COULD FEEL MY EYE TWITCHING WITH HOW ANGRY I WAS #I SWEAR I WAS ALMOST SCREAMING AT THIS MAN ABOUT HOW TRAUMATIC IT WAS GROWING UP WITH A CONSERVATIVE CHRISTIAN FAMILY #luckily i kept my composure (and my job) and awkwardly replied haha yeah... i should go check if your food is done now #AND WHEN I TELL YOU I FUCKIN SPRINTED TO THE KITCHEN #istg you couldn't pay me all the money in the world to work customer service ever again #fuck that fuck olive garden and fuck that guy in particular #there's reason you was eatin lunch alone bitch

[girlvinland]

The Lore/Cov RP is picking up again and I’m so excited I need to express the emotion here too. They’ve been separated for sooooo long and finally finally finally about to reunite I cry and scream.

#by bug #they’ve both endured so much bullshit #literal torture #carim sucks man #I can’t express how much their story means to me though and how much it has for the past year #I really should do those recaps again if not just for my own benefit of reviewing everything #the last one was from anor londo and I think we’ve been at least *headed* towards carim since like feb or march maybe a bit later but jesus #long-ass arc #or reply length got wayyyy longer too tho so that’s part of why it’s taken a while now I think #god lore was such a fucking badass in the last reply I adore her

[kyofsonder]

20, 29, 31

Thank you for the ask, and the chance to talk about how I write!

20: How many WIPs and story ideas do you have?

I keep trying to shrink this number by redefining what counts as “in progress,” then finding new ways to potentially resurrect my shelved/abandoned story ideas and adding onto the pile again. Right now I’m mainly giving attention to 3-4 original novel WIPs, around 6-10 original short story WIPs (some of which belong in a specific collection), and 4-6 fanfiction WIPs of various lengths. I also have 2-4 old novel ideas I’m considering revisiting, not to mention the countless new ideas I cycle through all the time. That said, all of these are on my own time so I’d give deadline priority to any commissions over other works if requests ever came my way.

29: Who’s is/are your favorite villain(s)?

Like the favorite character question from earlier, I have a hard time picking favorites. In the case of my villains, this difficulty largely comes from the different purposes they serve. Some of my villains are likeable as people, making their actual philosophies something I can work into the themes of my stories. Others are absolutely despicable, can’t possibly be redeemed, and serve the role of exploring the protagonists’ emotions while giving the reader some fully-justified satisfaction when they’re taken down in some way. Of the likeable people, most of them are spoilers but I like Martin Pond from the short story “Chances Taken.” He’s greedy and career-focused, but he does care about the people around him and it makes his choices interesting as he tries to balance those aspects of himself. Of the despicable people, I like to hate Tristan Hunt from the novel “To Be Honest” because he’s modeled after a despicable person in my own life and it’s extremely cathartic to have the protagonists get away from him in an even more final and direct way than I did with his model.

31: What is your least favorite part of writing?

It’s less of a craft issue and more of a personal issue, but I hate everything that comes with the feeling of not believing in my own writing. The way it makes motivation difficult, the way it makes me want to delete my rough drafts when I reread them, the way it makes sharing/publishing my work anywhere seem like a terrible idea. I’m working past that self-doubt and learning to appreciate my writing for what it is even in its most painfully rough stages, but there’s nothing that makes writing harder than thinking I’m terrible at it and won’t ever write things that anyone enjoys. I don’t think it’s just a specific mental health thing, either, although I know my anxiety and even my trauma history do play a part in my case. I think it’s a facet of all creative pursuits. That feeling creeps up on almost everyone, and takes the joy out of creating at all. It’s something that can only truly be counteracted by a combination of rest and absolute nonsense. Take a break, make some nonsense things that never have to come together to be anything or go out to any audience, take another break if needed, and then get back to your creative work when you remember why it mattered to you in the first place.

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Motivated by This Ask: 226 words

Total Written Due to Asks: 14,436 words

#writing #writer's ask game #sonder replies #sonder stories #fearofahumanplanet #also #I hate pacing out long-format stories #it's hard to do & easy to get lost #that's my craft complaint #I do it anyway tho #for the sake of my stories #which are #way too numerous actually #I should maybe get a handle on that #at some point #as for the villains #I wish I could talk about the spoiler ones #some are really messed up #but conversations of redemption could be had #they're so interesting #but so secret #for now

[a-sleepy-ginger]

20/5/24

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Did well on practice run of the exam in that I managed to complete the essay in an hour

Baby potato

Ender toast

Got cuddles from my cat

#happiness diary #happiness diary: may 2024 #had a hospital appointment today #guess whos getting her arm chopped up again ~ #its only been a year since the mast biopsy #i mean to be fair the upcoming biopsy is the one i went about last year #they just looked at the very obvious weird mole and went nah thats normal this one on your back tho #and yeah i don't really know what that one looked like so it coulda looked super weird #but its situation wasnt as concerning as the arm mole #like its only been here for like 4 years amd its grown really big and weird #and i told that to a doctor cus they looked at it and said oh that looks like youve always had that mole #amd i said no its only been there since the last biopsy on the arm (which was not benign) #and her reply was an oh and she promptly moved on and sent me on my way #oh in response to a hey this mole has grown relly quick and i have a history of precancerous moles please consider #like i would rather not have to get my arm chopped but i would rather a biopsy to cancer any day #so you know #best case its just a weird mole cus i have a couple of those lile one looks like a fried egg #worst case its malignant and they overlooked it last year when i went in about it #the last time a doctor overlooked a mole it was malignant #it was lucky she went and got a second opinion #and even then they were both hmming and hawing about whether to remove it or not #luckily they decided to remove it but still #im doing my part so they should take me a bit more seriously #especially since i dont loke the look of it #last malignant moles its mostly been my family saying to go to the doctors #but this time i went of my own accord like a year ago #mmmm just feel like im rambling:(((( #also the appointment is on a Wednesday after my exams so ive got 3 weeks of stress wednesday #im so gonna treat myself to ice cream

[no-one-hears-me]

need that nostalgia is a liar meme rn

#snapchat memories exist to haunt me #I have like 5 for today and they're all of former besties that I no longer talk to at all ever #and I'm like aww we were hanging out and having fun! :) awwwww we don't do that anymore :( #only really sad about the one tho but I've been considering reaching out for a few weeks now #I just feel like I'm not gonna gwt much of a reply and then I'll be really sad #like okay so ik he doesn't care but what if I have to see how much he really doesn't care? ouch #then I'll just start thinking of all our memories together and the fun we used to have and all our conversations #damn. what happened to us #well ik what happened actually. he got a gf so he cut off all his female friends #but they broke up awhile ago so like. should be safe for me to talk to him again #miss him #Sera