#i made this so why am i tearing up

[overlyegoistic]

#blaseball #yellowstone magic #chorby short #i made this so why am i tearing up #chorby my belorby #best frog girl

[tree-obsession]

I AM NOT OKAY DEAR GOD IT'S BEEN HOURS AND I AM STILL WEEPING

his gentle face??? the soft, delicate, kind voice and his eyes visibly softening even more and the real, genuine little smile as he blesses his younger self with his sister's voice in the background.

hoyo why do you hurt us like this it's going to consume my thoughts for DAYS now

#gnawing at the bars of my enclosure rn #the animation is impeccable #brought me to tears instantly #his arc was so GOOD i was attached to him before but holy crap #honkai star rail #hsr #aventurine #hsr aventurine #aventurine hsr #i am so attached to characters who really just never got to grow up and act one way but really are very gentle and compassionate #and just never were allowed to show it #he's been through so much and is still actually able to be nice which really says a lot abt him #the only thing that might have made me cry more were the convo with acheron when he asks why humans even exist #and the scene where kakavasha aventurine and future aventurine were all standing together #actual peak fiction. will never recover.

[gunsatthaphan]

"okay. I will be your boyfriend."

#cooking crush #cooking crush the series #cooking crush ep10 #offgun #tenprem #ten x prem #off jumpol #gun atthaphan #neo trai #gmmtv #thai bl #bl drama #😭😭😭😭😭 #this episode made me super emotional #the friendship arc was so precious it made me tear up #also them just being them made me sob as usual #😩😭😭😭 #what am I gonna do without this little gem #only 2 more eps 😭 why #this show is my therapy i need at least 287 more episodes

[just-null-cult]

the way you drew kokichi .. i think im ascending to the heavens .. i see the light .. chest collapsing .. heartbeat flatlining ..

oho, a Kokichi enjoyer!! tysm!! it was my first time drawing him at the time so im glad i didnt fail him. i dont want to fail any of the kyoto group. i love them all!! even w my clear favoritism

he's nice too, a bit more expressive than Noritoshi so i can finally draw something that isnt :| or >:( even if it isnt by much- i like him too

I like how he's both a dick but also kinda sweet. He's a different flavor of tsun... i can use this. my knowledge on him is limited but FROM WHAT I SAW IN THE WIKI OH MY GOD???????? OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! KOKICHI!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#muta kokichi #kokichi muta #mechamaru #kokichi muta x reader #mechamaru x reader #? i guess #double post lets go im tryna be as fast as lightning #woah a non noritoshi post... crazy....... #my hands feel tingly and weird #my blog is so yume centric that my one track mind made you a love interest right off the bat #fuck it. everyone's in love w you unless stated otherwise #congrats. youre a harem leader/protag now except i have a strong bias towards one guy unless asked abt someone else #AND I JUST FOUND OUT MORE ABT KOKICHI???? WHY AM I FUCKING CRYING????? DUDE WHAT THE FUCK #OH NO THIS IS NOT CORRECT.. IS THIS WHAT SHIBUYA ARC IS???? DUDE #IM GONNA RIP OUT MY HAIR. THIS CANNOT BE. I CANT FAWN OVER ANOTHER CHARACTER W SO LITTLE SCREEN TIME AND CONTENT GOD PLEASE #HE GIVES SO MANY VIBES..... LIKE FUCKED UP 'i'll sacrifice the world for you' VIBES AND ITS MAKING MY BRAIN KRCHAKKRCHAKKRCHACK #kokichi muta... another hidden gem.... wipes tear #we'll treat you right kokichi... sobs. there there

[baeshijima]

it is now officially the 25th which means...

merry christmas everyone !!! regardless of whether u celebrate or not, i hope u all have a lovely day with whoever u spend it with or with urself <33

#sophie's idle chatter #this is scheduled so im HOPING it posts at 12 am.... prays.... #i havent been super active in the past month or two bc life is kicking my ass (<- has said this countless times already but its still true) #also !! i see asks and ill try and answer them when i actually have the time and energy 😭 ik i say this a lot but ive been drained good god #(not so) mini life updates : #the new lovebrush chronicles main story update has made me weep so much... ive done both clarence and ayns routes and.... #my god.... this story is darker and honestly im loving it AND i love how they did the chara roles in this world (alkaid... ourgh...) #my tear glands arent tho bc ayn ending 3.... what the fuck was that i couldnt sleep after doing that ending??? ITS WAS SO SAD AND FOR WHATF #currently having to wait until the 27th so i can do lars route 😔 #the recent ep of apothecary diaries.... ourgh my heart.... jinshi and maomao beloveds :(( #oh !! and ive gotten back into my ace of diamonds/daiya no ace phase and have been rewatching the series... #sobbing chris and yuki and miyuki my beloveds.... kissing ur foreheads and holding u gently..... #the way i got back into it bc im catching up on s2 of a clean sweep (a korean baseball variety show that i love with all my heart ;w;) #my mum is a traitor tho bc she watched every new ep that came out on tuesdays while i was in uni 🧍‍♀️ so now im catching up on the 30 eps #on my own 🧍‍♀️ #OMG AND ALSO DR STONE S3??? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED THAT PART 1 CAME OUT MONTHS AGO AND PART 2 WAS MORE RECENT??? #i havent been doing that much writing recently tho bc the fingers wont type but the brain is exploding with ideas i cannot handle this #i do want to get back to the haitham sxf series tho.... and also my oc various x reader series....... #tbh ive been contemplating abt publishing the haitham series on ao3 once i write more chapters before publishing them #idk i feel like the series would be nice to have on ao3 as well as tumblr JHDG #thats abt it i think? #anywho if u read this far then know i am giving u a warm cookie as a condolence prize for getting through this life dump <33 #ill leave it off here but i hope u all have a lovely day !! mwah mwah merry chrysler everyone 🎄🫶 #queue... ueueue

[m0e-ru]

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to the day my brain was literally rewired and my gender was being changed by the second SO HERES A GAS STATION SPECIAL before this joint was even a gas station in the FIRST PLACE !!!!

FUCKING FREAK

#kommento #// theres a whole love letter in here dont open these tags it's a readmore equivalent #p4 #⛽️🌫 #moel gas station attendant #tohru adachi #boot.tingting #arttag #// sneak peak before the manager became a manager and only put the uniform on to see how well it would fit and hasnt taken it off since. #// im tearing up because i hate how it's been three years and also i cant find the other notebook so i went through gphotos instead #// also that i miss blorbo so much i miss my old self so much she was so sweet and genuine and the passion and love and everything #// STUPID SEQUENCE OF PHOTOS the way my brain was so fucking rearranged i had to get up and make memes and take screenshots and then #// draw then COME BACK AGAIN to watch the thing that changed my life forever. AGAIN #// sorry was having technical difficluties in yokohama im back istok im normal (affirmation ) #// this is literally all me before i started thinking about myself and wondering about my gender then the dysphoria came rushing in like #// some freshwater spring about to make a waterfall and i had to let it settle and get used to the ecosystem with two more years #// took a month where p4gsteam was booted up and i made my own save at some point and finished it on july 8 #// clasped my hands and had a honeymoon period over. mimi <3 then the day after rolled around and i watched the .chair car adventure #// literally my first p4 doodles were mimi and adachi theres no fucking denying it theyre the og. theyve been with me from the start #// theyre so important to me theyre so personal they made me who i am thats why im so mad with the community i have to share them with #// because theyre all so different from me and i took that personally #// IT'S KOKAY !! look at how far ive gone. this is the biggest archival effort ive ever done my entire life ive grown branches #// farther than ive done before ive put such a variety of skills to use just to make myself food and manage this damn station #// and keep some sort of love alive which was all from me and is still from ME !!! #// crying while writing these tags now sorry okyakusan i'll clean it up soon #// these doodles really explaining my mindset from the start and how the grindset has never really changed at all #// it was all friendship for three years and still will be i love adachi i love gas station attendant so much THERE I'M SAYING IT #// cherry on top friend just dm'd me to get an actual job at a gas station IM SHITTING MYSELF #// happy anniversary to my genderest best friend and the most problematic uncle ive ever had #// we're all holding hands and theyre treating me to topsicles because it's all i could ever shamelessly want

[hella1975]

assigning a character the highest honour like *adds go home by julien baker to their playlist*

#and by honour i mean pointing at them like TRAUMATISED! TRAUMATISED! TRAUMATISED! #like yeah relating to this song is a red flag actually. yeah it's one of the most personal songs in the world to me #and i actively am not allowed to listen to it some days bc it makes me significantly worse #even if im in a GOOD mood because of the layers upon layers of emotions ive associated with it #yeah i literally wont even blorbo post to this song even if it's accurate to a character because it's so personal #so they have to be REALLY FUCKING SPECIAL AND FUCKED IN THE HEAD to get this honour. enter touya #i made him a playlist im going crazy like yeah actually of course i was always gonna be weird about him #like he's got fire themes. he's got body horror. he just wanted to be good. he's ethel cain coded. he's georgia coded #he's got mommy AND daddy AND sibling issues. he's the only other character ive let even come close to mary on a cross #he's a waiting room girlie. he's an archer girlie. im tearing my hair the fuck out of my scalp #why does the first character ive latched onto this hard since CHUUYA have to be from mha of all things #like that's embarassing for me im embarassed to be here. and yet #touya todoroki #the thing that makes me sick about touya is yes the abuse he went through via his quirk and his dad etc etc #but also bc sekota peak happened when he was 13 right? and he's 24 now? that's 11 years unaccounted for #like ik it's confirmed his burns put him in a coma for 3 years and all for one and the dr guy just stapled his stubborn self together #which is something else i will YELL MY HEAD OFF ABOUT WHAT THE FUCKKKKK HE WAS A CHILD STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT #but im pretty sure it's confirmed that after 3 years he goes off again on his own? which still leaves him as a teenager? #like he straight up burns himself alive at 13 wakes up at 16 and reappears at 24 with dyed hair and piercings and a bad attitude #and im not supposed to wonder? or get upset? like i absolutely am leaning into the 'he was on the streets' angle bc i hate myself #and that's devastating and also what alternative is there logically like he has NOTHING #no home no money no name that he can feasibly use not even an appearance that will warrant anything but more cruelty #so youve got this child on the streets with injuries that absolutely cause insane amounts of pain daily he's literally STAPLED together #and he's completely alone and the only thing getting him through is this growing hatred and rage #like id set all my plans around killing the guy that put me there too actually just to fucking get me out of bed in the morning #I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM. WHERE WAS HE FOR THE PAST DECADE. HORIKOSHI PLEASE #I WANNA GO HOME IM SICK THERES MORE WHISKEY THAN BLOOD IN MY VEINS MORE TAR THAN AIR IN MY LUNGS #PIERCE MY SKIN NEEDLES TO WORN OUT RAGS THE FOLDS IN MY ARMS THE SICKENING BLACK AND I HAVENT BEEN TAKING MY MEDS #I KNOW MY BODY IS JUST DIRTY CLOTHES IM TIRED OF WASHING MY HANDS GOD I WANT TO GO HOME

[cleanerfive]

honestly i wish people could realize how much this first skypainting event really means to me

#msm #my singing monsters #whiz bang #whiz-bang #the third image was originally made as a vent piece but over time i was actually starting to appreciate it for what it is #because honestly it really is why i love this new event so much #as ive had the displeasure to grow up alongside people who would never appreciate me if i told them who i was on the inside #and seeing my absolute favorite game actually caring for who i feel i am really makes me wanna cry tears of absolute joy #anyways uhhh sorry for vent-ranting in the tags for the 716282828th time cus no ones gonna read this in its entirety except myself so lmao..

[katierosefun]

one day i won’t start crying the second i leave my college friends to board a train! today is not that day!

#caroline talks #i’m so dramatic lmao we all live in the same state/practically the same state #but it’s been a brutal month so far and a really brutal and sad last few weeks #and my friends walked me down to the train station i used to go on every time i returned from home #and i realized very suddenly that this was the first time i was going to this station with my friends #and for some reason that made me tear up #i don’t know. i got hugs from all my friends and they yelled ‘WE LOVE YOU’ as i walked off #and i think that’s what did it! #whatever! I feel so lucky to have friends where i can just sit and listen to them #and everyone is kind to one another #and makes sure no one is interrupted #and also makes sure that no one is hogging the conversation at a time #and it’s just. not me dumping all this when i should be journaling #but. #i remember someone once tried to learn why i was sad and they later used that to hurt me some more #but my friends know i am sad sometimes and instead they look at that sadness #and go ‘let’s eat food. let’s walk around. let’s jump into the water.’ #and i don’t know. #i love my friends a lot. whenever i’m around them i feel like life will be okay. #and you know! #if i had to go through all my broken and sad friendships in order to meet the friends i have now. #then i’d gladly go through all of it again! just to now have friends #who walk me to the train station and hug me goodbye

[smartzelda]

I am once again thinking of how we never actually see the name that killed L, just his legal name in "Death Note: How to Read".

I'm thinking of Rem ripping out the pages in her death note she'd written on as she turns to dust, taking too the only written instance of name that killed the world's greatest detective, quite possibly as one last act of defiance against Light Yagami. Thinking of how if she hadn't, Light would have read the final name she'd written, kept inside him the knowledge that he's one of the only humans alive to keep the name that L felt was *his* at the day he died. Sure, he could've just attached hard to how he wanted to remember L, but it doesn't take away the fact that it feels as if he *doesn't* know L's name (because with all the focus he had on finding it out it doesn't erase the care he put into finding it)

I'm thinking of L, who's never really identified himself with a name. Not his legal name, given to him by his guardian, nor any of his number of aliases. He might as well have been L Lawliet just as much as he was the detective L, or Eraldo Coil, or Deneuve, or even his brief stint as Hideki Ryuga. He's been called so many names in his life, but doesn't identify with any of them. I'm thinking of the fact that Near and Mello clearly identify themselves as their legal names despite their similar use of aliases, the way that their legal names are explicitly the names needed to kill them. However, with L, we never see his legal name written down in the note nor do we get to see the name floating above his head. Unlike others from a similar background, we don't know the name that killed him, nor does he seem to identify with his legal name.

Of course, this brings up exactly what the name had killed him was, and if it simply was his legal name, why it wasn't just shown as with other characters. For someone who couldn't seem to form an attachment around any of the many names they've been called, I almost wonder if the name that killed him was something secret, played around with in his head, something only he (and someone with the eyes of course) would know.

#l lawliet #death note #A man can have so much trans subtext its unreal #By all means it would have made total sense for him to attach to his legal name‚ seeing that it was given to him by his longest living #guardian and was a substitute to him having none at all and yet #In some ways it almost brings into question how strained his relationship with Watari may have been‚ but also it reeks of subtext #Not identifying with your legal name or any name most people call you #That being said I am also uh lawlight trash so the monkeybrain also shoves all this thought aside and goes 'Okay but wouldn't it be funny #if the name that killed him was like Ryuzaki Yagami or some shit even though that probably doesn't make sense? The pain.' #Idk man I just think it says something that Light seems to never be allowed to know what name killed him‚ that it was never mentioned in #the source material (not even his legal)‚ and that other people from whammy's house in opposition to Light had their names needed to kill #them be their legal names/we get to see the names that killed them #I just be thinking #edit: I should also specify that some of this is canon interpretation while some is like shaping headcanon (for example it's not as if we #*see* Rem tear out any pages or anything but that's just me coming up with a reason as to why he wouldn't have just known L's name after #picking up her note and opening it for the first time)

[itspileofgoodthings]

so I found a counselor (yay) and when I went in to fill out the paperwork for it after a very hard day I got very overwhelmed and sad and I started to cry, you know the kind where the tears just well up and spill over without any effort, and a man in the waiting room got up and handed me a box of tissues and it truly went right to the depths of my heart.

#it was such a Maria moment in that I would do that for someone in a heartbeat #but at this point I am used to people not doing it for me #(which is fine my tears are my business etc.) #but it killed me #also. i was talking about it to Nina later #because I didn’t know at first why it meant so much to me or felt different than other small kindnesses #and it’s because it was the quick and instinctive compassion of someone who has suffered #and it’s so piercing #like. as soon as I started to cry he was aware of me and immediately responsive #and he didn’t say anything but he didn’t need to #it was just this silent well #in him #anyway I would say it made me cry per my usual parlance but it actually made me stop #I was able to keep going #anyway sorry for making this all about ME on this Easter morning but I have been off tumblr for a week and a half #and I needed to record this moment as fast as possible #there is light in the darkness is such a truth …. but also it’s such a light #and also not to ramble more but it was so different and so specific as opposed to other kinds of compassion #it’s been a hard year and occasionally I’ve cried at school or students can tell I’m close #and their compassion (when it exists) is confused and dazed and shy and like it just woke up #because it probably DID #and it’s precious to me for that! #but the compassion that comes from knowledge is such a sure and steady thing #it is a hand on your shoulder #and it gives people such dignity and such grace that they can’t even SEE #because they’re just trying to get through the day #anyway it meant a lot to me and was like one of those blinding flashes into the depths of things #so thanks for listening. And Happy Easter!

[seventh-district]

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#it is 5 hrs past my bedtime and i am awake listening to Two Hearts by Dermot Kennedy on loop and crying over Rotating Shifts. again. #i couldn’t resist the urge to read the latest chapter any longer but i knew when i did i’d get like this #so Why did i wait for my period to roll around. i have made. a silly decision lmaooo #i’ve complained abt it before but i’m conflicted about how much more sensitive it makes me #my nightmares usually don’t make me cry but oh i was a Wreck this morning #so why i picked tonight to read the fic that always makes me cry is beyond me #i have never met a fic before that had me in such an intense emotional grip #and it’s fucking hilarious bc it’s not that intense of a story!! like yeah there’s been devastating parts but i’m out here having to- #-take a break every single chapter bc i’ll read one line that hits my inner child like a truck and i have to take a minute to recover #but the whiplash this fic gives me is so fucking funny and the range in the storytelling from comedy to tragedy is just.. *scream-cries* #it has my favorite characterization of Sun and Moon that i have ever seen #this chapter wasn’t even that sad i’m just Making myself sad about it #but on another level it also makes me sad in the sense that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to write something that good.. #all that i want out of my writing endeavors is to make one (1) person feel as strongly and as much as RS makes me feel #and i don’t know if i can do that. i don’t know if my writing has what it takes bc i can’t even describe exactly what it is #i don’t think it’s a science that can be replicated. things either connect with someone or they don’t #the way Sun goes from worryingly innocent ‘wdym we can’t invite strangers to live with us?’ ‘wdym we can’t adopt an adult that needs help?’ #to fucking. tearing an animatronic in half in a fit of protective rage and blocking access to all dating apps to prevent you from- #-finding anyone else bc he’s your Special Friend and he can’t have his Daydream falling for anyone else!! no no!! #it’s not a new concept but i eat it tf up when Sun is actually the one you should fear the most #like no i don’t think he’d hurt Reader but i dread to think of the things he would do For them #the back and forth between childlike innocence and terrifying intelligence possessiveness and physical capability is just mmmmm 100/10 #and don’t even get me started on Moon. or i Will start crying again #he’s ​like yeah dumbass of course i’m gonna save you every time some POS man tries to **** you. of course i will you fucking crater-head #but i will complain at you about it the Entire way home and then i will steal your fucking toilet paper and pack you a raw egg for lunch #because i hate you 🖤 but Sun loves you and we would both kill for you 🖤 also i drank all of your chocolate milk 🖤 also i hate you :) #anyways i am paraphrasing obviously and dear god i hope no one who actually reads RS sees this bc i do not want my 2am ramblings taken as- #-any kind of Official Thoughtful Analysis of the story ok pls pls pls let me be insane abt my favorite fic without having to be articulate #i just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. i am unwell. #i’m not even tagging this i’m just hitting post and going to sleep goodnight

[erraticcat]

the destabilizing magical girl transformation i go through every week between ted lasso tuesdays and succ sundays wooowweee

#yes i am a lesbian yes i watch shows about men and varying degrees of emotional intelligence #okay to say either of those shows are just about men is reductive. have you seen ms rebecca welton and keeley jones. have you seen. #me and my roommates trying to behave ourselves when they wear outfits with a very low neckline ooga wooga we fail #im using this post as vent ignore ok why are ppl made about jack and keeley. keeley deserves her bisexual rebound moment. #i highly doubt they will be endgame anyways her and roy will end up together i Know so just enjoy WOMEN KISSING #succession is like. im on the edge of a cliff and a storm is approaching and im watching the lighting and im immobilized #ted lasso is like. im at a college sports match with my bestfriends and soo many beautiful woman im having a lovely time and might tear up! #succession #ted lasso #also i know ted lass technically airs on wednesday but im in canada so its Tuesday for me <3

[mushroomjar]

Help me I started crying out of literally nowhere????????? I've had a pretty fine day I'm scaring myself wtf are you doing girl why are you crying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#a comic popped up on my dash of a guy who goes to a pet shop and adopts a puppy but then the puppy's sad bc it misses its siblings so the #guy goes back to the pet shop and adopts all the other puppies and i immediately burst into tears??? i've seen that comoc thousands of times #why am i CRYINGGG?????? HELLO? #here's the thing i don't think i started crying only BECAUSE of the comic like it was specifically the panel of the puppy crying that made #me start crying but i don't think it's just the comic i think it's reaching some part of me that not even i can identify???? #i should go to therapy. therapists would have a field day with me. i am not saying this to try to be sad i am saying this bc i think it's #very funny #i stopped crying nlw btw i'm normal again

[trollbreak]

The brief moment of ‘I want to interact with other peoples sandboxes more’ before I’m hit by the cement truck of ‘I am viscerally afraid of misportraying someone’s lore and characterization to the degree that it gives me literal nightmares’

Ack

#Anymeow um. next time I go ‘why am I so scared to interact beyond like just our characters b friends… this. this why. #literal nightmares where I wake up in tears abt being gifted a pre-existing character I know I loved and am sure I wasn’t the only one and #suddenly being heaped with. ok good luck! 👍! don’t fuck up this guy you love!! #or like nightmare where I put a guy in a location and manage to stain it so bad the person who made the place loses all love and care for it #like. lays on the fucking FLOOR I DONT EVEN HAVE A PRECEDENT FOR THIS THAT I KNOW OF #sighs all big. I love seeing the world building people do so fucking much and I wanna interact more and more but I’m just. dies abt it. #Yk how it is. sighs. but um characters friends is so much more doable fr #vent #JUST IN CASIES

[baeshijima]

i fucking hate this gane

throws up tears

#sophie’s idle chatter #i just finished chapter 5 meaning the end of season one and its safe to say this game has destroyed me in a million different ways #some of which being my emotions and my bank #what the fuck was the entirety of chap 5….. lunar games i cannot do this u have actually made me cry so much why did u have to make the #writing so so good and all the characters so compelling in their own way 😭 #im abt to start chap 6 where we can unlock yuye and jihans routes from this chap onwards #sighs im not emotionally ready for this bc seeing glimpses of the bad ending illustrations in the archive makes me wanna jump out my window #and then after i unlock all their routes theres still season 2 thats locked… #hwal and eunhan…. throwing up …….. shitting tears …… banging my fists against the wall ….. punching air ……. #fuck #at least this game is the kind with ads to replenish bc im used to these kinds of games #stares at lord of heroes and all their reward ads 🧍‍♀️ #anyway my bank is always open for this game rven if it forces me through emotional trauma #baek jihan my beloved…. my love…… my life…… ourgh #AND SUYEON WAILS I LOVE U #man the devs have me in a chokehold for their amazing lore and writing… #anyway its 2 am and my eyes are puffy and my nose is stuffy and i should sleep but what is sleep when u have been emotionally damaged 🫡