#i love lwj so much pleaseeeee not my boy

[gentil-minou]

Someone has to have written meta about how important the 1st incense burner chapter was for wangxian and how ir gave Lan wangji the catharsis he needed to stop being ashamed of his sexual desires after spending years punishing himself convinced his feelings were wrong and shameful because wy could never feel the same way about him. That the ugly feelings he had were his fault and how that made his guilt about his parents even worse

And then having Wei Ying the man he loves see them in all their raw and shameful glory, but instead of recoiling away in disgust wwx accepts them and lwj, showing him how lwj and his desires are not shameful, that wwx gets it he understands and he's into it too...and then the dream changes and becomes one of empowering lwj and giving him a chance to reclaim those teenage desires in a way that makes he feel good for once

how powerful that moment was for lwj who must have had a part of him that even in adulthood told him his teenage feelings were wrong, to finally come to the realization that he was just a kid and it's okay because those intrusive thoughts didn't make him a bad person. That even now they don't make him a bad person. That he can want and desire and be safe to explore those feelings and they aren't ugly or shameful they just exist as they are, that he can take them ans make them into something beautiful

Please tell me someone has written a better more cohesive version of this because my irl bff just finished the novel and hates lwj and I cannot handle that pleaseeeee

#SOMEONE HAS TO HAVE WRITTEN THIS PLEASE DONT TELL ME IT HAS TO BE ME IM NOT EMOTIONALLY CAPABLE OF THIS UGH... #my bff not understanding lwj's character....I have failed as a fan 😭😭😭😭😭 #mdzs #mo dao zu shi #lan wangji #god like i get that those chapters are not for everyone but ignoring the complexities of all of lwj's experience and narrowing it down to #make hime into a bag guy grinds me gears sk bad #i love lwj so much pleaseeeee not my boy #wangxian #mdzs meta #i swear to god if i get the same sort of bad faith comments and vague posting on this post as i did the last time i dared to express an #opinion im going to give up on this fandom i AM NOT IN THE HEADSPACE FOR THIS OKAY #mdzs musings

[fantasiavii]

"trans lwj au " 👀👀👀 omg pls do tell more pleaseeeee omg i didnt know i needed this like air aaaaahhhh trans lwj auuuuu!!! Woah my are eyes open now

YESSSSSSSSSS okay, okay, I will tell

So I actually have like...two? three? trans lwj aus but the one I’m actually working on rn is a fluffy modern au in two parts.

Part 1: the part where wangxian fall in love. It’s the summer after their first year at uni and they’re kind of sort of friends but not that close (Wei Wuxian thinks Lan Wangji only barely tolerates him and Lan Wangji is still coming to terms with his crush). But at the beginning of the summer, Lan Wangji gets top surgery and is really out of it afterwards, enough that he accidentally texts Wei Wuxian. Nothing bad just like...rabbit videos and heart emojis and typos galore, very drunk lwj things, and Wei Wuxian is like ???? but they hit it off from there and fall in love and potentially there’s plot but I haven’t figured it out yet. I have A LOT of headcanons but no plot

The headcanons are like:

when Lan Wangji came out to his family (around age 4 when he first started going to school)

what his uncle’s reaction was (not good, he basically assumed Lan Wangji was too young to know what he meant and Lan Wangji stayed in the closet until high school)

how Lan Wangji was probably really confused growing up and kind of assumed his uncle was right so had a whole process of coming to understand that he really is trans over the next decade or so

trans and gay (middle school was a mess)

how Lan Wangji came out again (halfway through high school, to Lan Xichen, who said “I know, didi” and then hugged him really hard)

(I get the feeling that Lan Xichen at 7/8 was old enough to remember how four year old Lan Wangji insisted he was a boy and to figure out what it meant soon after. He then continued to spend a significant amount of time worrying and trying to make sure Lan Wangji could be as gnc as possible while growing up even if Lan Qiren wouldn’t let him transition)

Lan Xichen is also the one taking care of Lan Wangji after top surgery in the present day. They tell Lan Qiren after it’s done. Lan Qiren is still processing Lan Wangji being trans and he doesn’t quite get the trans and gay thing yet but he’ll come around eventually (I just can’t do sad endings aslfjdskl;)

I realize this sounds like angst but the fic is fluffy I swear! This is just backstory

Part 2: this is actually the part I’m going to publish first because I have most of it written (except for the last scene) and it can stand alone. I wrote a description in my notes that reads “NO PLOT JUST HORNY AND SOFT” and...that’s it, that’s the fic. (It’s about wangxian picking out a strap on together.) 

I’m not ashamed to admit part 2 is fueled primarily by spite after seeing multiple fics in which wangxian was straight-washed for...pegging purposes? As far as I can tell? It was around the same time as jkr*wl*ng was going on her first transphobic screed and I just could not deal with cis people anymore and started writing this fic as a way to cope lol. This fic is all about my trans joy and gender euphoria only agenda

Anyway I hope this gives you some air to breathe! (lol) I am ALWAYS down to talk about trans lwj (or trans wwx...or aus where they’re BOTH trans (that’s au #2 lolll)) it brings me so much joy 🥰

#weisbrot #asks #answered #trans lwj au #i would love to do a canon setting fic but i just have no idea how to #like...transition through magic? #i've seen that in one ficlet for nmj #but also there's a depressing lack of trans aus in this fandom #(the les mis fandom really spoiled me growing up huh thank god) #the third au is like...based off that one marriage of convenience love story... #idk if i'll ever write it but i like to think about it