#i know this is whiny teenager shit but cmon

[sinbrook]

This sounds stupid and ungrateful, but I don’t really care. People who are “bad gift givers” are people who don’t listen or care. There’s no such thing as someone inherently “bad” at giving presents, just lazy thoughtless people who don’t give a crap about the people around them enough to listen to them when they talk. I am super easy to buy Christmas gifts for because I’m autistic, I got those Special Interests on the go, literally just buy me something to do with that and I’m golden.

Like if I talk about Pokemon non-stop every time you see me, then the obvious thing to do is to just fucking buy literally anything with a Pokemon logo on it, that shit is everywhere.

I collect things! I have collections of Pokemon cards! I collect DnD figurines! I collect pins! Collectors are the easiest people in the world to buy for because you know what they always want!

...if you listen. Or pay attention to them at all.

But everyone insists I’m “hard to buy for” and wants me to outline what they should buy me, when literally anything to do with my interest is fine. But they wouldn’t know that because the instant I open my mouth, it’s like the light dies in their eyes and their soul floats away to some unknown place and everything I say just floats through their now-empty head, unheard and unlistened to.

I’m sick of either knowing what everything under the tree is because I sent the person a link on where to buy it, or getting disappointing things I don’t want. Meanwhile my grandma mentioned off-hand a book she had when she was young, loved to read, and lost during a house move, so I got it for her for Christmas. My mum pinned an illustration from a book she had as a child on her pinterest with a little paragraph about how this was her favourite picture as a child and she used to get the book out just to stare at it, and I found a print of the illustration that the original artist’s family was selling and framed it for her for Christmas.

My mum’s boyfriend likes camping and complained that his socks always get sweaty so I got him these special breathable hiking socks.

Why do I bother going to all this trouble to make sure the gift is something the person wants, when my presents include cheap perfume sets (I have a scent allergy), nail kits (I bite my nails as a nervous thing and don’t have any to file down), and an empty box to store cards from a card game I do not play? Bro just give me nothing haha. Then at least I won’t feel the need to go to the trouble of getting a thoughtful gift, and get disappointed once again.

Next year everyone is getting a kmart bath bomb $5 gift box. Fuck it. I’ve got three of those with my name on them under the tree right now. So they clearly love that shit.

#i know this is whiny teenager shit but cmon #where could you complain about this if not the internet #i can hardly say to my family and friend's faces that they're shit at this and it hurts my feelings haha #Like that's the main thing #i dont care about GETTING THINGS like #i dont need the presents i can buy stuff for myself #but it hurts my feelings that people clearly dont listen to me or know me at all #when they're supposed to be the people closest to me #like im seriously not on their minds when they're out and about #nobody 'saw this and thought of you's me