#i just wrote a gorgeous long paragraph of akutagawa letting out his frustrations but then reread it and like. he would SO NOT SAY THAT.

[transsexualraskolnikov]

currently writing a sskk fic and crying because i be writing these long-ass eloquent poetic paragraphs of dialogue when actual atsushi and akutagawa speak only in screams of each other's names (not even THAT, in aku's case)

#i write like mf dostoevsky characters #brothers karamazov bitch ass over here #i just wrote a gorgeous long paragraph of akutagawa letting out his frustrations but then reread it and like. he would SO NOT SAY THAT. #these idiots CANNOT TALK. they're SO bad at feelings it causes everybody within 10 mile radius physical damage #(said affectionately. i love them for that.) #but i also cannot write characters talking without them spelling out their every single feeling #subtle writing????? whomst that??????? #i am a POET. i WILL write out the most inner machinations of atsushi's thinking process in an overtly detailed explanation delivered by him #fic writing