#i just want to cry a little bit sbdjdkl today was such a waste of time except for the fact i was able to get out of this hell house fhfkdl

[dandyshucks]

whyyyy does nobody ever come back to this group fjdkdl they show up once for a first time and then never return !!! its kind of crushing bc some ppl I've been like... excited at the prospect of seeing them again and then they just never show up ever again :')

and I didn't even get to draw anything good while sitting there !!! AUGH

#bleaseeee come back shfkdl im the only person that goes every week !!! #theres one other person who occasionally shows up but fjdkdl otherwise its just me #and then new ppl every time #and i cannot help but feel like im doing smth wrong and making them not want to return fhfkdl #i even get ppl to talk in the latter half once I've figured their vibe out and they seem genuinely happy to engage w convos #i somehow land on a topic we all enjoy and then we have a fun convo #and im very careful to not talk too much or too little djfkdl i am constantly adjusting to make sure I'm matching whats needed #i kind of have conversations irl down to a science dhdksl its ridiculous honestly but. it is what's gotten me thru life lmao #and I've been told countless times how good i am at connecting w ppl and making ppl feel comfortable #so im just like. what am i doing wrong !! how do i make this group enjoyable so ppl will come back !! #i know it's not my job lol im just an attendee and not a leader but i feel like i Have To if i want ppl to return #idk i just. god. there were cool ppl last week and this week it was some other new person who seemed like she did not want to be there #and i doubt I'll ever see those cool ppl last week ever again #i just want to cry a little bit sbdjdkl today was such a waste of time except for the fact i was able to get out of this hell house fhfkdl #i will just keep hoping that someone actually enjoys it enough to return i guess but this is getting a bit crushing to have happen so much #but... at least i am getting to talk to ppl face to face outside of my mother every week i suppose #vent // #dandy.cmd